mrt takecare.
(:










actually.
i got nothing to blog about today.
but.







i thought it so long.
so long so long.



saw adam and bernie's blog.
and i cry.
cause i am selfish.
cause i am sorry.
cause i am guilty.





by right.
they won't even blog today.
they don't have to.
if they are in nationals.
if i wasn't selfish.




i think.
it was retribution.
one year ago, ten july 2005.
AC05 went to nationals.
we took it for granted.
we got a bloody sixth.
not because that's our best.
that was really crap.
we just go for the sake of going.
we didn't understand how the rest felt.
especially dear NC.

and now.
maybe because we forfeited such a nice chance.
god wants my boys to suffer.
AA wanted so bad for that chance to nationals.
i also wanted them to go too.
they can. they really can.
it's all retribution.
why. we were selfish.
and i think. it sorta affect AA.
cause i do believe in retribution.




two days later is 10july.
i hope AC always remember this lesson.
at least kunyang and i do.




AA is watching NANC fight.
like last year. how NC watch us.
they just want our 100%effort.
whatever the outcome wasn't important.
we really. sorry NC.






NA NC. do your best.
i only want 100% effort.
whatever the outcome is not important.
for yourselves, for AA, for xmsjab.





i failed as a cadetleader.
i failed as a trainer.

most importantly.
i failed as a compteam number3.






sorry AA.
i'm really very very sorry.