Pluck.

Ban jia le.

2008-07-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

bigheadfreak.LJ.

no longer like this space actually. :)
so, yes. moving back to my old house.

AND, NA ALL THE BEST FOR NATIONALS!
feeling jittery every now and then, scary. haha.

Hi Bro.

2008-06-21T00:14:00.004+08:00

After finishing H3 exam, I lost my goal in this 12th year of education.
I don't know how to start studying again! (So weird but kinda true.)

Met Jerome on Monday, and something he said struck me (he always do that).
"Wenbin, what happened, you've become so lazy!"
And he gave me a rub on the shoulders.
Hmmm.

I thought about it... ... ... ...
...
...
...
...

I've been very lazy this year. What's wrong?
Oh man.

I'm glad he woke me up, at least for that instance.
I will work hard for my goal! Yes! :)
Thanks Brother, you did it again.

November 2007.

2008-06-16T00:34:00.005+08:00

16 November 2007.

Set off with my three best friends.

Looking forward to almost everything, except the lessons.

Anticipating snow, shopping and everything good.

15days changed our lives drastically.

It gave us good memories. It made our bond stronger.

It's not the great Chinese architecture but the stairs we climbed together.

It's not the weather but the coats we switched, and laughed about how stupid we look.

It's not the hotel facilities but the roommates we had.

It's not the food we had but the jokes we cracked during dinner.

It's not the tasty noodles but the funny waiters and encounter.

It's not the tour group, but the four of us.

It's a warm winter.

And I'm recollecting it, all over again. How?

PZY said she missed last winter too. MJY too. How about you NKS?
:)

And although sometimes I hate to admit this, but I miss you a lot, I hope you're doing fine and keeping up with studies! I'm sure you are. I'm sure you miss us too.

I'm sure you miss the wonderful meals, those rice buckets you've cleared, that funny girl, the times we talked when we see nothing but each others' minds, the times we aren't together when we are together. I can't believe we went through so much again, in this 15 days.

Oh, stop it. Hmmm, I wonder when we will ever quarrel again. It beats keeping silent all these while.

MJY I'm sure you missed your cockroach! And your PZY who's the only one willing to go green with you, haha. And those very ugly shots taken of you, us, and the * photo taken at Wang Fu Jing. Haha, :) And those plane rides! I sat with you, and the feeling's different when we went there and when we came back, cos' the topics were different. Of course the conversation we had when we were returning was more fun, :D HAHA, don't beat me. I'm sure you missed those too. AND, your lettuce burger at Mac! LOL.

PZY! Oh my god our second Beijing trip together! Maybe there's going to be a third one! Haha. You and your jokes, and your Kang Shifu! Haha, oh man. Second time up the Great Wall together, feels great eh? And your sausages, you had a lot of them in Beijing lor! I just realised everything about you is food! Haha, can't stop eating eh? Bridge with xx and jelyn, bla bla. Your jokes keep my laughing cells alive 24/7! And your stomachaches! And that day where you felt sick and moody. Oh man. You wasted a day not having fun! :(

Oh man, I miss us, together.

Getting caught in our room, with one in the toilet, and one beside the bed, but slippers all around. Exchanging coats like nothing, and isolating mine. Eating zhajiangmian at that restaurant, getting laughed at cos' we know nothing and we ourselves had a good laugh. The long boring lectures, where we tried to kill time entertaining each other, or doing other productive stuff. The literature museum, instead of learning we fooled around with the statues? Or maybe the shopping trips to the Olympics merchandise stores, where we bought alot of those dolls and stuff? Haha. I really miss us.

The last time we got together was NKS's birthday, eh? That's 5 months ago already.

When are we going for ice cream again? Or another meal at the canteen, sitting on those a-bit-too-small chairs and eat those hard-like-rocks buns. Or maybe another visit to the museum, even a boring visit was made fun, and memorable. Or maybe even Mac, I want to make a special order for MJY. I want hot fudge sundae again. Or more dumplings? Maybe another trip to the supermarket. Ahh, reminiscing.

30 November 2007, came back. The trip ended, memories didn't.

The camera just couldn't catch enough of the best moments.

I had a great winter.

I mean, I had one of the best winters in my life, and in the decades to come.

With 3 of the best friends made at three different stages of my life, this is timeless.

I wish winter don't come anymore, cos' nothing would be better than the last one.

When we get together, :)

2008-06-14T23:19:00.010+08:00

YAY!

I LOVE ALL! :)

but where's huimin and justin? i love them still :D

and haven't seen richard in 17863238654 days!

finally saw him and caught up, oh i still miss him!

jiayou for your practices! :)

Shopped a little today, everything I bought was red! :D

OKAY,

studies-wise, I AM VERY SLOW.

haven't start geography at all.

And I aim to finish Econs by tomorrow.

Haha, guess I will skip a lot of chapters. :(

Honestly, I am not prepared for JCTs this time, and stubborn me refused to do anything about that.

I still love them, at least that's all that matters now, not the exams. :D

THANKS MEL.

2008-06-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

I never do this kind of lame shit thing before (I think.).
But for MEL, alright, shall try once and see how, lol.

1. At what age do you wish to get married?
Hmm, honestly, 28. HAHA.

2. Study hard or Play hard?
Die hard, studying and playing are tough.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
I don't know, actually.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Yes, and no. Stupid question.

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
I have a lot of dreams, hmm. Maybe I want 48 hours each day!

6. What is your idea of a friend?
Presence, trust, care and love.

7. What is your goal this year?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Guess so.

9. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
Eat, eat and eat. Then go slim down, then eat, then slim down and eat... Buy clothes, more of them, I want red blue green yellow pink all shit colours! Donate to Szechuan and Burma. Renovate the house, blabla. If you have all the time and money in the world, you'll do everything!

10. If time were to unwind, what would you want to change?
Hmm, don't think I would want to change. Life don't need a rewind.

11. What is the weirdest thing you have ever done?
LOL. I don't know what's weird.

12. What feelings you hate the most?
Disappointment.

13. What is your childhood ambition?
To be a teacher, hmmm.

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe I guess.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
To be able to eat. LOL.

16. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
Me, myself, I.

17. One person who you think will be able to guide you through everything?
I don't know actually.

18. Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
Talks like a machine gun!

19. Do you deserve to be loved?
Of course, hee.

20. Do you believe in vampires and werewolves?
Yes actually, woah.

THIS IS BORING, LOL.

When we can't go back.

2008-06-06T22:42:00.012+08:00

We recollect the past.

CARAMEL.

2008-06-06T00:36:00.008+08:00

I love CR and MEL!

I LOVE CARAMEL! LOL.

Text me if you need me alright, I love you big neh boy and witch.

(and I'm not used to having a tanned complexion, weird.)

I met Lisa today too, I love you too!

Stop fantasising about things that never ever happen and start studying and build your beautiful future! HAHA. :)

And I'm not starting to study like how I should!

Oh man.

Oh and I met Yvonne Maam from Nanhua Corps today.

She didn't change, still as fierce and violent as ever, :)

And I guess she's the most respected officer to me and my squad outside Xinmin, especially Kunyang and Weiqi. Sometimes I wish she was still here. I always learn from her, and Sock Maam and Weiye Sir, haha.

YES I WILL STUDY HARD FOR ALEVELS!

Now, some target setting for JCTs. Even if it sounds stupid, I'm still aiming for it anyway.

H2 Chinese Lit : 70/100 (A)

H2 Economics : 55/100 (C)

H2 Geography : 65/100 (B)

H2 Mathematics : 85/100 (A)

H1 General Paper : 50/100 (D)

Haha, Econs seems hard but yea, ALL THE WAY LOOWB!

(Actually, everything seems hard, lol.)

Lastly, I really hope you'd stay. But if circumstances and the heart doesn't allow, we have no choice too.
All the best.

Truckloads of bullshit.

2008-06-03T23:52:00.004+08:00

CDI was cool.
Bravo was the coolest. We won the competition!
And Adam Sir (lol.) and Peirong Maam were cooler than coolest. They aren't in the sun! Grr.
I learnt a lot again from this 3D2N course. One of the better zone event organised.
At least there's meaning for both the trainees and trainers.
But for the Instructor Team from the corps, I expected more. Oh well.
Then again, I saw another side of them, more to the positive one.

CDI camp was good.
I enjoyed the company of the trainers, my cadets and the people from Bravo alot.
And of course not forgetting Yongqing Sir (lol sounds cute), Staff Nab and Staff Mich!
Thanks for coming man, laughing with me hysterically during the Happy Hour (lol again.) and clearing up the breakfast. Oh talking about food, the food was good! And Tanglin is a funny place, somehow.
I'm loving the smell of the snake powder, whatever you call it. And seriously Nerissa looks like Shumin, lol.

IT CLUB CAMP.
Don't want to elaborate.
The worst camp I've had.
I've never got been scolded so much within such a short period of time, not even in some 3D2N or 4D3N SJAB camp. I've never seen people pushing blames around like anything, when I thought we should work as one committee.
Exco is truly disappointing, but so am I. Oh well, enough is enough, and you *, shut your trap and do something beneficial rather than nagging and talking nonsense. Second home eh, haha. Whatever. And you, better don't come to me, and apologise because as an Exco member you skipped the whole camp. B__h.
I regret myself for not being firmer, and being in control of the situation, okay fine.
It's over. I'm glad it's over.
This lesson's painful, so I'll remember it.
I hope I'm out of school this minute. It's such a wrong place for me. I can't find passion and purpose there.

Stop thinking, and start studying. I miss SJAB.

Blog blog blog mindblock.

2008-05-28T18:26:00.004+08:00

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL WEDNESDAY EVENING WHEN I JUST REACHED HOME FROM SCHOOL.
YES, it's SCHOOL during the beautiful holidays. Thanks arh, tsk.
Okay fine, I haven't blog for a while. ALRIGHT FINE, more than a while.
Mardi Gras, was okay. didn't dress up, no time to, don't want to, and lots of reasons for not dressing up. Haha, but it was fun, somehow.

omg, again.

JASONLOW! omg i'll miss his stupid (ironically he's a genius) face since there's no more H3.

Last Saturday was cycling for the kids! Quite fun eh, I enjoyed it. I'm sure Miss Ng Mr Chow and Adam enjoyed it too. I wonder if the juniors did so too.

FIELDWORK! On monday eh? Yup monday. Haha, was kind of, fun! LOL.
Photos kindly edited by Maziah! :)

(RANDOM: I MET JIAYING SOMETIME LAST WEEK TOO! :) I LOVE YOU!)

Okay, back to life.

Yesterday was an eventful day.
Saw that with my own bloody eyes, and I really woke up and thought about everything. Was quite stupid to trap myself inside this maze, and actually all I have to do is to get out of it. Maybe Someone up there decided to give me a lil' push and reminded me of the life I have ahead. Should move on and stop dwelling on the past. Yes that's true.
So I hope, I will not hear from you again, so I won't get swayed by my own thoughts and emotions again. Thanks friend, do me this last favour. I guess I'm determined to move on this time, right wb?

There's alot of things in my head that I want to tell someone, that I want to forget, that I never want it to happen. But sometimes again, what's the use of telling others? Matters are still like that, not as if wasting more saliva means solving the problem. So today, I rather keep matters to myself. Maybe I can do it better alone.
Yet, I'm scared of this kind of thought I'm having. Tell me it's just part of growing up. Hmmm.

And I realise I'm getting more and more naggy, haha. I hope that's something good. I should nag myself into studying. I should also nag myself into thinking lesser and acting more.
Omg lots of thinking really can kill. I'm scared of myself, somehow.
I'm scared of you too, I don't want to turn into you.

Tell all of you another secret,
I'm actually looking forward to CDI, hee. Hope it's fun. I hope I can slim down, lol!
HI ADAM, I will see you again.

"It doesn't matter as long as the right ones stay :)," a right one said so.
Hee, thanks a lot Director (LOL).

Wait! I got a new hair, ok not exactly new, but newer. I got a feeling Moon and Seok will see NO difference (again) but bear will notice.
And MOON call me okay! Got something to tell you about CLL tmr! I hope you bought a better phone!

To end off, a very childish photo Serena took yesterday, of me sucking my ice ermm. What do you call this in English? Lol mindblock.

Tell you another secret, ok two.
I really really miss secondary school life.
And, I feel like switching to a LJ, hmm.

Hi Friends.

2008-05-28T00:22:00.003+08:00

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All the best for your common test richard, I miss you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA TAN, I'll see you soon!
We should go watch a movie soon Rachel! Kungfu Panda? :D
JEROME LAU, study? :)
Mel mel mel MEOW, lol. Next week!
App App App Apple Dave CCR! Erm, next week too? :D
Chua wenlin! I very long never go Seoul Garden already, lol random.
Laowu! Movie with Rachel? Maybe zhiyuan and jon?

Yup. :)

Love, WB.

2008-05-18T19:54:00.006+08:00

To learn and never be filled, is wisdom; to teach and never be weary, is love.

Six years of my life here, in this little big family, from young to old, from being naive to the mature self, I have to thank a lot of people along the way.
One of those, one of the most important, will be our Corps Superintendent.

If not for you, I will not be back. You gave me and my mates so many opportunities, for me to stand in front of the young ones with such confidence and presence, and experienced so so many, that when I didn't join the brigade when I was in Xinmin, I would've regretted it so much, that I'd lead a stupid life.

But I am sorry, really sorry. If Yongqing's squad gave you lots of troubles and disappointments, I am sure my squad did as well, or even more. Attendance, disciplinary problems, re-shuffling and re-deployments, ... , I wonder we were the worst batch in your years of being the TIC, especially when we were between CL Zuli's very strong squad, and Liying's.

Now that you are leaving us, after ten years of leading the corps, I wonder how are you feeling. I wonder, when you are in the other school, finding no black and white uniform group, no corps leaders calling you from outside the staff room almost daily, no rejecting of proposals and scolding of cadets, no parade square to stand on with hundreds of cadets looking up to you, or dreading your presence, Maam, I wonder, would you miss us?

I am sure you will, cos' we'll miss you too. We'll still bag those CAA Gold, those FAC trophies, those weird bowling competition awards, and many more back to our corps even when you're not with us physically. We'll still apply hell lots of badges until HQ don't have the stocks, we'll continue to produce quality and strong leaders for the corps and brigade, and maintain our undefeatable position as the strongest uniform group in Xinmin. I know when all these happen, you'll be as happy as when you're still our Corps Supt. I know you won't leave us.

And personally, thank you. For giving me a lot a lot of chances, even when you faced oppositions, even when your stand was not agreed by many others. For your persistance, I swear to serve as long as I can.

Thank you, teacher.
____________________________

Corps Presentation Night 2008.
Wasn't involved in all the fun cos' half the time I wasn't around, if not preparing for the farewell segment. But indeed it was the most memorable one I had, apart from CPN 2006. Good work Publicity, for producing something in only one or two weeks' time, since the preparation was so short. For that you all deserved a pat, especially Michelle Kenneth Esther and Tsern Ting, great work!

Saw lots of supersuper (old) seniors too! Maam Aminah, Sir Samuel, (even) Sir Charles, Sir Willy, Maam Sufang, Sir Eugene, CL Kokwei, Maam Ayu, and of course AC's dearest Maam Hawa. Remembered alot of them, cos' I learnt alot from them. Like Sir Charles, I think he only appeared once in my SJ life, and that's sec one where he taught us something, haha. CL Kokwei, who spent some time talking to me when I got CL rank at sec 4, and that inspired me. Maam Ayu, who guided me alot from ITC period till I became an instructor. And of course Maam Hawa, who scolded us and woke us up, all the way till we got our Zone Champions.
:)

I love SJAB. I love Mrs Tan!

(and CL Vivian, yet another successful project accomplished by the best parters of SJ! :D)

H3 IS OUT.

2008-05-14T23:58:00.005+08:00

ALRIGHT MAN, H3 IS OUT OF MY LIFE, YAY.
Didn't do well, but should be able to pass, lol. I'm actually aiming for a B, or C.
Look at me, lowering my expectations like anything on Earth.
But I seriously don't feel like caring. Cos', more importantly,
H3 IS OVER! H3 IS OVER! H3 IS OVER!
H3 IS OVER! H3 IS OVER! H3 IS OVER!
H3 IS OVER! H3 IS OVER! H3 IS OVER!
THANKS MOON SEOKHAN SUYEE AND ALOT ALOT. I FINALLY ENDURED THROUGH THIS TOUGH MODULE!
Let's care about the results when time comes.

Went back to the corps today, felt refreshed, :)
I got my new officer corps tee too! Yay!
KAHLUN BETTER START STUDYING HARD!
Looking forward to CPN, anyhow, and since Mrs Tan is leaving, sigh.

Had Geography Urban essay test today as well, it's part of the JCTs.
Thought I'll be doomed since I devoted my two weeks of studying-till-1am plans to H3 Maths.
It turns out the 1hour reading on the way to school today helped me alot man.
Both questions covered on something I've read. But well, luck used up, and no luck for H3.
The proving questions are crazy, rah.

Anyhow, attended band concert last Saturday. :)
Really not bad. Maybe I don't know how to appreciate in the best way or something, but at least I enjoyed it! Haha. Took lots of crazy photos, went to chill out, and I refused to post the most explicit photo on Earth, heh.

OK, I'm getting tired, there's a lot of events going on tomorrow, and more on Friday.
Before I reach CPN, I have Mazarin Shine Day and college clean-up [!!].

Friend, good luck to your match tomorrow, :)

What can't be cured, must be endured.

2008-05-11T23:49:00.002+08:00

3 more days to H3 Exam.

"A mother understands what a child does not say."
Happy Mothers' Day,
:)

half-dead.

2008-05-06T23:21:00.006+08:00

OMG I like this photo, so cute. We smile like life's really good, well, not really so.
H3 H3 H3 H3 H3 H3 H3 H3 H3.
This time I really sat down and studied, study and am studying. But well, nothing much goes in, or rather the speed I take is much slower than many geniuses out there.
Oh man. Zzz.

Haven't been myself lately.
Tried hard to listen to what people have to say like what I usually do, but currently I lost that precious ability. Maybe it's exam stress. Give me one more week friends, I do care but I don't show it these few days! Cos' I really want to give myself lots of attention as this paper is important to me.
Those who are not feeling good, takecare! In tough times like this, some grow wings and some walk on clutches, which one are you? :)

I hope I grow wings, and I really want to beat all geeks out there. Okay wrong, beat myself and get a Distinction for H3 maths! Oh man. Seems tougher than climbing Mt Everest.

I swear I won't blog for a week. Bye people. Suyee all the best for your competition! Fred all the best for your concert! Wenbin all the best for your H3 Exam next week! :)

Goal?

2008-05-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I posted again on the same day.
Haven't done so for one year and more.

Read my posts last year, or even two years ago.
My goal was very simple, clear-cut, straight.
Get good results for Alevels, move on and apply for MOE scholarship, and go on to be a teacher. Maths, Chinese whatever, that can wait.

Now, if you ask me where am I going in future, I might take a few moments to think, and might not give you a confident and definite answer like how I used to. Oh well.

Initially I wanted H3 Maths so much too, now I don't even know what I took it for, why is this happening? Time? Hah, lousy excuse. Just say you've changed wenbin, you've changed.

Oh well, this is getting more and more tiring.

Okay I have lots to accomplish.
Save my H3,
Save my JCTs,
Save my time,
Save my weight,
Save my money,

and above all,
Save my friendship.

自从那一天起我自己做决定
自从那一天起不在意谁的否定
自从那一天起听我说的道理
when i am after 17.

"I can fly."

2008-05-04T12:30:00.006+08:00

THAT'S IT. I HAD ENOUGH, I WANT TO WATCH IRONMAN! HAH.
man, After my H3 exam.

Yea, I should be out of SYF Parade already, since the rehearsals clashes with JCTs, that's great. Should be a happy thing more than a sad one, haha.

And and and, H3 exam coincides with 1/4 of Geography JCTs!
Omg, urban geog essay. What a freak.

And and and. I guess that's all for today, haha.
This is so freaking saddening but I'm still blogging, lol!
Shut up. Bye! :)

"m x n matrix is.."

2008-05-01T22:41:00.006+08:00

okay i'm quite lag, CONGRATS MOONJY! you finished your concert, im happy and sad for you! hehe!

HAPPY LABOUR DAY.
my progress was slow today. i'm still at erm, topic 2? :(
omg i'm gonna do it. 13 more days to H3 alevels!

And i signed myself up for (or have to) HELL LOTS of zone activities this term (and term 3 :x).

CDI Course (June.)
SYF Parade (May - July!)
CPR-AED Course (June)
CBB Ceremony (June)
AGI (AUGUST!!!! lol.)

Man, lol. 1 course, 1 camp, 2 parades and 1 ceremony. 4 volunteered and 1 compulsory, i'm quite dumb but i don't regret it. cos' i know i will have to force myself to study for alevels and commit to all these at the same time, let's go!

"It is not true that if AB=0, A=0 or B=0...."
H3 madness.

Read a few paragraphs on TIME's report on global warming.
Found it quite enlightening, lol. madness.

MUG FOR H3!!!
and to some of 27/07, HAVE FUN IN KUANTAN. :)

there's IT Club tomorrow, hmmm.

History.

2008-04-27T12:48:00.002+08:00

Reading through my long-ago posts from my previous blog.
Went to April 2006, found AA, went to April 2005, found AC.
April 2006, I found a friend who understood me too, but he's lost, for now, maybe for good.
Hmmm.

'If we ever get separated, just whistle.
I'll come running,
I promise. '
-Yuna, FFX

Childish day.

2008-04-25T22:44:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT, photos on the GIS competition day. hee :D

SHOPPING WITH SUYEE IS QUITE FUN. :)
But I still miss that polo tee, sigh!
raah, I must find a same one! haha.

throughout the whole day today, i was laughing like an idiot/6-year old kid. suyee and fred must be crazy hearing all that laughters lol. exceptionally high today, don't know why, :)

tell all a secret.

I MISS JEROME! :(

there's two zone department meetings tomorrow, :(
and there's AURORA XII! MOON'S GUITAR CONCERT!
ALL THE BEST MAN! YOU CAN DO IT!

[someone borrowed my 3 elva albums, where are they? :(]

Life without training.

2008-04-23T23:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGQING! :)
You've grown up, wonderful! Continue to grow up and study hard! Thank you for contributing so much to the corps, appreciate all the efforts!

Alright, back to life.
No more FAC trainings, life's boring, only my 27/07 friends entertain me.
Feeling's empty, cos' I suddenly lose a goal, cos' everything's decided and we can't go back, never.

If we could go back, if I could write my own story, I will be a childish author. I will cancel you guys away from my sight, from my life even. You irritating people, disturbing the sequence of my life. I will erase off whatever's written of you, cos' I know it isn't true, it so isn't true.
I will be a childish author, I will want it my way, cos that's if I could write my own story.

But we know life's not like this, life's real. We're in reality. Reality is cruel, we can't change whatever's done.
Bla, I swear I don't wanna take my own team next time again, so scary, all the experience and everything. I want to be a real spectator next year.
I can't help feeling sore cos' this is never what I want. Been a few days so what? This kind of results is unacceptable, at all. Other teams deserved better.

BACK TO TODAY.
It was GIS Competition.
Yes, we didn't win, haha. Got special prize though.
And that freaking *JC won! omg. So arrogant and snobbish and everything disgusting. Just like ___ last week. Piss me off. Even a simple GIS competition made me think of that, see how disgusting you are. But I was amused when one of the group member jumped for joy and tripped on the stage today, lol. Serves you right you pig.
Ok GIS closed!

I have H3, ITCLUB (sad), MAZARIN (sian.) and my studies to work hard for this month.
No more SJAB for one month and I'm afraid I might become crazy.

H3, I really should spend more freaking time with it now, sigh. I DON'T WANT ANYTHING BUT DISTINCTION ALTHOUGH IT'S HARD, GET ME?

Back to school (with a roar).

2008-04-20T23:03:00.004+08:00

Alright, FAC's over, no more training and no more seeing my children. Still having zone business however, :( I should go back to SCHOOL, and settle all my IT Club shit, go and do something about my disgusting H3, and study hard. No wait, there's GIS competition this Wednesday. Man.

But whatever it is, I hate to go school! haha. Whatever, have to go anyway.

And Bernie is really trained by me! HAHA, shut up ass. And Adam too, he completed his theory phase! & I realise after FAC each year, people got back different stuff and thoughts back. I hope those who brought passion back can hold on to that, no matter young or old. It was also because of FAC last year, that spurred me on to think that I should work hard for Best Trainee in OTC. Failed though, but I worked hard, :)

Hate IT Club, but I am the president. I should take some ownership, and full responsibility. Although it's as good as a dead club now, I should hold on and do something about it. H3 too, it's what I chose, so hey! Do something about it. It's going to appear in your certificate in future, nothing but Distinction I tell you.

Fight one more round. When your arms are so tired that you can hardly lift your hands to come on guard, fight one more round. When your nose is bleeding and your eyes are black and you are so tired that you wish your opponent would crack you one on the jaw and put you to sleep, fight one more round - remembering that the man who always fights one more round is never whipped.

Yes, fight one more round. Hello Temasek, I AM BACK (with a sad face). Goodbye Xinmin, I WILL BE BACK (next month).

It will be soon when I wave goodbye to all the tiring burdens (not commitments,self-inflicted or not), and I will be a happier boy. Hah.

Our Champions.

2008-04-19T23:24:00.009+08:00

Firstly for my NC.
I am really really really really really really really really surprised shocked happy and most importantly, touched.
My efforts didn't go down the drain. I felt that I tried so hard this year. It should be the toughest year training FAC teams. Maybe it's because of the distance I've to travelled, maybe it's the team spirit itself, or whatever.
Your efforts weren't wasted too!
WE MADE IT. SECOND. might not be something big or wow to others, but you know how much this means to you, when in reality you only got 7 days of REAL training.
I am real proud of you guys, I didn't waste my tears and sweat.

For AA,
You worked hard, it was a close fight, and good fight. Whatever it is, I feel sad, but at the same time very happy, cos' at least I see you guys being very very serious, for this time.
This is not the end, it just marks another start. This experience makes all grow up, I am sure. & to Joel, good job. I think you really did your best. Kahlun and Ahbeng good job too, for motivating one another and supporting the team. Isaac don't feel sad, cos' you know you've tried hard, :)
Kudos to AA!

For NA,
After all the loss, after those humiliation you've gone through last year, after all those heart-wrenching moments in the team. After everything, you fought back, for all of us. You guys made it, WE MADE IT! I really got nothing to say, you guys deserve whatever you got now. :)

I can't believe myself today. Saw AA's results, tried hard not to cry. After AC's results was announced, I couldn't take it anymore. How could this be? Tears of anger, yes. NA, omg NA. Yes. I was so touched, I cried. Like, loud. Even yunjia's crying, NA07 and NA08 got back at everything, everything! Then NC's turn. SECOND. omfg I just couldn't control myself AND CRY LIKE SAI. OMG. haha, alright i improved! adrian sir said I cried lesser this year, haha. :)

Special thanks to Bernie, Weiqi, Adam, Liying, Yongqing, Seowkoon, CL Zuli, Brenda, Meiqi and all other trainers who helped in one way or another.
We did it.

To all 3 teams, let this be a new start. Bring whatever attitude and mindset you held for the competition back to the corps and apply them wisely. Your cadets need you!

We turned it around, yes, good days are waiting.
They turned it around too, erm, wow.

This is a situation of a trainer-cum-officer with mixed feelings about today's results, haha. Can't describe this in words, nah.
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FAC went well! (on the operations side)
Bavani's working so hard can! Me too!
And the marshals did great, thanks to Adrian Sir, Siying Maam, Yangqing and Adam! :)
I like most of the OCTs this year, they seemed very driven and capable. Maybe the zone will see brighter days soon, keep that up.

To all Zone 7 OCTs especially my dearest ADAM ANG KAHCHIN, all the best for theory test tomorrow and your MOI! CHELSA GO FOR IT TOO!
Congratulations, you guys completed the theory phase!

Thank you XMSJAB, thank you competition teams 2008, you guys made us trainers feel like champions too, :)

The beginning of every end.

2008-04-18T18:01:00.002+08:00

TO OUR PROUD AA NA AND NC:
Do your very best tomorrow, work towards your common goal alright! :)
Seen all grown up, and are still growing up, and that makes me proud and satisfied.
All the best, I shan't say "Good luck to all!" for you guys don't need much luck.
GO FOR IT! :) DO THE CORPS REAL PROUD YEA!

Yes, this is where I find my passion, purpose and drive.
It's so different from temasek, I only got my classmates.
I hate it when people keep ranting on me not taking part in the competition itself. So what? My trainers and I feel like we're part of it, we're together as one team. Never mind, let me ignore them.

Therefore, XMSJAB GOGOGO! APTITIUDE!
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Lastly, I got a disastrous piece of news.
I FAILED H3 TEST 2.
IT PULLED DOWN MY OVERALL PERCENTAGE FOR ALEVELS, TOTALLY.
Forget it, I'm not very sad anyway, cos' I know I didn't put in enough effort and work.
Let this be a wake-up call, I will definitely study hard for the final exam coming up in May, after tomorrow.

Sorry Wenbin, I will do better!

blackmail material.

2008-04-14T23:03:00.005+08:00

Nothing much to say today.
Just want to say, I really see some light now.
I hope my last struggle will do some good and shake them awake.
Let me tell you guys another secret,
I trust all of you, do you trust me?
If you do, use these four days properly. Do yourselves proud, do yourselves justice. Go and kick their asses. We're so gonna do it, I'm sure, if you're sure too, leaders.

I have a dream, do you have one?
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Random pictures taken over the weekend, :) I should do some serious work, test tomorrow.

A Miracle.

2008-04-09T20:30:00.004+08:00

Today's the graduating seniors' farewell.
Remembered I said something like that to the Sec4s last time, "If St John ever falls under your hands, I swear I will come back and slap your face one by one."
Nah, you guys did great. A lot of changes, incidents, and everything. But I appreciate each and single one of you, all the best for your future, :)
_____________________________________

I am so tired, at this moment. Mentally and physically.

For all the lessons skipped,
For all the tests unstudied,
For all the lectures not paid attention to,
For the tears I hate to shed but did so,
For all the perspiration I perspired,
For all the worries and fears I faced,
For the fatigue I endured,
For all the consequences I've embraced,
For the very best I've tried, &
For all the words I've said,

I hope it is enough to create a miracle. I just need one. It is only a few days from now. I can count down with my fingers already. How scary.
Help me, I really don't know what to do. Never in my life did I try so hard, I want to see some reaction, can I?
I really. I really lose hope. Nothing changed, at all.
We have five effective days to work out a miracle.
Can we do it?

I have 3 tests tomorrow.

RANT.

2008-04-09T00:25:00.005+08:00

OH! I found this, haha. It's like, our national competition where we got thrashed like sai?! haha! my posture sucks like disgusting can? T.T

OKAY THIS IS NOT THE MAIN POINT OF THE DAY.
THE POINT IS,
Hi Wong Su Yee! Happy BELATED (very very belated) birthday and I love you! You're a great friend to have. :)

spent the whole Monday doing the GIS thing, reached home at only 12midnight. gosh.
finally handed in today, studied at night with suyee and fred.
ok we didn't study, we talked more can!
and i love them, they're great friends to be with, serious. :)
but fred you suck though, stop calling me bitch i tell you, you idiot.

SIDETRACK:
THERE ARE ALOT OF MOVIES THAT I WANT TO WATCH NOW LA! :( got like seriously no time, HOW! I wanna watch kelly chen's "an empress and her warriors" cos' I haven't watch such chinese historical action movies for quite long already! enjoyed those i watched, like "Curse of The Golden Flower" and "The Banquet". Enjoyed them totally! A pity I didn't catch "The Warlords", arh. There's another one, Andy Lau's "Three Kingdoms: Resurrection of the Dragon"! Omg, IT'S THREEKINGDOMS! Maggie Q's inside too la! OMGOMGOMGOMG. lol. Watched the trailer but I prefer Kelly Chen's. They said Three Kingdoms is in Mandarin but the trailer showed nothing but war scenes, not even dialogues. Even the title was pronounced in English. So where is the Mandarin part? BEST IS I CAN WATCH BOTH! Someone date me! Might not be free though, haha.

and i'm glad to have suyee around. she's from sj too, she went through what i did, and it's easy to relate to regarding matters like that. thanks friend! you jiayou too, persist on what's right! :)

and i'm really very scared now, 10 days left. i seemed to be more worried than the five of you. tell me why.

To me.

2008-04-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

My greatest pride also disappoint. I am always so proud of that, although that fails me sometimes. Today's the worst, how can you do this. You broke a promise, your own promise to yourself, and to us, indirectly. Where's the courage the trust the determination and that sense of duty? Lost, totally.

You don't know how much you make me proud. Well, so? You put your freaking emotions over your commitment and your love. Tell me, are you ashamed, or not?

"The higher your expectations is, the greater the disappointment will be."
Once again, I fell prey to such a situation.

I feel like crying.

Fear.

2008-04-06T01:37:00.005+08:00

Firstly, I am so tired. Hope the GIS project will be over soon. (It will be.)
So hungry, didn't have dinner, walao.
Yes, a lot of things to do tomorrow.

Secondly, for FAC.
I found my neutral stats officer (YAY.).
I did my dispatch table (DOUBLE YAY.).
I am half-way there for the form-up plans (YAY.).
I finished the zone stuff already, now is the corps stuff.

NC, you guys are not ready, at all.

Alright Promotion Parade yesterday!

Don't have a good photo of Michelle's! Hah.
Short parade this year, somehow.
Kinda sad that the Sec4s are going, especially the corps leaders.
They changed alot, did alot, contributed alot, and built alot.
Hope they will be back! :)
Congratulations to all, all the best to Kenneth, goodluck to Cherie, "hahaha" to Yongqing and Bernie especially, jiayou Shili and Kahlun and so on...
Those who didn't get what you want, don't grieve over it. Instead maybe you should think of what you are lacking in? yea. :D Sec1s good luck next year!
:) hee, i love xmstjohn.

Actually I'm afraid.
What if it happens again?
But maybe it won't. Yet again, happening once caused that deep impression that it'll happen again. I'm so stressed and scared alright, it's forcing me into tears. The day hasn't come but the thought of it is enough for fear to devour me up. Just half a month, no it's just a few days. In here for 4 years, but this year is the most stressful year. What's happening wb? Whatever the outcome is, we are all responsible, especially me, I feel. I really hate to see a sea of crying cadets again.

I AM NOT READY FOR SCHOOL ON MONDAY.
:(
sorry fred.

IT IS APRIL'S FOOL DAY.

2008-04-01T20:15:00.002+08:00

Firstly, happy birthday to Seowkoon! I wish you'd have good results for Olevels (that's for sure), stop being sick and dirty up there, learn to be a bit fiercer, and COME BACK TO HELP! :D

Secondly, it's 1st April! Two years back, AA. Well, I love them :) Saw Kahmeng on the bus today, what a coincidence, haha. I guess that's fate. Your best trainer (yea!) wishes all of you a better and happier life, good results (especially Bernie) and love me too! Those monkey bar fun and leopard crawls were memorable. You've all grown up, ran away and flew to where you should belong to. But still, remember this space, remember the area outside stjohn room where we always do our cases, remember the parade square where you did your damn-zai footdrill, remember the english corner where I threw you my champion trophy and reprimanded all of you in Mandarin (it was in the middle of activity somemore), remember your trainer who had high expectations because he really thought you guys would thrash all those out there. Lastly, I'm sorry, guess that was too much for all of you.

TOMORROW IS H3 TEST. I AM REALLY RESTING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS.
HAHA, I am damn tired. If I tell you I'm fully prepared for the test I must be cracking an April's Fool joke, but I really studied everything. It's just whether I can absorb or not. 15% for Alevels leh, cannot play play only. Oh man. :(

Tell you another April's Fool joke, I'VE SLIMMED DOWN! LOL.
Now that's a good joke.

THIS FRIDAY IS PROMOTION PARADE! I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

After this H3 test, I want to concentrate on training NC, after that then I shall really study. Bless me whoever. :)

Procrastinated to stop this procrastination.

2008-03-30T20:02:00.006+08:00

Kuantan trip, that's one week ago.
never appreciated nature in such an intimate way, the hard rocks and wet stones, the sunny sun and the very high temperatures, the not-so-cyber cyberjaya, the very grand hotels, the very funny people (especially one who falls of from his chair), and ...
I realised I digressed away from the topic of nature, haha.
I hate the monkeys though, rah.
I loved the bridge games on bus! Especially when seokhan is quite slow and funny. I must learn from Moon and Yingying, GROSS PEOPLE.
Wow and I found someone who is as manly as bertha, she's just next to our class, haha!
I also found a bao on the sea! If there's intense heat underneath the seawater, maybe it'll become a charsiew bao! lol. I really think too much, but it's really cool though :)
OOOH! I LOVE M'SIA'S SEAFOOD! :D

I took photos with the girls, but it's all not with me, we'll wait. :)

Yesterday was Xinmin Sports Day and SJAB's ANNUAL FLAG DAY! WOO.
Did flag day with Adam at Tampines last year, so decided to go Sports Day this year. The sec1s and 2s are such poor things, they haven't been to the sports day yet. But well, there's nothing to look forward to as well, oops.
Met a very irritating casualty, and this is the first time I scolded a casualty! He isn't even a casualty, DON'T THINK I AM DUMB! Rah, I'm sure I will glare at him if I see him again.
Despite going for Sports Day, I brought a tin over, and collected donations too. Hee. :)

Went to Yingjie's in the evening. Supposed to go at 3pm but well, I'm always late. LOL. SO LONG NEVER SEE THEM! Especially CHOOJIAYING, it's been two months! Miss me right! Always having fun with them :)

Counting Day today! Went to HQ with some of the mature jnrs and kids to count our corps' flag day collection! We did well again! But of course there'll be some black sheep, oh well. KAHLUN IS THE TOP COLLECTOR, Congrats eh! :)
And yea, these people are dead funny. And Yongqing and Nabilah were very very funny too! LOL. Sigh, they're stepping down in a few weeks' time. :(

I needa do work and study, H3 test on wednesday and I'm sure I am going to die. Well, I hate to believe whatever I speculate, SO I'M SO GOING TO DO WELL! :) YES! We'll see, whatever.

A lot of good incidents happened in the class too, will blog again soon! :)

If we could go back.

2008-03-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Randomly, I thought of AC and NC '05.
It's April 2nd soon. Three years back, we were sitting in the waiting room of HQ, competing against other corps of the zone.

Footdrill was our first item. Average.
Long Case. Omg, I was so so so nervous. It's 200 points. If we die in this, we die forever. When we accessed the case, all went well. Kunyang (my dearest no.1) and Jinkai got the CPR casualty, I got the other with Chinhong. Everything went so smoothly. The casualty suffered from haemothorax because of some stab wound. Omg, you know that was the injury I loved during comp days? Of course I know how to diagnose and treat! Chief Judge was satisfied, we were too, but after that we realised no.4 forgot to clear the knife, argh! Haha.
TOC, first time we dealt with cervical collar. Got a shock, wore the cervical collar wrongly, ambulance loading didn't go well, everything was a cock-up in this section. Demoralised.
Short Case. I was damn shocked. There was three casualties in short case?! All weird abrasions, and one got hypertension, if I wasn't wrong. But well, the whole team thought that we sucked.

Got back to the waiting room, very demoralised. TOC and SC were failures. No.1 wasn't happy. We weren't, too.
Results. "Coming in first for Ambulance Cadet Category is... ... Xinmin Corps!"
Omfg. I was, flabbergasted. Or whatever. Tears just came down naturally. We beat HCI, we beat HCI! OMG. Got up the stage, I still thought I was dreaming. Until no.1 laughed at me and called me to stop crying.

Went on to nationals. Didn't perform, at all. 6th position. Was a great insult, and disappointment. We didn't try. That's why.

As for NC... sigh.

If we could go back,
Would we work hard for nationals?
Would NC find out what's wrong and work it out?
Would we have made the corps prouder?
Would we have made our sweat and tears more worthwhile?

I'm sure AC went through alot, even after competition. Tears was abundant, there was once we cried like we got free tears, haha. Yea, we always quarrel. We always stick together in sjab. And now although some of us went apart, I'm sure we still remember one another, and the wonderful days. Of course our trainers, and our dearest NC. We motivated each other, and without them, I'm sure we would not be where we landed at.
Without AC and NC, I wouldn't have known Wenlin so well, nor find Eeliang such a cute idiot, nor had so much fun and memories in my secondary school days. They made up all of my cadet life. Aww.

Oh, I miss them. Let's go through it again. Haha. Those mentally torturous moments and pains. They made us grow up.
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And you,
If we could go back, perhaps we shouldn't be friends. Maybe, I don't even know you, after these 3-odd years.

If I could go back, perhaps I wouldn't get myself so much responsiblities in college, and spend more time on what I really want, and what I really beed to.

If I could go back, I want to undo so many so many mistakes that I've done in my entire life, and not hurt those whom I did.

If I could go back, perhaps I shouldn't waste those tears on stupid things and issues that aren't worthy of it. I should've learn how to be stronger much much earlier, and manage my emotions.

Face the reality, we cannot go back, what's done cannot be undone, they never can. Move on, change yourself, than change the environment. It's painful to adapt but I must do it. I wasted enough time. Really. I should work hard for my goals. Prepare NC for zone FAC, settle my ITclub problems, finish my Mazarin project, get an A for my H3 maths, finish the GIS competition, and lastly get 4As for my content subjects. It's quite embarassing to say this since I'm quite lousy, but I really want to be the Top Arts Student next year when I come back to get my results! I have dreams, I have goals, I have ambitions. Yup, I want to turn these to reality. Oh well.

Lastly NC, I hope you got what I told you, have some discipline and commitment. Just endure these 3 weeks of intensive training and after that everything's over. Work hard, tell yourself you can do it!
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I lost so much in the first term of 2008. In turn I've become stronger. Fair trade? We'll see.

MARCH CAMP! (i'm late.)

2008-03-19T20:05:00.014+08:00

sixth corps training camp for me. new experience, new people, new incidents, with a lot of memorable playbacks in my head.

back at Fernvale site, bunk at the 4th level. firedrill in the weehours of the morning, leovine sir and his ridiculous changing parades. lost beret and torch, while the PC of the other platoon got it for me and returned me, promotion parade, and campfire. strict messtin cleaning, worse standardisation parades, 100 water parades everyday, 90-degree arm posture, everything. that was my sec 1 and 2 years, as a trainee. i think i was in alpha for both years.

sec 3, camp in sentosa. worst camp ever. not fun, sian, boring, sucks. S4 supply NCO, did nothing but make milo, and basically i was just seeing cadets enjoying life in training camp. they're sleeping in chalets. oh well, no comments for that year. was a bad year in terms of camp.

sec 4, back to hougang site. S3 head, a stressful camp. broke down on the first day of camp during dinner, in front of miss ng, when everything went haywire. timings got wrong, everything was delayed, even meal time was extended. had to cancel some programmes along the way to fit in those irritating stuff. day 2 didn't get better. officers came and knock me until i die, was so irritated and pissed on day 2 that my DY cried with me. scolded my members like i never did so in stjohn, especially to adam tianrong and kahmeng. the camp where i learnt alot. all the trainees' time and life in camp was in my dept's hands. i never forget that camp.

2007, S3 advisor. shirleen was head and she got gekhan and yongqing as DYs. they did well, i did too much. lol. camp went on smoothly. dept was creative too. lucky for them, and lucky for me. was the first time i see adam so fierce too. left on day3, for OTC. was very tired and dozed off. the minute i did so some weird officer over there scolded me, fine. i still survive!

this year, still in hougang, 3rd camp here already. this year is way different. got a different post, saw things from a different perspective, and glad, and touched in many ways. i'm thankful for being part of this big family.

HQ shows you what's speed.

marcus quek was very enthusiastic!

he's still very!

whatever.

S3 DY!

like this photo.

lol joel looked very high.

candid isaac 1.

yongqing stop staring.

FIRE.

XO!

oh i like, ultra random.

service to mankind, :)

look, our future officer.

candid isaac 2. whatever!

isaac stop this.

old ppl!

joel don't you feel hot with two layers and the campfire beside you?

lol PPG.

with CO and XO!

ismail who came back to find us :)

sec4 squad, they're leaving us so fast, :(

the important ppl behind our promising cadets.

nothing much to say, cos' it's an expression you'll understand only if you've been through such camping days. you suffer tgt eat tgt run tgt bathe tgt and scold the RSM and officers tgt. yes, it's something you won't understand unless you're part of it.

throughout the whole camp, i really like how HQ works. it seems to be they're the smoothest bunch of trainers i've seen so far. i like the enthusiasm on their face, their sense of duty and responsibility. haven't seen that in a while.
congratulations to marcusquek and cherie, you guys did well. i'm also glad to see many mature and grow up in the camp, felt touched. thanks maamsock and sir adrian for those advices and help, i need them. thanks meiqi brenda and teresa for readily and voluntarily taking up the roles as PCs even though you guys don't need to. was a tough job i believe, but you guys did great! and thanks shirleen, even though you won't be coming back but i'm glad you finished your last project on hand before stepping down.

yea, that's all for camp, i guess. hope i will be able to join camp next year again. we'll see.

back to life, back to college.
back to IT Club. i don't want to face such a situation. my exco tried hard, i really really tried, and this isn't the results i want. but again, perhaps it's really my responsibility. i don't know. maybe we didn't try that hard yet. i just feel sad for some reason, this shouldn't be the way. i feel angry about myself. let's just pray, alright.

going Kuantan for 4 days.
NC please work hard, read your first aid and home nursing! if you see this tell your teammates. work together. you guys can do it.

ok, i really got no mood now. what the hell is wrong with everything.

Hi Sore Throat.

2008-03-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

freakshit, damn freakshit. what kind of throat is this?!
(a sore throat.)
I WANT TO SHOUT ALSO DIFFICULT.
what's life without noise and volume?!
(boring life.)

yes my throat is that sore that i can't speak. my thoughts help me to. :(
from the start of march camp till NOW, i've drank hundreds of litres of water, eaten 18 strepsils, drank half a bottle of pipagao, eaten 10 vicks, drank one bottle of herbal tee and luohanguo thing each, and LOOK AT ME. IT'S GETTING WORSE.
ass, freakshit! lol.

I WANT TO TALK.
i need to talk to the ITC people, on wednesday. they all ah... oh well.
i need to talk to NC, i feel that i'm neglecting them. are they in good hands? are they trng? are they improving? gosh i feel so not in touch with them. should do something. competition is like so near... oh well.
i need to talk to my friends! haha. if not i feel so sian in school. today the whole world keep asking me why am i so sad or whatever. i'm not, it's just that I GOT NO VOICE. DAMN FREAK.
i need to talk to my mum! freak shit. everytime i want to ask her sth i feel so tired and lazy cos' it strains my throat. damn.

I NEED TO ALTER MY SAFARI, before promotion parade. i don't want to look like any other bus uncle again and let cl vivian mock at me, rahh!

I NEED TO FREAK OUT AND RELAX, i keep having that weird vision about PW results. i don't want a C in my cert. i never had a C in my cert la, not even a B please. omg. this would be my first B or C in my entire life. DAMN. B LA. C like sai like that. i think i will just skip school and hate my PW teacher forever. maybe hate myself too, for doing such a lousy job. (damn, heart pumps.)

I WANT TO TALK ABOUT CAMP TOO. but i need photos, so i shall wait. been bloghopping and realise RSM is quite famous on the first day, lol. cool (msn emoticon with the cool shades pops out in my head)! but alright i didn't do a good job, i think. seriously. but well it's over, treat it as a lesson learnt. trainees also not very good, from what i observed. they are..., oh well. if you have been through more than one or two training camps you'll understand whatever i'm saying. haha. and i'm quite worried this is my last camp, oh well. let's see where fate brings me. I WILL UPDATE ON CAMP SOON! :) it's a good and well-planned camp on the trainers' side though. hee.

this is one of the very very few photos i took. S1 NCO acting like a kid. (he is one.)

AND YOU KNOW WHAT. TODAY TEMASEKJC GAVE US A HALF-DAY! (yes surprisingly, hee.) as very good students who respect the college policy, we left school early :) SO I MEET CHUA WENLIN FOR MOVIE! :)
(since she got holidays while the rest are commontesting away, oh well, bobian, HAHA.)
and i scolded her for not attending campfire which was such a fun thing and all. (FYI juniors, she was logistics head 1000years ago in xmsjab. she really suck at it, HAHA.) yea as vibrant youths who support the arts scene, we watched step-up2! coool, like the female lead. :D better than the first, i think.

OKAY MY SORE THROAT IS NOT CURED.
my thoughts seem very aloud today.
and i swear to update on camp. :)
there's H3 tmr. (gosh, damn it. freakshit.)

Flowers.

2008-03-11T23:37:00.004+08:00

HAHA! a walk on the wild side last sunday, with cl zuli.
goodluck for your driving test, and come campfire!

i suddenly had a surge of thoughts flowing through my head.
fine, shut up. when nothing's better, it's always safe to keep it to yourself.
endure.

ALEVELS OMG.

2008-03-07T22:13:00.004+08:00

Today is the LAST DAY OF THE TERM!
i can laugh and cry! :) :(
it's also sarah's bday! happppppy bday! (to trent in advance too!)

we all got trent a coffee maker, haha. :)

it's been a month since we celebrated birthdays!
apparently we don't have any february freaks.
we do have a lot of march monsters, bertha's next, rahh!

went back to xinmin today! (again haha)
i feel refreshed everytime i go back. like my house like that. :)
so fun. but soon yongqing and nabilah are going to step down, time flies.
hate this stage of transition every year. FAC is coming. according to jane, i got quite some stuff to finish! oh man..
OH I'M EXCITED AND NERVOUS FOR CAMP! haha. but well, ____. so scary la. i hope AC and NC are coming too! haven't seen them for so long! :)

omg i think i'm going to fail my CLL test today alr. studied the same thing as moon yet she can throw out almost 2 pages of rubbish. i didn't even write a page full! hah!

today was the release of Alevels results.
saw my class getting back their chinese grades. of course there bound to be satisfaction and disappointment, but oh well. it reminds me of PW. then PW reminds me of my VISION. OMG. saw the J3 old birds getting back their results too. percentage for AB for CLL is BELOW NATIONAL AVERAGE. omg, how can? we're a LEP school, scary. and and, i wonder how i would look like when i come back next year to get back my results. i wonder what my result slip would look like too, haha.
congrats to those who had done well, cheer up to those who haven't.

JC is such a short phase of my life. when i'm beginning to enjoy it despite the rubbish, it's already ending.

SLACK.

2008-03-05T22:28:00.006+08:00

HELLO CHOO JIAYING ARE YOU STILL ALIVE?
I MISS YOU YOU KNOW? YOU SEEMED DEAD FOR ONE MONTH PLUS ALREADY! :)
I WANT GO HKCAFE SOON.

went back for stjohn today.
omg camp is so so so soon. it's like, next week!
I can faint like now alright? So excited, but so scary, lol.
okay i must be very lame from the paragraph above. but true enough it's scary okay! lol. zzz.

actually i got nothing to blog today. i just don't feel like studying for chinese lit test. OH KUANTAN TRIP IS COMING! quite excited, but not very excited. cos' after kuantan trip it'll be H3 test again. i've been skipping lectures and not doing tutorials. i think i had stopped since tutorial 4. congrats, we're at tutorial 8 now, LOL. omg, you lazy boy.

I GOT A VISION.
I THOUGHT I WOULD GET C FOR PW.
C C C C C C. OMG, I THINK I WILL DIE IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY IF I GOT C. PLEASE B B B B B B B B.
okay the results' not out yet, relax relax relax.

wow i crapped so much out. shouldn't be blogging this week already.
I WANT TO STUDY FOR CHINESE LIT, IRON MY SAFARI AND GET READY FOR HOLIDAYS!
nah, not going for cycling trip anymore. :(
why? ASK MOON JIAYUAN.
I MISS JEROME LAU! alright he smsed me. haha. i was too busy to do so. hey hope you visit this space still! i miss you bro :D
I SAW DJ TODAY AT THE BUS STOP. alright i got a feeling i'd see him every wednesday morning now. don't be jealous seokhan and moon :P

WOW BYE PEOPLE. :)

kids suck milk and hurl vulgarities online.

2008-03-03T22:51:00.003+08:00

omg.
im stupefied
flabbergasted
bewildered
shocked
astounded
astonished
stunned
amazed
dumbfounded and whatever,

this is the very limited vocabulary of a 17-year-old telling you how shocked he was.
i just saw a 12-year-old GIRL having a wider and larger (MUCH LARGER) range of vulgarities vocabulary.

sigh, what is the world turning into?
all i see are little impish devils turning into fierce and scary bastards and bitches affecting the society and people like you and me.

kids even have the audacity to say something like "this is my blog i say what i want here blahblah" when they are online. wow. the next minute they realised policemen come knocking on their doors and catch them back to spank their asses. if you really can write whatever you want you must really be living in your own world. HELLO IT'S GLOBALISATION GROW UP AND FACE THE WORLD. EVERYBODY'S ACCESSING EVERYBODY'S SPACES! HAH, to think you know how to blog.

omg i don'tknow why i got such a big reaction. but it was really scary to see a 12-year old know more vocab than i do. somemore i'm friends with christopher the king of vulgarities. how can?! omg i feel so unfair for christopher, lol. maybe i shouldn't have a child next time. what if my child turns like this?! i'll die of exasperation and maybe i will kill myself due to an overload of stress, lol. maybe my child will scold vulgarities at me and i will slip into a state of depression and never recover. eventually i will hang myself up and DIE.

HAHA, whatever kids. grow up. don't live in your world of vulgarities. you're only 12 years old. get a life.

ALRIGHT I SHOULD BE STUDYING ECONS TEST. WHAT AM I DOING?!

BY MOONJY

2008-02-26T20:04:00.005+08:00

hello i'm wenbin.
i love yellow,
and my mood's as bright as that.

ANYHOW,
i'm going to work hard, really hard to achieve my goals!
my friends and teachers and family have faith in me.
that is enough.
i wont fail them, i know.
but even if i do, i know i'll always have them!
(:

I SHALL STOP SLEEPING IN CLASSES, LECTURES!

I SHALL QUIT BEING A SPENDTHRIFT!

I SHALL NOT EAT TOO MUCH EVERY DAY!

I'M LOO WEN BIN! ^

hee.
p.s dont blame me, you didnt sign out! XP

Life's been busy, how are you?

2008-02-22T22:51:00.007+08:00

Hi everybody.
It's been 2 weeks since I've blogged.
Yea, many issues occured, many events took place, it was a busy and packed 2 weeks.
And most of these are spent with my beloved 27/07.

Field works, lots of them. Sorry about the urban field work (trent seok and bertha). Came late due to H3 test. But urban field work was very fun. Very funny, haha. Only posted a few photos. If I have the time, I'll post more. They're funny photos! :) Slope studies was funny too! Teamed up with chris jielin seok angela and berenice. The damn pipe took a lot of time to get into the soil but overall it was a very fulfilling trip. I spent quality time with the class again.

Friendship Day for singles like me, and Vday for those with their special ones. Cool alright! Was allowed to wear home clothes, so (almost) the whole class wore their secondary school uniform to school. It's like back to first three months! And indeed, I missed those faded and lost moments where I had a dying sunflower from serena, this year having two. First three months is still the best time of this freak JC life. What is tests, exams, projects, CCA responsibilities, H3 to young us then? Yeeling and Dingjie (and Lisa), you guys are deeply appreciated. :)

Had lots of tests and exams. H3 test, that freak 15% for Alevels. I think I'll pass, but not very good though. Never mind it's over. Econs test was funny, lol. I'm dead anyway. Okay I failed geog test like expected, and I passed CLL test! Whee, one mark less and I'll be in his supplementary class. Yucks, you never know how much comments I have for him. Maths class test was shit. lol. Fred and seok must be laughing at me cos' I don't know how to convert Cartesian equations to vector equations. Oh man. It's over!

CCA responbility. Well, Mr Low talked to me yesterday.
"Wen Bin, are you very tired? Do you feel like giving up?"
I really want to give up. I really got lots to do. I really got a lot of commitments. I really don't know how to work with a lot of people inside there. I really have that psychological barrier to take charge, I don't know why. Where's the fierce and bitchy WB that isn't scared of his cadets' weird opinions in stjohn? Sigh. I really hate myself at times. I really hate you at times too, for always trying hard to sabotage my efforts and hard work put in. I'm already trying my best.
Yes it's gonna sound like it's a chore, but, four months left, I must do it...

Been skipping a lot of H3 lessons, unhealthy. I should try not to skip already.

No news of Mazarin.

Was sick on Monday and Tuesday. Fever, headache. Serious, for real, I didn't fake it fred! RAH, you suck. :P Feeling better now.

Only had time for stjohn this week. Camp meeting, and ITC. Finished ITC finally, now it's only the boring zone development dept activities and March Training Camp. Gosh. Time's running faster than I thought.

Yea, basically this is what happened to me in the past few weeks. How are you my friend? Are you doing fine? It's been 19 days since we've talked for real. I wonder if you do visit this space and care for your little friend here. I definitely miss you, although I see you almost everyday.

Life's only getting worse with all sorts of shit. But thanks 27/07, I really love you guys. :)

the end of CNY marks the start of SCHOOL.

2008-02-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

New year's eve! Steamboat at home. My family's messy, so since a few years ago we started having reunion dinner on our own. So it's just steamboat with pa ma di and mei, haha. Just that prawns are bigger, there's no more fishballs, there's cabbage and the soup got worse.

New Year Day1! Went to auntie's house first i think. Wore same tee with di! hahaha. just that the colour is different. and the lion dance who came up to do the ___ ceremony at auntie's was bad. real bad can? so unprofessional! the dancer at the back suddenly waved her hand outside the costume for her mates to take over her. bcos she's gng to answer a phone call! omg. -.-

mummy! :D

went to ahgong's house after that. saw guofa and daisy! the two most important cousins of my life. i'll explain why next time, when i got the photos. they all got married! :) and daisy gave birth to kirsten! so cute! she cries alot though.

guofa with his niece :)

day3! (skipped day2, nothing significant happened) went justin's, then richard's, then yingjie's!

happybirthday kelvin! :)
lazy to blog yes! when i have the other pictures i'll upload them.

alright tmr's the start of school, again.
done geog project research! yes.
i should study for H3 alevels test coming up this wednesday. :(
there's CLL test on wednesday too, my god.
there's econs test on thursday.
wednesday is urban geog field trip.
saturday is camp mtg and physical geog field trip.
wow! deadlines -.- so sian.
i will do it though, maybe flunk econs and CLL test this time first.

thought alot this few days, nothing came to a conclusion.
maybe time will tell.
i am not very optimistic about it but i hope the outcome is optimistic.

:) life's going to get better! (if you believe so.)

Happy new year, again.

2008-02-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

sunday night is study time. met xiongwei again to study, i guess that's gna be a routine from now onwards.
bro, hang on yea! we're fighting alevels together! :)
went to visit lisa at her house at 10pm LOL, we're good friends alright!
goodluck for your singing competition tmr! rock the school with your sexy voice! hahahaha! :D

it's going to be chinese new year soon, i don't think i'll blog these few days.
maybe the weekends..

meanwhile, just want to say,
bon voyage moon! have fun in your hometown! :)
bon voyage seokhan! smile :)
HAPPY BDAY RACHEL! i love you lots and lots!
jiayou adam! you're not alone! :)
get well soon xiongwei! don't get sick during CNY! :)
thanks rachel zhiyuan karen xuyuan jiazhi cynthia and beloved jon! love the belated bday card :)

okay i guess that's all.

and i wanna apologise to those i've hurt or let down. i didn't mean to do so, i'm sorry.
let's hope that everything is well and alright after CNY.

my friend.

2008-02-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

all the while I've been thinking, this person sucks. he took my time and energy and returned nothing.
yet I forgot, I had my reservations about him, when I am not supposed to have any.

I always think he is too selfish, he just think that I'm just another friend.
but I forgot, wherever and whatever he is now, it's largely because of me.

I deleted all those, sorry.

Fred's our superstar! :D

2008-02-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

wow it's CNY carnival!
and i skipped H3 lecture again, lol. bad boy. cos' of FRED la. you idiot. but you sang well so i didn't regret! ahahha.

MR LIM GOT DUNKED! but i don't know how to rotate this photo, and moon your camera quality bad! should set higher! it's so blur and im sad :(

this is mr tong's son! hozea? haha. :)

MAZMO! i'm eating the candies she gave while typing this post.

mr tong getting dunked. this is the extent of his popularity in temasek :)

FINALLY, FRED THE SUPERSTAR! haha.
i think we're damn bad. the first singer was quite 'quiet'. when fred comes in the class suddenly went crazy. but yea we love fred! :D

GEKKIM LOOKS NORMAL. (puzzled)

finally, SUPERSTAR FRED!

alright! there's mock comp tomorrow.
i should sit down one day quietly and study H3 maths before the test comes.
oh man. haha. takecare all! it's 1st february and so far it's a wonderful and fun day!

and i love CG2707!
it's like, omg. so fun. and after 12 years of education. i think 'ten years down the road', i will look forward most to the class gathering with this class. cos' it feels very different from the past classes i've been in. this class makes everyone (okay almost everyone) feel appreciated and motivated to go school, at least that's what i think.
thanks 27, good class i've been in, when the rest of the classes face weird problems. we'll conquer Alevels together! :)

I WANT TO RANT. dumb ass.

2008-01-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOON AND YEELING! :D
hougang boy loves you!

thanks for all the wishings on my tagboard!
rrly tired to reply,
but i really appreciate it. :)

ok i hope none of them read this.
but i really really am not up to the job of being the president of this IT club.
ppl can tell me mtgs aren't productive, when they themselves aren't contributing.
davin said the club sucks, that's so true when the president (ME) sucks cos' he's just doing nothing but rot.
okay the notice board, it's been there for half a year then the notices put up on april 2007 were cleared.
okay those programmes i promised, nothing is seen at all YET.
yes it's my fault for most, but many of the people inside there are also very very very unworkable and incooperative.
i really dread this pdp or commitment or responsibility, maybe more like a burden.
i'm sorry, but i really can't commit. oh my. stretch myself until i die.
if i have better members who are more supportive maybe i will be more willing. but for now, no. deadly no. this club sucks cos the ppl especially the president sucks.

i got h3 mazarin studies and my sjab cadets. im not as free as you are. and so what if you are free? a meeting only also complain like siao. i want to scold vulgarities but that's not me sadly. im so frigging frustrated. not with anybody but MYSELF.
when the followers doesn't face the same direction as you and the thin thread holding the team together is broken, it's the leader's fault.

yes, i am their leader.

January is birthday month!

2008-01-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

17 January was Chris' birthday! haha.
we did something real funny after PE.

figured out the words? it's "Happy Bday Chris!" LOL.

24 January was Justin's birthday. celebrated in advance on Saturday. my god, i didn't take a photo of him being smashed by the cake. yingjie is super duper evil. she'll die on her bday.
happy bday justin! :D

22January was Seokhan's and karen's bday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
this hello kitty cake was preordered two weeks in advance.
SINCERE ALRIGHT GOHSEOK! KEEP SAYING ME !&%#@%$

careful moon, she'll get her revenge.

23January was jielin's bday! happy birthday! hahha.

25 January and 26th was ITC2008. not exactly a good one. but the trainers were good.
hmmm, there's still time!

[I WANTED TO UPLOAD THE ONE I TOOK WITH ADAM AND BERNIE. SHIT, NEXT TIME.]

MAZIAH IS SUPER FUNNY! mr tong was late for GP and we were talking and playing around. she got this random photo of fred and me and it was absolutely gay! her editing made it look worse, omg! fred you suck alright! you left me to run(actually i walked) alone in PE today! rahhhhhh! 4.1 km leh! zzzz. alright forget it you got me a funny photo HAHA. :P

SLAP MY FACE. i shouldn't be blogging. i still have lots of things undone and i have to finish them today.
cheer up friends! i'm so tired but i'm still going on! :D
and there was one day after the release of olevels results that i suddenly thought of xinmin and missed it so much. this is a habit which is damn bad at times. yes rmb your past and appreciate, but too much of it is unhealthy. i'm learning to look forward. one day i have to step down too, right moon? sigh, we'll see.

i'm still fighting! fight with me! we'll conquer alevels and napfa and stjohn and all sorts of problems, wow i'm damn high. i got lots of pimples which covered my face like nothing, oh yucks. i'm quite looking forward to the march camp. i'm quite looking forward to holidays. i'm quite looking forward to the kuantan geog trip. i hate h3 maths.
i dont want to go school tmr! haha. oh ytd was gogreen day and took alot of funny photos. especially GEKKIM, ugly to the power of infinity. shall post soon if i do. BYE!

Whatever.

2008-01-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

this is like expired. koksiong's bday! hahaha. super dumb. it's a tausabao. i didn't upload photos onto the computer for a week already, so wait huh. seok's bday was more interesting. haha.

Mr Lim said something to me on wednesday.
"我对你期望很高,不要让我失望."
... And half an hour ago, i'm still stuggling to do H3 Tutorial 2.
congratulations, i solved 3 parts of questions. That's all.
sigh, :(
I really think i'll die for the H3 test that's coming real soon.
it's not that i never study nor do my work, it's really hard to understand and no one can help me.. oh gosh. jerome... :(

On a happier note, my juniors did well for Olevels! weee! :D
haha. congratulations to weiqi too! you are like so qiang! so JC or poly?
and another thing, kahmeng! omg. he smsed me and thanked me. i was super touched. i thought i lost him after zone comp, but i guess he's ready to fly off from here and soar somewhere else. :) i'm proud of him too! and adam and everything! those sec4s also got A1 for higher chinese, nice one!

yup, H3 makes me sad but the results made me a little better.
i got a bad hair cut. damn.

there's H3 tomorrow :(
there's instructors' camp tmr :)

everyday is such a mixture of everything.
CAN SOMEONE SEND ME A MATHS GENIUS TO SOLVE ALL THE TEDIOUS H3 PROBLEMS?

bye people. i want to sleep early for there's H3 and camp tmr.
take care all! i'm not giving up!

F NUMMAT.

2008-01-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

After CNY, it's H3 Alevels straightaway, 15%.
After Good Friday, it's H3 Alevels straightaway, 15%.
After Labour Day, it's H3 Alevels almost straightaway, 70%.

This whole thing is freaking me out.
And it gives me the OTC feel again, I'm alone.
The worst thing of all, you only have one week to study cos' the major exam is one week after they finish teaching everything.

Oh man.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COW AND BULL!

2008-01-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

wow, my bestest friends are all Capricorns, like me.
and they have the same birthday! WOW! LOL.

hello SERENA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)
thanks for being a wonderful friend.
thanks for pulling me out to do homework.
thanks for all the bimbotic acts that were so stupid i never fail to laugh. (jy's better of course)
thanks for being such a wonderful and gluttonous cow.
thanks for introducing me such a wonderful boyfriend in HKcafe.
STAY HAPPY ALWAYS! :D

hello KOKSIONG, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)
what should i say? you're my best friend. end.
hahaha! short and sweet, thanks a lot for a happening 2007. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST(s)! :D
goodnight!
(ps nks you're gonna like my wonderful gift!)

2008, I feel cheated.

2008-01-13T15:09:00.000+08:00

hehe zhiyuan, did i say i like this photo? you look like my mother. =)

yes this is outdated, it's newyear's eve at yingjie's. drank rum with coke and got drunk, i mean half-drunk. talking about rum and drunk, i thought of alcohol poisoning and first aid. REMEMBER ALCOHOL POISONING LEADS TO HYPOTHERMIA. NC YOU BETTER READ UP MORE!

thanks ar, yingjie.

Maths tutorial! Can I complain?
not that i don't like the other class, but our tutorial class (we are combined with 28!) is simply too large and mr lim has to divide his attention spent, and i don't like that idea. anyway his new hair is cooler than whatever he got last year, lol. Probability is disgusting, and so is mr lim's drawing. he drew a King spade and Queen spade sign, which looks like... a bun?! haha.

ALAF! ALAF! HAHAHHA, DUMB.

PNGZHIYUAN! was on friday i think, haha. i don't have the photo with jon, zhiyuan send me soon!

comp training on saturday, NC made progress, but sadly still too slow. gosh. It was steph's bday!HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

Celebrated serena's at night :) she still got 4 more days, with koksiong. HAHA!

sigh, yet another cake disaster, i understand. poor cake.

H3 maths is like, hard. haha. this is just the first week but lots happened. it went past like two weeks. this week is super long, and this will continue... oh my. let's hope i can achieve what i want, and do what i want. 2008 don't cheat me, i wanna make a great year. but. blah!

work harder wb!

Changing times.

2008-01-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

Change of seasons is the work of nature, nobody and nothing can defy this law, and I'm just a part of it.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO FAIRY! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEON! :D

went back for compteam training on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL (yes! so cool ;D), searched through cupboard and i found this!!! the S3 file of 2006! haha. yes was the head for that year, suddenly remembered that camp. it was the worst camp of my whole stjohn life. i basically screw a 1001 issues, especially that CAMP NIGHT HIGHLIGHT. omg my S3 memebsr of 2006 i hope you guys remembered what we did. it was crazily lousy. i got kahhao and momo as DY! yesyes! hahaha. wow suddenly everything came back. and i scolded adam tr and kahmeng like siao once, about the whistle thing. oh man, haha. that was two years ago. :) times changed. i thought that was a good experience, i learnt and grew after those heart-chilling criticism and self-expectations.

two years later(which is now), my juniors are growing up too! yongqing got more pimples, nab's voice got sexier, mich's got fiercer and fiercer and sk's specs changed for the worse! and even the sickening and very playful leongkahlun is wearing long pants already! oh my, I've been in this homely community for the 6th year. haiya kahlun you better grow up!

ok although we grow up but bernie's diet doesn't change. MEAT MEAT AND MEAT. CARNIVORE. omg. so disgusting.

clarice's birthday yesterday, she looked kind shocked.

happy birthday fairy! :D

went for the station masters thing yesterday, to help out in Orientation. man was it boring! we got chased out of macs and we had to sleep outside the shopping centre, on the floor! somemore it's SIGLAP, i was chased out in somewhere i don't even know where. ZHIYUAN HOW PATHETIC WERE WE (especially me)?! VERY! you better thank us! thank me by pulling moonjy to LEP camp! hahaha :D
went tampines to do some shopping and asked dj out, HE ACTUALLY WAS SO SPORTY AND AGREED! :DDD ok i look super bad in the photo.

am glad that we still laugh like how we did a year ago, although distance and time separate us apart. im happy that we're still good friends :D

AND I REMEMBERED WHAT'S THE 'P' WORD! omg. i spent two thousand years today in stjohn room to think la. no it's not positive, not playful, not perseverance, not punctual, not......, IT'S PARTICIPATE! :D hahahahaha. (faints.)

before i end today's post, let me share with you something cute, from dearest selina. she posted a new year message on the forum for her fans and this is the first part, which is super dumb.
"歡送走充實的2007
已經排滿的通告表讓我不得不期待今年又會有怎樣的驚喜呢?
但說到驚喜......嗯.....我想大家都已經知道我\‘榮登\‘2008第一期八卦週刊的小封面了吧!
真不知該感謝狗仔的用心還是該懊悔對不起華研的栽培
我也不想用這樣的方式跟大家拜新年阿......
看到大家為我打抱不平又討論這麼激烈真覺得你們好可愛!!"

After so much in life I came to realise and accept that departures are part of life. It's not a now or never, but rather a sooner or later. I guess, my autumn is coming, and i should fall and return to the ground. I guess I'll be prepared when the time comes.

Rewind, 2007.

2007-12-31T01:33:00.000+08:00

2007 had been a stormy year. (Ok I think I express myself in chinese better, pardon me.)
崎岖不平,这一路走来非常艰苦,困难,但是,总算活了过来! 真的很为自己骄傲,却不值,怎么今年受了那么多苦. 往回看,原来都是一场安排给我的考验,要我学会长大,成熟,学会在苦难中找到希望,在自己灿烂光辉时记得感恩.

the toughest was the new environment, and the wrecking relationships it nearly brought.
all the frustrations anger and anguish inside me turns out to be dangerous. hurt myself, fell down, and i'm glad i stood up again. and i'm really glad that in the midst of this hurricane i found lots of precious and golden friends. through the sands of time and tests of faith, i'm fortunate, and glad that many made it through and i definitely cherish every single one.

going through OTC alone, the many quarrels, stressful curriculum and numerous criticism and cold stares really made me learn and grow up alot. sometimes, we are left alone to fend for ourselves. it's not a choice most of the time, but i realise that's part of growing up. i really learn to be more independent under the coercion of such circumstances and i'm glad i think differently now, in a more mature way. :)

and 2007 made me realise, nothing is forever. relations will change someday, the trophies you had collect dust only while nobody remembered who you are a year ago, and it all occurs, with or without our permission. this is the law of nature. and i'm sorry, if i had a choice, maybe i would choose poly. cos' after knowing so much wonderful people, and re-knowing so much wonderful people in temasek, i'm really scared the day that we say goodbye will come. so i rather choose to be selfish, and forget them before they forget me. haha, am i silly.

today is the last day of 2007, i'm sitting here, typing. and this is the first time i really say what i really want to say. thanks, for this year had been a good year, and fuck, i really hate this year. it's really heartwarming to know that there are many around who really care. i just want to say, i really appreciate all the laughter and joy, the encouragement and consolation you all gave. it kept me through this jinxed year.

with AA, bowling. i really like this photo somehow.

yuan's bday. 11years of friendship is magical, really.

teachers' day.

POC, i finally sense some worth this year.

xm corps, my drive in many incidents.

my favourite photo of the year, jerome reads my mind like glass. i'm glad i have such a him in my life.

haha, i really like this photo alot too.

dutchlady milk, my best friend besides ks who accompanies me to school almost everyday. i still love it.

my favourite photo of slping ks. he sleeps wherever he goes.

SHE concert.

looking ahead, i still want all the love i've gotten this year. i want to achieve great A levels results. i want to help the corps to achieve much much more this year. i want a better 2008.

i hate 2007, i really want it to go soon. yet i can't bear to leave 2007, i want to stay in this last day of 2007 for almost forever.

new skin for the new year, and a new song by angela, the ending of the song makes me feel like crying.
thanks for tolerating me, thanks for teaching me, thanks for drilling me, thanks for all the pain, thanks for all the laughter, and thanks for being 2007, the most memorable year of my young life ever. it's the best ever worst year i had.

but i know i'm more ready for 2008, i've been through so much already. the sky should be clear.
Happy New Year everybody, may 2008 be the best ever year you've had in your life. :)

再怎么美丽悲伤也是曾经.
往前看,希望天空万里无云.
对2008的所有所有,我已准备好了!

Random wb.

2007-12-30T14:03:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel that emotions aren't supposed to be expressed through such an exposed and publicised platform. haha no i didn't offend anybody, just had some random thoughts.
but yet i am blogging, it is integrated into my life already, so, too bad. haha.

Ok, it's time for homework at yingjie's. (After a while)
BYE!

Zone Presentation Day 07.

2007-12-30T02:21:00.000+08:00

short post.
happy bday nabilah! :)

don't know how successful the event was, but i know it's a personal success to me.
the colours didn't drop (yes!) and i did the right procedures at the right time.
a big thankyou to arif sir who tried to prompt me a thousand times during rehearsals,
and ofcourse my colours escorts changyu and rita! they are super passionate people, to the corps, to themselves, and to their studies and future. that's heartwarming and made a fresher definition of 'passion' in my opinion. enjoyed working with all of them :)
guess i'll see you guys next year during zone comp, work hard!

I LOOK SUPER DUMB HERE. :(

and of course a photo with the old birds of the corps! wanted to take corps photo but sadly, the cadets left, haha. nevermind this is also good. :)

i really learnt today.

AN NC Gathering! :)

2007-12-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

let me summarise, i'm quite tired after zone presentation today.
went vivo to look for elena few days ago. with AC and NC of course ;D
but marilyn and jasmine wasn't here, sad case.
but nevertheless we still had fun!
thanks ah elena. WE CAME VIVO THEN YOU TELL US TO GO BOONKENG! mailto:%5E!$@$@$
but alright, went chongbang to eat. THERE WAS SO FEW PEOPLE CAN!
haha so cool, quiet place is good.
i super long never see jinkai alr k!

AND MY HAIR SUCKS. i got a bad face day that day too.
PIMPLES.

cutest eeliang.

WEIQI'S FACE. HAHAHAHA.

CHINHONG YOU HAVE A GF & NOW YOU WANT A BF!

AC COOL! :)

compteams 05! :)

stayed over at chinhong's while having sj meeting the next day.
DIDN'T SLEEP K. haha. zzz. fun alright.

alright, short and sweet. this is simply great, except for my face. :)

Happy Birthday. :) [3] & MERRY XMAS!

2007-12-25T02:04:00.000+08:00

Firstly, MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I believe it's a day of expressing gratitude and sharing joy with everybody, shall do that later :)

I BELIEVE THIS IS A HIGHLY ANTICIPATED POST, MY DIDI AND MEIMEI WILL BE IN THIS POST, THEY ARE DEADLY CUTE.

Okay PP BBQ! After i came back from k-ing with the firstthreemonths gang, went home to change [i know i would get dirty] and went for the bbq. you know where was the bbq? IT WAS AT PUNGGOL PARK! HAHA,next to my house, super funny. strolled there with my didi and meimei.

yes bbq and bbq, a random bday cake popped out, with well wishes and evil intentions especially by jiaying and yingjie, THANKS ARH. IT'S CHOCOLATE CAKE, IT'S SO DIRTY, IT'S ALL OVER THE FACE. OMG. they just force my head into the cake, so disgusting can? justin want to eat one.

oh had gift exchange too. lol it was super funny, we were supposed to wrap it with newspaper. i think i'm the only dumb person cos' i only wrapped with a single layer while the rest used up all the papers in their homes, haha. i brought a JUMBO PEN to exchange, justin got it! super cute can?! and i got jiaying's mouse pad in return. -.- zhujiaying, in this xian1jin4 de century, NOBODY USES MOUSEPADS ANYMORE! mouse has no balls now, they have laser!

ugly jumpshot, i look like funny.

Happy (belated) birthday to me, I think after so much this year, I've grown up.

Learnt to be stronger, more independent, and try hard to think for others as well. So much happened this year, and i've endured it through. dreadful tjc, stressful curriculum, bad exams, lonely OTC, weird people, different environment, new problems, rocky relationships... ...

At the same time, came to a point where i realised many around me never give up on me. I am really glad and touched. Even simple acts to keep in touch also warmed my heart and motivated me. Despite all the unhappiness and everything, thank you. Friendship must be the gift of 2007. I know i can rely on you guys.

MOON, SEOK, AND THE REST OF THE CLASS! yes you people, thanks for being the motivation in school, all those homework and boring tutorials cum lectures. if not for you guys, i think i will die in school everyday. thanks for those random laughter and fun and jokes, i really appreciate it. bear thanks for loving pokemon, fairy thanks for those random notes, mazmo thanks for your concern, ... ... seok & moon, thanks for being there in sch, really. thanks for tolerating those random moodswings and bad days. and moon, thanks for making china trip so fun! :) i love you guys!

HUANG KS! as much as a lot of unpleasant incidents occured and we wasted a lot of time this year, a great thank you for being there when i really needed you, and after so much, im glad we're still here supporting and caring for each other. those many little incidents of 2007, i really am thankful for you are part of them. :) sorry for being wilful at times. we have one more year to go, jiayou! i love you too. :)

JEROME! haha, you certainly are an important character in my life of 2007. thanks for always being there whenever i called for you (or sms), you are my dearest brother who is always cherished! it's a pity you can't get into temasek, since that was where you always wanted since sec sch years. now im here, without you, but i know you're always here. haha. then was H3 maths. i thought you could join me in tj for the module, but now i got it, and you didn't. it seems like i have to carry on what we both wanted. haha. a big thankyou for everything, i love you. :)

PP! yingjie, thanks for lending out your house every now and then for us to stay over and play dota and have fun. thanks for having such a cute younger brother too! jiaying thanks for being bimbotic, spicing up our life and letting us listen to REALLY silly jokes which i thought would never come out from the mouth of a human being. serena thanks for being a good friend and asking me to come out to pia homework. thanks for caring, keeping in touch and everything despite your tight schedule and weird family rules. richard, thanks for being a good friend by conducting random checks on my life, taking effort to keep in touch and stuff. appreciated! wenlin, thanks for your randomness which entertained me when i'm bored, and thanks for trusting me with your feelings and all, appreciate too! kelvin, thanks for snatching my boyfriend (shrugs and rolls eyes) and trusting me too! justin, thanks for pressing me to study during promos period, and also for being such a laughable man in the clique, it is very entertaining! sibei, thanks for being in tjc and lep, yes. your presence makes me feel that PP is around! haha! huimin, thanks for taking the effort to keep in touch too! i realise for ten ppl to meet up is a very hard thing to do. and when yo're alone at home, call us! we'll accompany you :) I LOVE ALL!

YL & DJ! thanks for making my ftm in tj such a fun and memorable one, you guys never fail to lighten my mood. :) and also thanks for making the effort to keep in contact and send random smses at times, i really appreciate all these. yeeling thanks for being a great stalker and dj thanks for being very random. i guess you two with mjy and sh are the best ppl i've met this year! love all! :)

PNGZHIYUAN! i never leave you out k? thanks for being in temasek, i see you i very comforted. at least i know there's someone i can talk to in school. thanks for always being so trusting in me, at least i know i got some value! HAHAH. thanks for those random gelare trips, i think our friendship is rotten! it passes the ripe stage already! zywb since 1997, ELEVEN YEARS. UNBELIEVABLE! :) love you!

SJ SENIORS FRIENDS AND JUNIORS! maamsock, thanks for being encouraging and teaching me the stuff. still rmbed you once said if otc's too much for me, you will understand. i'm glad i made it through, cos i didn't disappoint you! cl vian, thanks alot! i have a feeling that you always thought talking to me in the midnight is a burden to me, no it never was! i'm glad you are willing to share, we have a hectic year to go through! weiqi! thanks for that cardboard (was it a cardboard?) that you sent via mms, i still got it with me. thanks for those random emails (when your comp's still around), they were very encouraging! :) adam and burr thanks for being encouraging always! 2007 S3, logistics, compteams and yq mich nab and yunjia esp, thanks for being good people and doing stuff well! we still have a long way to go! :)

TANGO! thanks, for making OTC so bearable. mel your awful singing, xinying your awesome mapreading, adelard your gayness, azlan you idiot and many many, thank you! :)

i'm getting tired. shall stop here. but i never forget the rest! :) jon ren rong mel bla bla bla. you know who you are!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, I really feel loved this year. I wish for a better 2008. :)

Happy Birthday. :) [2]

2007-12-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

yes 22 december. slept like a pig until 10am cos' seok said i must get out of the house by 11 to be on time. moon then smsed and said it's changed to 1230 so i can get out of the house at 1130 which means i can sleep until 1030! rah, i felt sleepy. haha, watch fei2tian2 as usual, it's super good show.

okay it's 1135. i should get out of the house now. WHEN I WENT OUT, THREE ZHABOR RAN OUT FROM THE STAIRCASE AND POPPED A PARTY POPPER IN MY DIRECTION! i was stunned, literally. open mouth rooted feet possessed eyes and everything! omg. they were laughing like mad after they popped the thing. ok i really got another surprise, thanks! but quite sad that dingjie wasn't there. moon said dj was going to chingay rehearsal and had to miss this.
(zhiyuan popped by somewhere in the middle of this story and gave me a card, thanks! :D zywb since 1997 LOL)

OBVIOUSLY SHE CHEATED! after an hour + K-ing, dj appeared and gave me a shock! LOL. omg. was happy seeing him and yl, thousand of years of not meeting each other can! hahaha. :)
yes then dj claimed he don't know how to get to the toilet so i needa bring him along, so he cheated me! cos when we were out there the girls are inside doing the cake and stuff. haha got another shock when i returned. thanks alot really, it was super duper funny and cool. :)

and dj and yl super ai4mei4! and ai4mei4 in english is kinda funny, ambiguous? so yea they are aimei. WHAT ABOUT MOON?! DID YOU GUYS EVER THINK FOR HER A NOT? SHE'S CRYING ALONE LEH! haha dj is heartless can, he forgot everybody's birthdates.

a peace sign seems to be the in thing.

went for dessert after k-ing. dj had pasta for dessert. LOL. and hey i love all your presents, thanks :) those cards and scrapbooks and all, they were really funny and touching :) ok that was random. I HAD TIRAMISU! yay.

moon fiddled with my wallet and some xiao3cha1qu3 happened, haha was kind of amusing. moon you bad and thanks dj! and i swear that yl really slimmed down la! @#%^&$#@
nobody believed me. THANKS A LOT BUDDIES, it was really great. we'll see each other pretty soon too (the 3's bdays are coming.. :S). i love all! :)

to be continued!
(purepigs bbq, i'll carry on tmr. haha i'm a bit tired from typing and i wanna watch CJXGDD on youtube ;D SHE's the guest! and sir adrian said the photo with jerome was good, we look like best brothers or stuff, he's quite accurate. :D)

Happy Birthday. :) [1]

2007-12-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

haha why [1]? cos' i'm having a real bad diarrhoea now, and my computer although it appears okay but the fan in the CPU is spoilt so it will shut down anytime! omg, dumb computer and stomach. my stomach is in a lump now, it's so painful la!

ok yes, yesterday (22december 2007) was my bday. i'm seventeen (FINALLY yes i know) and i've grown up. :) out of all who wished, more than half said that "you're FINALLY 17!". the FINALLY just keep coming like nothing, haha. while i'm at the head of being 17 many are at the tail, right serena seok moon koksiong karen? HAHAHA. :P
got lots of bday cards! super happy can? I WANT MORE!

21dec, went out with jerome and arvina :D
haha, was cool fun and everything can?! and it's the day where i received my first ever successful bday surprise in my 17 years.

this is what happened. went dhoby ghaut cos' arvina said she wanna walk around. yea so we went, and jerome suddenly said he got something urgent to attend to so he went off for a while. i thought nothing about it cos' i thought he really got something (which is not urgent to me LOL) on. arvina, being herself showed me to those dresses and whatever she likes and blah. wasn't really surprised or feeling awkward that she's doing this. she've been doing it since i knew her.

SAW GABRIEL! haha. what a coincidence. he wear like an uncle la! rah. ok carry on, so after that we came to the entrance of world of sports. arvina was laughing like crazy and suddenly said she wanna go madewithlove. made a detour and jerome came back.

then went to orchard for swensens and we talked and talked and talked. walked abit and got onto the mrt.
haha my god! know what "urgent matters" jerome went to attend to? he went to buy that nike tee which i onced said it's nice! (refer to few entries before where we went gelare at PS) OMG! i'm super shocked can, i never expected his "matter" was this, no wonder arvina laughed when we were at the entrance of world of sports, jerome's inside what! hahaha. and it was a passing remark, i never knew that they actually remembered! omg.

thanks, really, i love you guys. :)

failed.

we finally succeeded after a few attempts. :)

i thought the day ended.
1250am 22december 2007, i was bathing. (LOL.)
door alarm rang, i thought dad was back. took a long time to bathe, cos i was doing some business LOL. mum keep persuading me to put back my towel after i finished but i took some time to 'mo'. so when i opened the door of my room, I SAW THREE FAMILIAR FACES IN THE DARK WITH A LIGHTED BIRTHDAY CAKE FROM BREADTALK! (it wasn't tiramisu though, haha.) OMG! karen xuyuan and richard! it's 1am in the morning! i was wearing ugily! i was so unprepared! haha. :) pleasant surprise. thanks a lot guys, appreciate it alot, love you guys too ;D

to be continued. :)

aim.

2007-12-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

saw this beautiful view on sunday, it's a drain actually, next to my house. haha.

i'm back at HKcafe! i think it was monday, i think so. but my boyfriend wasn't there. never mind! I GOT MY MILKTEA :D

yes had mini gathering with laoshi jelyn moon zhiyuan and koksiong.
i really have no idea why i need to gather with moon zy and ks.
i'll be seeing them like often?! HAHA!
but laoshi and jelyn, hehe. :D laoshi we love you!
we made dumplings, glad nobody was poisoned to death.

went arcade with zy and moon.
i seriously can't believe they dare to play there!
there was two freaks, freakish experts or pros and geniuses that play the street bball machine for around two hours can! their scores ONLY range between 700 too 900+. what kind of freaks can they be? bball freaks.
yea and moon + zy were right beside one of them, playing on one lane together. haha. it's a 762 vs 49. GOOD JOB!

passed by fernvale yesterday on the way to jelyn's house.

guess what i thought of? compteam trainings, and sj obviously. from the start of the usage of fernvale campus til the movement to hougang site again, we were there to see everything. the corridors from the canteen leading to the classroom block, where we will pass by the sickbay, where we have our triage debrief, where we always do circuit pumpings, where we always hang out for comp trainings, where we practise footdrill on our own for ITC.... blah.
i'm glad i'm going to see my dearest AC and NC this saturday! it's been so long.

it feels good.

i'm sure we can do it. have some faith, and confidence. morale should be there, high up always. :)

SMALL EYES. FREAK.

2007-12-09T01:19:00.000+08:00

today's zone meeting was amusing, haha.
AND CPBS GOT LOTS OF THINGS TO DO CAN?!
haha, my god.

and i'm sorry jerome, i used our photo as bookmark! haha.
i can't find a proper bookmark for xueshanfeihu(xsfh).
oops. and i'm one-fifth through xsfh! so happy.
one homework going to be done soon.
AND TONGCB MIGHT BE MY GP TUTOR.
thanks arh. :(
i hope he's not the civics tutor.

yea so i met jerome and arvina today! haha.
so fun, but the photos were all very ugly because of me.
I CAN'T STAND IT LA.
rah. small eyes.

we'll meet soon. :)
then went to find kel yj n jy. jy that mafan de ren. BUY WHAT SCARF?! RAH. I GIVE YOU MINE. then went huimin's and accompany her, her family's all away and she's alone! takecare of yourself.

i think i'm growing fatter.

and i really regret what i did months ago and brought myself to such a state where i start to feel numb for all these misunderstandings and whatsoever and this is bad. this is so bad. moreover there shouldn't be msunderstandings and this kind of 'whatsoever' to start with. i'm getting real bad at handling these problems and i blame myself. I BLAME MYSELF! you heard that, freak.

i don't want to think now, i want to enjoy my holidays! i want to enjoy my birthday, i want to enjoy the last bit of 2007. i hope 2008 is better. i would dread 2008 if it's going to be worse.

"9790XXXX!"

2007-12-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

THANKS AR JY AND YJ.
call me go clarke quay, i wear until like that you guys wear like aunties.
then go there nvm, EAT ONLY JIU RETURN TO KOVAN!
!!!!!!! bus fare expensive de leh!
(tonnes of singlish...)

cute right? it's breadtalk, NEW look. haha.

went HK cafe at kovan after so longgg!
went there to see my boyfriend, again.
call it fate, HE WAS THERE!
he served me my favourite HK cafe iced milk tea!
omg i sounded like a gay! yay!

MILK TEA!

jiaying is acting like some bimbo again.
yingjie suggested jiaying to keep chanting her phone number in front of my boyfriend so that he will take note and call her.
it's damn lame can, SHE REALLY DID IT.

wb:"can i have this... that this that..."
jy: (at the same time) "9790XXXX , 9790XXXX"

LOL! waas laughing like mad.
and i think my boyfriend recognised me. hahaha.
fate! jiaying you go and find others!

i tried to act uglier than yj. man, i succeeded.

there's zone meeting tmr!
...
bye people! finally seeing chelsa after ten thousand years. :D

December is the blogging month.

2007-12-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

i've decided to post some more china photos.
i should post more, :D

went to PS on monday with ser yj and jy.
WE ENDED UP IN VIVO. i dressed like an uncle can.
thanks ar serena.
in the end still i buy stuff u never! omg i bought another shirt.
what a sin. went to the waters on top of vivo to play play too.
it was a tiring day. ok i was tired before that.

had stjohn mtg today.
and i cut my hair today! i look like a nerd.
couldn't rush over to see kelvin sing.
he got second! woooots! haha. :D
went with dinner with them instead.
my head is small :D
very long never see huimin and sibei!

this is the last holidays i have before alevels.
omg. :( sad can.
the year is ending! it's good, and it's bad.
BYE PEOPLE.

I'm sorry.

2007-12-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

met changrong and mel for dinner, by a random and sudden sms by changrong. (yay!)
changrong passed me my bday present at such an early time.
i asked why and he said "we seldom meet ma."
i felt like the worst friend on earth.

we're in the same school yet we seldom meet.
we're in the same school yet i seldom care and show some concern.
omg! i really feel bad for neglecting him at times.
i should reflect and do something.
changrong i know you don't blame me but i will make more time! mel too!
sorry, :S
and we forgot to take a photo today! gosh.

hey my friends, i still love you.
we've been through the test of time.
one year, two, three four..... eleven and even twelve!
what could break us apart more than time?
we even passed it! don't worry, everything will be ok.

friends play different roles in different times of your lives.
some stayed on, some left, but we all take a bit of each other and move on in life.
friends forever is hard to come by. but everybody wishes for friends to be forever.
they are angels. :)

but this kind of thing, 可遇不可求.
if really don't have, it's fate. go home and cry bao lo.
if you meet this kind of friend, be thankful.

China Trip!

2007-12-02T16:00:00.000+08:00

nothing much to add, just that i really enjoyed the trip and it was really memorable. :)
but now i'm back to reality, facing all the shit troubles and problems i have to face, oh ya.

those bunch of hypocritical people and bitches and bastards and bimbos and himbos and sluts and gigolos and whatever, i hope they all die and stop harassing the ones i love and protect and care for and go home.
arh, keep your cool.

i really want to come to a decision, but i can't..
i'm really sorry, really.

yesterday's zone pres training was sickening and tiring.
omg, luckily my two AI escorts were super funny.
and saw my juniors, happy! :)
congratulations to kahlun shili and isaac!
they are division outstanding trainees!
haha isaac you didn't disappoint me la, dumb.
good job all! and i haven't hear such loud cheering for a long time.
i guess we got the other corps silent.

goodjob!

i got lots to accomplish for xmsjab next year.

LEP Immersion Programme China, 16Nov - 30Nov.

2007-11-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

Activity today was great. Sec 1s tried hard and they really improved. This is the last time I'm gonna call them Sec 1s too, haha. A big thank you to Yongqing Michelle Isaac and part-time Joel. :)

Firstly, realised XMS corps didn't win anything much this year. Not trying to hint anything (I don't have to), but my dearest Sec 2 cadets, this is your chance! Go to NCOC, shout and volunteer and do whatever positive stuff that outshines and outstands, show the Zone that we aren't lagging behind. I want to hear good news when I come back, some trainee awards and blah!

Secondly, good luck to S3 Dept! Yay, pure XMS blood, haha. I'm sure it'll be fine since you guys have such a strong leader. Have fun, lots of fun and jiayou for NCOC!

Thirdly, bon voyage to beloved jerome mel and xiongwei! You guys are always missed, have fun in your trips, I'll see all soon!

Fourthly, I am so high over sjab now, maybe because of the Sec 1s. They're just very bubbly and active, which isn't good for my throat. I hope the zone presentation trainings won't turn me off, although they mostly likely will.

Fifthly (odd), my friend you guys better take care! And to jiaying yingjie and serena, don't worry I won't grow too round! =P

I see light this morning, you saw it too? :)
I'm gonna work hard for the corps, it should be a tough year ahead.
(We say that every year... But, well. haha.)

Today was xinmin prom, reminded of last year's. Haha.
Bon voyage to myself, bye people.
Miss me, I'll miss most.
:)

random: FIFTEEN DAYS IS TOO LONG LA.

船到桥头自然直.

2007-11-11T21:39:00.001+08:00

i think it was friday, eh? went out with serena and jiaying, by jiaying's random call-out.
went vivo with my UNCLE outfit. damn, lol.

met that yj at night and ate at cafe cartel.
oh no before that i nearly fell at the foodcourt. so throw face! lucky i wear like uncle, nobody cares to notice. whew.
and we played some lame game to finish the cheese cake. the chewy fudge was really bad, as in REALLY. haha.

tried to take photos... failed.

we tried up, not good.

down, worse.

finally.

jy decided to do stupid stuff like singing k at midnight! siao.
yj n i siao-ed with her, BLA. stayed over at yj's, like again. lol.

yesterday went lisa's house in the morning!
randomly, with neoxw and jon!
did dumb exercises haha!
i miss lisa and xiongwei alot la, haven't seen them for a thousand years.
it'll be another thousand before i see them again.

thought that lisa's chair looks antique and suitable for si3 ren2 zhao4, so took one of those, looks horrid.

ok he looks like a bear here. :S

finally a normal one! haha.

NCOC after that, was bad, rah.
chompchomp at night! omg, that was sinful.

MY BELOVED 3bucks BIGBIG SUGARCANE IM BACK!

something called er. milkcurd.

had fun days.
china trip is coming, maybe i'm not so looking forward to it after all.

some things said can't be ignored or forgotten.
maybe our forgiveness was not sincere, at least for me.
if im sincere, i would not rmb whatever was said.
it's hard to treat as if nothing happened.
it's almost impossible.
people need time to adjust, i guess.
i'm sorry.

"We may not know how to forgive, and we may not want to forgive; but the very fact we say we are willing to forgive begins the healing practice."
- Louise Hay

i wanna watch The Game Plan & The Golden Compass.
someone please tell me you're interested to watch it with me.

Brothers.

2007-11-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

firstly, OP IS OVER.
IT'S SO OVER.
can't stand it when our class is in the last day, thanks ar.

next, NO MORE SCHOOL, no make-up geog lect, no mazarin!
:D

thirdly, i'm flying soon! yea happy and a bit sad. oh well, excited!

fourthly, finally went back xinmin for stjohn!
got so much to say but don't know where or how to.
but at least i think i can help, since the seniors are busy at zone for this year.

wa huangks u big shot, take one banner of xms yourself! even ms tee has to squeeze! haha.

fifth (fifthly sounds dumb), WENT OUT WITH JEROME! :D
went to watch Brothers, that hongkong show.
brothers watching Brothers, cool. :)
IT WAS A TERRIFIC SHOW CAN, omg.
i think i'm getting the zhiyuan syndrome, i think miu kiu wai very handsome!
although he's old, but he's attractive! LOL, can be my second dad. :S
the show is superb, like the storyline, love the theme song, and found the right person to watch it. :D
my god, you all should go watch.
met up with jerome's friend too :O
coool yea. hahahaha.

i love jerome, yea guess we won't see each other for a month.
miss me :)
have fun in cambodia! i shall have fun in beijing... -.-

i'm kinda happy these few days.
everything bad is slowly disappearing from my life.
life can only get better!

birthdays.

2007-11-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

before the day (3rd Nov) ends, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAHLUN! :)

i'm very happy today.
went down to JJC for the china trip.
the pre-trip preparation is getting me big-headed and financially tight, with my mama papa nagging and complaining. but i think the trip will be cool. thanks wenlin! she's gonna borrow us the camera, the MOST important item on the kit list. :D

and im glad everything is fine now, so fine i've got nothing much to worry, except for PW, SJAB and China trip. relieved happy excited happy and happy.
you can't understand how i feel when everything is so fine after a bloody month. yayy! ^^

THEN WENT TO YINGJIE'S HOUSE at night.
why caps? i don't know, haha. had dinner with justin kelvin richard and ser and ofcourse the young mistress of the house. we planned to celebrate richard's bdayyy. heee, super funny.
wanted to stay over but didn't in the end.

and jiaying if you need us, let us know k, we'll be here. stay strong! :)

ofcourse, being the star of the day gives him the right to feed us cherries and strawberries and make more pimples erupt and form, especially on my face. THANKS AR. i'll take revenge de! RAH.

poor serena.

OOPS! wb's worse.

of course we never forget about mahjong :D

i sure have a problem with pitch tone pronunciation and everything.
deeper insight, argh whatever. this OP is making me sick and I WANT IT TO FINISH NOW!
i don't care i'm monotonous or what, I WANT ONLY B! B! B! HARD ISIT! :( hahaha.
haha,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICHARD! (6Nov; i'm scared i won't blog that day)
we love you!

sleepy.

2007-11-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

im so lazy at this moment.
and i finally know how to define the true meaning of ugly.
that is, wenbin wearing his peakcap.
IT LOOKS LIKE CRAP.
and i must make my safaree tomorrow, i don't want to wear field uniform to theory phase! :(

PWing tdy and ytd, at dorea's.
super bitchy, super fun, super icecream-y and super unglam la!
omg.

yea went j8 today with yj jy and ser. :D

BIG FACE, forever. :( and jy's lame costume, HAHA.

WE BROKE THE RECORD! after two days of trying.

at dorea's.

ARE WE DOING PW?! lol.

at icecream chef. DOREA UNGLAM! HAHA.

ok it was damn funny.
im supposed to blog about those sluts and bimbos but i decided not to.
i guess PW brought most of the class closer, eh? haha.
yea i guessed so. :)

i'm so tired, i shall stop here.
i'm going to china soon, happy and sad.
16th Nov.

Last Day of School 2007.

2007-10-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

okay where and how should i start.
not a good year definitely,
joined the worst CCA i can ever join, had the worst quarrels,
went through shit PW, and led a only-sleep-at-1am life.
JC is indeed demanding, taxing, energy-leeching, and time-consuming.
BUT I DID IT! i really did it, i got the kind of results i want,
i got the kind of tutors i want (most la hor?),
and best of all i got the kind of class i want.
actually getting H3 or not isn't really that important anymore,
somehow.

yes i'm happy that school finally ended, but at the same time sad cos' my CT most probably won't take the class anymore, and i won't see or hear the class for two months. they're cute you know. yes i do like my CG, but not the school la. haha. whatever.
i hope the caibao won't take our class for GP next year. :(

and today was the best PE session ever in the whole year. haha sad life huh!
today was real fun. laughters laughters and more laughters.
ok, i hope next year's the same :D

FREDLOW.

BERTHAKWOK PEIPEI!

TRENT! haha, our dearest CGrep.

mazmooooooo! BAGs. oops.

candid. errr, haha. ENQI.

fairyy! :)

WONGSUYEEE. wa i look sai.

BERENICE! :)

this one year made me stronger, yes much stronger.
especially this last month, alot happened and somehow i'm glad that it happened.
at least i'm forced to grow up faster. and i really did. :)
i won't cry so easily like some loose tap anymore, and will face any matter bravely.
we all had grown stronger this year, i'm sure.

weeee.
if next year's not as fun, i shall skip school! haha.
okay that's crap.

after watching buyishengxiang just now,
we had the sudden urge to rent the last 5 episodes and chiong finish!
and rented she's the man and john tucker must die too. HAHA.
ok that's crap, i'm sure we won't be able to finish all of those even if we don't sleep!
BUT NEVERMIND! LIFE'S ABOUT HAVING FUN! :D

i so look forward to the china trip now!
and i hope i can go to the class CIP thing! make sure it doesn't clash with mazarin or china trip or sjab i hope.
and those having Olevels now, JIAYOU! :)
those taking Alevels Chinese next year like most of the ppl in CG27/07, JIAYOU TOO! :)

alright yingjie's gna kill me! bye! :D
[i left out thpse unglam photos taken today, don't worry i'll post them! careful ar, fred and suyee. ;D]

golden lion!

2007-10-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

yingjie decided to be kind and visit serena,
she called us along.
only me and ric are free! haha.
i cut a real bad hair la, :(
ric got himself a golden white hair!

he looks like a jap la! OMG.

first time i see serena in jeans, and working.

then we went aj to find jiaying, slacked inside aj.
i realise most schools look cool at night. eh.? haha. yea.

serena arh, work good, but must take careof your health.
make sure you have sufficient rest. :)
take lots of care yes.

the cough wouldn't stop and i feel like sucking ten lozenges!
ok, that's all.
i realised i haven't blog for quite some time.
feeling like i have no time.
but in actual fact, i haven't done anything constructive since the end of promos.
the file in a mess, the table in a mess, the floor in a big mess.
oh my.

emotional.

2007-10-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

okay haven't been updating.
trying to make a tough decision to continue this blog or switch to a livejournal.
blogger really sucks sometimes.

yea last friday went out with jerome changrong mel and chiangchin to seoulgarden! :D
omg it's been a hundred years!
finally we met.
talked kinda alot, joked, cooked, and ate icecream ^^
it was a wonderful night. it just feel like one year ago.
well, sigh. haha.
we should meet up soon, or have a 406 gathering. :)
I HAVEN'T SEEN ADRIAN AND SHERMAINE FOR QUITE LONG ALSO!

and jerome!
thanks, i mean, really thanks.
for not just being a great friend, but an understanding brother.
said nothing but you know something wasn't right.
i guess i really can't hide anything from you.
now i'm praying we both can take maths together next year.
lots of love. (:

changrong! :D
takecare and stay strong,
i'm always here! you still have me.

went to sakura on saturday!
that was damn far ok!
it's like.... WOAH. haha.
clementi somewhere, what the dot.
but the food was great, i ate till i nearly died. haha.
i'm sure kel yingjie jiaying and ser as well!
and i stupidly scooped lots of salmon sashimi! HAHA.
never mind i was able to finish all of those :D
guess after two days of buffet, i need a 10-mile jog to shed all those away.
nah i'm kidding! haha.
went west coast to play stupid stuff afterwards. heh.

went Kbox with jiaying and yingjie yesterday! haha.
the hundredth time after promos, ytd was 5bucks! okay, is 5++++++++.
of course i'm a good brother.
before i went out of the house i make sure my siblings are well-fed :D
they got pizza cheesecake blahblahblah.
i ate only a slice of cake for dinner. :S

great cook! :D [not everybody knows how to operate a microwaveoven.]

after k, went jiaying's house for mahjong! justin joined us. :D
haha, stayed over ytd.
and it was the first time i won big man. ok, i always lose ma.

went to watch lust.caution today with yuan and tang.
wasn't really a good show, nearly dozed off.
the pan-fried pasta also sucks! awww.
:(

realised much of my post-promos is spent with purepigs.
well-spent, i must say :)

at least i forget everything i want to forget during this period of time.
but whenever i go back home, settled down alone, thoughts just run away the room like crazy.
it's been almost a week, and it's torturous.
went through my phone, looked at the photos, the memories.
everything was so beautiful, until a single sentence destroyed the whole thing.
i'm sad, with a tinge of disappointment. after everything that made us, we actually let a sentence break us.
bu4 gan1 xin1, you understand? maybe you won't even visit.

lucky for you all readers, i can't type chinese with my comp.
you guys are spared of the surging emotions.

let me wish jiaying justin dingjie and xiongwei goodluck for their results tmr :)
i'm sure it will turn out fine.

and serena, stay strong, they're your family, who are always concerned about you. kinship is forever. take another view and see it as something many don't have. :) we're always here!

kelvin, cheer up :) what's done cannot be undone and it isn't your fault seriously. it takes two hands to clap right? takecare!

and yes, it takes two hands to clap.
it takes the both of us to mend this too, i really want to.

ser, i swear i missed you while having fun :D

2007-10-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

haha i already got a strong feeling this post will be very luan in the alignment cos' blogger never listen to my commands and anyhow displace my photos in the post.

okay anyway, went jiaying's house this afternoon to mahjong!
won at first, quite alot. then lost everything in the end. oh man. serena's fault.
LOL.
and i found a nerd in her house! omg.

what a nerd! he looks ugly la.

he turned the rest to NERDS. OMG, poor wenbin :(
he must be a victim.

then ser left, me jiaying and yingjie decided to go sengkang makan!
we never thought a makan session turned into something disastrous.
not disastrous for us, but for the sengkang residents.
cos'... THREE MONSTERS STEPPED INTO SENGKANG SCULPTURE PARK!
[and that park was supposed to be for kiddowinks.]

THE FITS! it's acting up again, it's time for some kid action! hahaha.
[linkless caption eh.]

we were playing with some stupid rotating thing, and yea, we looked funny. haha. jiaying got those act-cute bimbo look. OOPS. we all know you're not one don't worry :D not pretty enough.

then we decided to play the 'sliding board', where it will tilt sidewards and the loser loses the balance and fall sheepishly. haha. what a competition. i shan't post the video, IT WAS UNGLAM, the blogger should protect his own image and reputation. yingjie wasn't the winner, the blogger refuses to narrate the truth!

obviously wb tried to apply science knowledge in this game. haha. actually he want to cover yj away from the camera. :P poser wb.
yj shrieked damn loud, that little children went away. monsterous.

SHIT, jy got the camera. another disaster for my readers.

fun take 1.

fun take 2, now jy don't look like a bimbo. she looks like a retard! ohno. :(

wb acts monkey. BOO, too fat to be one. :(

then we tried this stone path thing. we even had a race! i'm proud to say yj could only complete FIVE rounds while jy and wb completed TEN rounds, with WB LEADING :) jy was a loser man, she couldn't catch the already slow wb. again, the blogger sometimes should blog out some truth. finally he's doing it here.

unglam jy's thick legs.

FINALLY we took a rest. 9plus pm, when we thought everything was going to end...

NO IT DIDN'T. shit.
WE TOOK LAME LAME PHOTOS! omg. we spent almost an hour doing this. laughed till out stomachs hurt, we burped and farted and burped and farted, and till our palms are full of fun blisters. what a way to describe.

speechless.

im sad for yj, she got shorter after she jumped! "your mum is so fat that when she jumped for joy she got stuck!" LOL.

yes i feel like shitting, :(

WHAT A MONKEY.

this is the 100th shot of jy! still failed. her face too big.

FINALLY SHOT ONE THAT LOOKED MORE DECENT.

OK SHE WASN'T HAPPY.

haha yj got some problem jumping after that. perhaps she don't want to jump too hard in case she gets shorter. :P

all the rest are artistic photos which you shouldn't restrict yourself to watch from only one angle! rotate them and you find that the three of us are like spiderman :D.
and three spidermen makes me think of tianrong liying and adam. right? HAHA. omg.
and SEOKHAN! HHAA. oops. back to the night. :D

TTHIS ONE IS SUPER FUNNY. i look retarded, so does yj!

wa butt attack.

TELL YOU THE TRUTH.
im too tired to describe the photos!
haha and too tired to think of a storyline.
wanted to use this material and win over xiaxue's fans but i think i did a bad job.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
well, so the most important thing: today was a great day unwinding from all the stress and unhappiness.
we shall do more again next time :D
tmr getting back results, i shall remain positive.
:)

jealous serena? haha.