he's my brother.

i very tired! but i very happy.
and i got a feeling i'm gonna blog alot in July.
and i ought to pack up my table, JCTs' over.

cos' i had a great weekend. seeing kids [not too small, sec2s will do] like AC makes me feel young, but old at the same time cos' i got NOT ENOUGH energy to high with them. THEY TOO HIGH LE. especially kl and ismail. NEVER stop. whew.
siewbeng i hope your phone is ok already, lol.

but yet i'm sad.
i had sore throat and a BAD flu since geog paper that day.
it gets worse and worse and worse.
i had to buy vicks on geog paper day and finished it.
so sad. and vicks is real good for clearing nose.
just 30seconds in your mouth and the traffic jam in the nose gone. whoops.
ok, yea that's all.

and i miss ng ks! haven't seen him for almost a week! [isit? i think so.]
oh my tian. hehe, randomism.
[randomness too common. random with 'ism' sounds like a theory, mine!]

& most like tmr's a halfday! not really half, it's QUARTER! woots. lessons til 9.10 and i should be dismissed.
this is very lame.
whatever, tjc is ALWAYS reason-less.
they do funny funny things without much reason.
ok this paragraph is a bit biased. just A BIT.

and my mum is very cute!
haha yesterday at compass pt she played DDR with sister. this is funny.









and nat comp is in less than a week!
my dear junior junior NA! YOU ALL CAN DO IT.
just go out there, try your best, cannot also MUST act zai!
[the keyword is MUST ACT ZAI]
and the clouds will smile at you say, "wow nab is serious!"
chompu and fiona must OPEN EYES BIG BIG [seldom see your eyes.]
michelle MUST HAVE FIERCE FACE FOR ONCE and YUNJIA DON'T BE BLUR!
haha.
jiayou jiayou. i'll be there, casualty timekeeper usher whatever. :)
and VERY VERY LONG never see OTC people.
the nat comp will be OTC event for me too :D
i wanna take photos! [by then my K800I is back :D]

ok. that's all.

lastly........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEROME LAU FW!
:D
[3rd July 2007]
my dearest dearest dearest brother.
never fail to make me learn, and know what i'm thinking without me needing to say and keeps on saying "of course, i know you so well."
haha.
the one whom i regretted cos' he's not here in temasek, which was his target since sec4 and here i am, having a reasonable deal of tortures. :x
seems like i have to carry on his unfinished and abandoned dream! :)
THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE, WHEN I NEED YOU.
MY GREAT BROTHER, NOW AND FOREVER!

MY HAPPY BREAK!

ok this is crazy.
just the first two days of my 4-day break, I'M HAVING REAL FUN.
it's 1.21am now so it's considered the third day, haha.
this is a sign to a bad results for JCTs! haha.
NO LA =P i refused to believe so.
i'm gonna do well, :D -boosting self-confidence-

YES, GEOG WAS A MAJOR DISASTER. but i don't care!
after geog immediately went parkway KBOX! woots.
but i sang like sai, and refused to talk about it!
wanna see or know more go http://blogmoon.blogspot.com


from my VGA phone. :( i miss K800i.





then hurried to xinmin to go to ubin with sec4s. totally waiting for Corps Presentation Nite [CPN :)] since before the start of JCTs la! what the shit.



on the way there. MY HEAD SO BIG!








they played scavenger hunt and stuff while i rested in the room. still felt quite tired from all the laughters during kbox and trying to recover for a fantabulous night! wooots.


it's raining VERY heavily, i look shabby. haha, with the dumb kahlun. this is candid actually. :S











WENLIN WENT FOR CPN :D SO HAPPY!







ok much photos of the night not with me, will upload if i got them. :)
the second day! took lots of crazy shots.



i really like this photo. it is so. touching. i mean it!











CL STELLA! my head big again...









lol...










lol lol lol......








lena bighead and qi. :D








this is absolutely random.










JUNIOR AC! I WANT DOTA!






then went to rachel's house for steamboat today! weeets.
after that went to hk cafe kovan with richard to meet up with the rest of the pigs! i miss him la. never see him for 200years. :D



and i was very very tired by then. didn't really sleep well and was out the whole day. no eyes when i smile. haha :D







talked to xuyuan about college today.
kinda true that haven't been genuinely into it and enjoying it.
i can't, and i don't want to.
other than some of the people in class, i really have no heart in making extra friends or something like that.
they are just 'hello' and a 'byebye'.
doesn't make a difference if i forsake these kind of people in my life.

haha yea, but this 2days of break and fun and laughter make me realise something:
doing the things you should do is not as important as doing the things you love to do.
happiness is not a goal, but a by-product.

-HITS WENBIN- I'M ENLIGHTENED!

just two days of CPN, without much special activity, i really enjoyed myself.
seeing most of the jnrs having fun, seeing the classic oldies letting their hair loose despite the vigorous life each of us have been leading for at least 6months,
i felt very touched and happy. never had i interact with jnrs this much before. it's the first time i see kahmeng talking so much in stjohn after comp.
seeing publicity people working in 4generations together [weiqi all the way to joel,esther's] was great. it's one of the best CPN i've ever been to and seeing michelle trying to work out things well, it just seems to me all the aspirations and worries the people had for the corps was all worth it. much much more worthy.
forgotten ever since when, i see the whole corps in such a united, lively and loud manner. everybody thought so. it was spectacular, at least to me and cl vian and stella.
i love stjohn without reason, as much as there's no reason to question this passion, for now, and probably for the time to come by. seeing your cadets like the graduating sec4s cheer like the strength of the whole universe combined, this is the most rewarding scene you ever get for putting in your time and effort.
really, you'll understand when you do, you don't cos' you're not part of it.

just a short gathering with rachel they all and purepigs.
this feeling's definitely different from gatherings with IT Club or stuff.
the conversation i had with the former is much longer than i had ever with any JC working partners.
with purepigs and people, words just come naturally. i don't have to be afraid of offending anybody, this is what i call good friends-they forgive and accept you as who you are.
i just feel super comfortable with my dearest friends. just a short conversation with richard on the MRT also help me feel, yadda. [i'm lacking in expressions. too yadda for words.]
a short msg, a jiayou from them makes your day.
time is short, if i could turn back my time to secondary school days, i definitely would spend more time with every single one of them, lock myself up in stjohn room everyday and appreciate everything i should appreciate-the air, light and warmth.

now, i should learn to look forward to everyday, make the best out of everything even when the world seems to be against you, and really, appreciate.
appreciate college life, appreciate your chinese lit teacher who gives you nothing but projects, appreciate the fact he didn't chase you for the project even when it's two weeks late, appreciate the discipline master, appreciate your cca for you are the president their leader, appreciate.

and i hate life without K800I.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PNGZY!

YOU SHIT! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I CAN'T BELIEVE WE ARE FRIENDS FOR 11YEARS ALREADY!
ELEVEN LEH, PROUD TO SAY IT'S MORE THAN A DECADE.
STAY CHEERFUL, TOP TJ FOR ALEVELS NEXT YEAR AGAIN LIKE HOW YOU ROCK THE SOCKS OUT OF XINMIN, AND YOU BETTER NEVER FORGET YOUR BIGHEAD BUDDY!
BEST FRIENDS FOREVERRRRR :D YOU ROCKKK!














went her house on sunday 17june to give her a surprise party! she's a smart ass, should've guessed it before that, heh.








GRP PHOTO :D






XUYUAN THE PRETTY SUMO!










JIAZHI!









LAOWU!









i miss rachel aloooot :D









ok i love this panaroma effect of my K800I. i think i will die if i don't have my phone [HINT HINT!]. haha. the stupid lame friends test is so funny. can see what other ppl think i am etcetc. AND NONE GOT THE TELEPATHY QUESTION CORRECT! [the colour of teeshirt im wearing etc]
haha. :P

and sorry, can't help being a narcissist. :P





anyway, I CUT MY HAIR. but no photos :(
woots, like it. but many said there's not difference.
super sad. but i dont care :D

had alumni mtg today, plus instructors' meeting.
quite fun la. as in, its fruitful, i found that im super longwinded, i found that oldpeople are super lame!
hahahaha.
well, yep.
EXCITED ABOUT STJOHN!
but well, i have to get through my common tests first.
sure fail, but i can't care less.

and did i say that i met xiongwei outside xms yesterday when i go back xms to suck some essence and study?!
OH MY TIAN. HE NEVER SHAVE AGAIN! idiot.
lucky he shaved today and told me. haha. i miss you a lot la buddy :)
WE MUST MEET EACH OTHER WHEN DAMN TESTS ARE OVER!!!!

and yes, yesterday went starbucks to chiong with zhiyuan for CLL.
i'm glad my chinese lit got some progress.
AND I AM BROKE, SO BROKE. haha.

and next, pull ups are driving me crazy, i'm so sad.
can't do pull ups = can't get napfa silver = can't do relief teaching after alevels.
this is VERY VERY sad. cause i really wanna do relief teaching. sigh.
i really tried very hard but i can't even pull up one and i don't believe.
my tian...

-digress-
good friends in life are hard to get too.
they are true to you, you are true to them,
they need you and you need them,
they listen to you and you listen to them,
they suan you and you suan them back like shit!
treasure them when you come across one.
:D

i really learnt a lot of stuff after 6 months of 2007.
this bad year really whacked my ass and taught me lots of stuff.

i never thought i could make it back for stjohn actively when im in JC, many JC people simply opted out after a while.
i never thought i would end up in temasek, when since sec3 i always thought i would be an NYJCian already.
i never thought i would end up liking OTC, and because of OTC letting me know good friends like kahmeng and peixuan.
i never thought i would again, be in the same school as koksiong, and we ended up sticking to each other more than ever. well, if i don't depend on him, who do i depend on? :)
i never thought i would join IT CLUB, and become the stupid president of the rotting and slacking CCA which in others' mind is losers' club. ITC is so different. ppl dont listen to you JUST because you are president. well, whatever.

all these i've gone through, just let me appreciate my days of training head more. i used to dislike it, but i thought it's nothing compared to now.
it just let me appreciate my friends more, the present and the oldies. especially to my oldies, the distance really make me treasure whoever i have now much more. it's hard for friends that can get along well with you to come by. CHERISH!

at the end of the day, i thought i was getting a lil' happier. i am a lil' more appreciative, but happiness? well.
i need time...

"change your thoughts and you change your world."

i love my brother but hate my husband. DIVORCE.

WENT OUT WITH JEROME AND ARVINA ON THURSDAY WHICH WAS YTD! WHEEE.
so so so long never see them. i miss them lots and they miss me toooo :D [like, durh.]
omgomg, went swensen's and chill. and i found out that we'll be gng there for almost every gathering in future. because we love the place the food and the chewy chocolate!
ok i admit, i love it. :x

and jerome became machooo! LOL.
got chest bigger than chinhong's, my god.
but i'm sure it's gonna go down soon since he quitted canoeing :D
whee i'm happy for myself. AHHA.

omg, i really miss jerome and arvina!
and jerome's birthday is like coming?!
i still remembered the birthday card he had written.
was so touched when i read it.
really, my god.
so when my birthday comes right and you got no money, WRITE ME A TOUCHING CARD WITH 350WORDS MINIMUM! :D i'll love it.
woots, love them.



hehe, if we were real brothers i guess he'll feed me porridge like this ten years back. sounds linkless. nvm :D







PRINCESS NANA AND BANANA :D











lol. random.









random again.











WHEE.








:)))) love him like crazy. best brother on earthhh.







and on tuesday went out with the compteams young and old to vil'age. ok i hope i spelt it correctly, for weiqi's bday celebration! din join for zoo, am sorry! :x and weiqi stop your FATE thing. i got fate with wattzai only. LOL. [old story taken out again...]
anyhow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! YOU ARE OLDER AGAIN.










took a photo with sockmaam also, on that same day. i realise people gets more random when they get older.

OMG THIS JACKET. ITS YELLOW AND I LOVE IT. I CAN FIND IT IN ALMOST EVERY ADIDAS OUTLET I SEEN. HOW HOW HOW. IT'S NOT ON SALES, THATS THE SAD THING. 129BUCKS, COST A BOMB BUT I REALLY LIKE IT. SOMEONE PLS, BUY FOR ME SECRETLY DEN GIVE IT TO ME ON MY BIRTHDAY? HAHA. like someone will, please. :x

last but not least, I SPOTTED THAT STUPID CHANGRONG ON MY TAGBOARD. YOU IDIOT! GOT ALL THE GIRLS IN THE WORLD AND YOU FORGOT YOUR WIFE STRUGGLING WITH STUDIES HERE. I GET EMO EVERYDAY CAUSE YOU NEVER COME HOME ONE! RAHHHHHHHH. YOU IDIOT! THINK I OLD AND NOT FRESH RIGHT.

I TELL YOU, IF I GO OUT TO EAT WITH YOU AGAIN, I WILL POKE YOU WITH MY FORK. IF I GO SWIMMING WITH YOU AGAIN, I WILL TEAR YOUR SWIMMING TRUNKS. IF I GO STUDY WITH YOU, I WILL HIGHLIGHT ALL OVER YOUR NOTES. RAHH! THIS IS HOW ANGRY I AM!

DIVORCE I TELL YOU! FIND BETTER MAN THEN YOU KNOW ARH!. YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK!

HAHA, let's go out soon la! i miss u mannn :D

however, an ugly photo to PUNISH you! repent man!

heh. i am not really emo but just felt sad sometimes i can't sit down like how i used to, to study. nothing gets into my head all of a sudden for this June, and feel that i'm just wasting my time. needa take thrice the effort to get formulae into the head. don't know why. but i really don't want to see a C for maths. i never got below B for maths for two years already. maths is my best subject and i always know it. i really hope it won't fail me this time round. if i rrly got a C this time, i will cry and isolate myself and lock myself up and cry until i realise i got a C. NO NO. at least a B, if not i'll die a terrible death.

ok i studied maclaurin [calculus sucks] and a modern poem today! not much but at least it's something. studied in macs. me and zhiyuan. it's so funny. i think we really got a problem. the side effects of studying too much is LAMENESSSSS.

ok here goes the story of a fillet-o-fish and the big head. it's 7pm and bighead ordered a fillet. he's just back from toilet at level 1 hg mall shitting. he sat down, ignored the fillet and attended to the all-time favourite SHAKER FRIES! -ta dang!- he ate that for 20minutes, while fiddling with zhiyuan's phone, sending songs to his phone cos' he just got a 1GB MEMORY STICK[!!!] this afternoon with his mum shopping! [his mum finally gets a day off and went out with him to amk hub :D his mum was so nice today, perhaps cos' nvr go out with his son for a decade, thus she got him ben and jerry's ice cream, sushi and LOTS of them, skittles 1 of his favourite candies, sony erricson speakers and 1 GB MEMORY STICK. yes he's just trying to show off :D] ok, that's not the point.

finishing his SHAKER FRIES while it's hot -ta dang!- , he continued with his maths, the damned maclaurin's series. his fillet watched him with tears, sadness and misery, jealous of the shaker fries who died with dignity in his bulging stomach. the bighead finally remembered his fillet -ding!- when his dog-n-pig friend zhiyuan reminded him. he came to a sudden realisation that he got a fillet, so he took it out, and it's cold, it's FROWNING! :( i felt sad, zhiyuan felt sad too. but i ate it. it's hurt. i hurt its feelings... it died cold, so insulted. it died a terrible death. i'm sorry fillet.... i got my revenge, it got me in the stomach soon after.

MORAL OF THE STORY? EAT YOUR FOOD FAST. IT'S NOT CALLED FAST FOOD FOR NOTHING. yes... you're right. this is how lame i got when i studied just now. :(

LASTLY, I BECAME AN UNCLE! MY COUSIN GAVE BIRTH TO A BABY GIRL TODAY! YES 15JUNE FRIDAY. OMGOMGOMG. I'M SO HAPPY. I'M AN UNCLE :D

KAHMENG IS IN ANCO NOW. MUST JIAYOU :D WILL MEET UP SOOON!

and i watched fantastic four. i think it's funny show. simple storyplot for kids, and i enjoyed it. :D jessica alba damn gorgeous. oh man. just hate her near-to-white blonde hair. and chris evans is real handsome. :S

when the sun shines we'll shine together, told you i'll be here forever. that i'll always be your friend, took an oath imma stick it out til' the end. now it's raining more than ever, know that we still have each other. you can stand under my umbrella, you can stand under my umbrella, ella ella eh eh eh, under my umbrella, ella ella eh eh eh, under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh, under my umbrella, ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh... ... you can run into my arms, it's ok don't be alarmed, come into me... there's no distance between our love... so let the rain pour, i'll be all you need and more.... BECAUSE! ...

life's great with great friends.

ok la, LEP camp was boring, but when i looked back, it wasn't that boring. haha. i like the drama part. really, drama is superduper fun. it makes me think of NY CDC, and it makes me think of why i stupidly joined some stupid cca and became the president when i don't even wanna do much. see, i got 13 members, i haven't even seen around 4 of them before, and i don't really know all of them. i'm so fkingly sianned and bored and depressed cause i really really really like NY chinese drama.
but again, tj is really a not-bad school. just that the cca sucks a lot. at least in tj, i have zhiyuan and koksiong to thank for. the LEP friends are a bunch of nice and wonderful people. seok moon and yijun, what more can i ask for? this camp brought those with common interest [MANDARIN] together, and i knew more tj LEP ppl. that's good, well in fact the sch is ok la. just the cca. i find nothing that i like, nothing i really like, like NY's.

oh well, back to LEP camp, was kinda boring for the first day. took a lot of photos throughout the camp and SEOK CAN REALLY ACT! hahahahahaha. [LUAN BAO AH LUAN BAO AH!]
the hostel is damn disgusting. stinks and the first time koksiong opened the door [i sleep with him], A LIZARD GREETED ME! wtf. i hate lizards and fear them for all my 16 years. pls pls pls don't appear again lizards. go become sharks and tigers and whales so they don't get extinct.
the JJC female emcee is also... my tian. she needs alot of improvement. keep leaving out the 'h' and 'g' sound in her mandarin pronounciation. bad.
and and, my toenail broke and i plucked it out. pain like shit. i swear i'd never do that again.
and and and, being in the same grp with moonjy seok and yijun really brought us closer, somehow. thanks sisters! we have 1.5 years atleast more to go together! :)
and and and and, of course my dearest koksiong who stayed awake with me [EXCEPT FOR LAST NIGHT U FREAK] and accompanied me to talk when i felt real bad, especially this morning [and you woke up at 8am this morning! so late u dumb].
and and yam! THANKS A LOT. your smses really keep me occupied and comforted!

thanks people! i know i feel safe with you guys sticking with me for this 1.5 years.



heh, ugly LEP shirt.




















OI STARE WHAT STARE.

the disgusting hostel...

YIJUN! :D

who says i cannot have two best friends? :)

SEOK JIEJIE! ;D

JULIEEEE; ma wo er!

me and my stinko yellow socks on bed. :D

heh, this is the shirt i give him two years ago as present. AND HE USED IT TO SLEEP! RAHH!

MOONJY! :D

3rd night drama. :)

i can't imagine tj life without himmmm.

jiejie, why u sleep till so ugly?

my poor toe without it's nail. :(

ALRIGHT! then straightafter we break camp, i went out with yam kahmeng! to not create confusion, i shall call him yam from now onwards! haha. and yam, thanks for your choco :D appreciate it ya!

went amk hub, then woodlands [?!], den amk hub again! haha we super random forever. ZZZZ. then we went andersen's icecream. ok this is the funny part. WE HAD CHOCOLATE FONDUE. and on the menu, for 2 persons, it's COUPLE FONDUE. LOL. sooooo, we ordered that one!!!!! HAHAHAHA. GAYY SHIT. :x and he had too much of rum and raisin, YOU BETTER TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. hehehehehe. i tellzz youzz, ....

COUPLE FONDUE :D

yayy! yam takecare :)
life sucks at times. but with great friends, they make life seem so great. I LOVE YOU GUYYYYYS! :D

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reply to tags:
crystal: ok sooon arh! :x i lazy. haha.
mummy: GO OUT SOOON :D I MISS U TOO!
serser: haha, having fun in your ACID camp i guess, with my cadets!
liying: yea i haven't watch finish! :x
azlan: LOL, 1 year older = isn't that old?!
sockmaam: YES MAAM! haha.
kenneth: LOL U MEAN CHELSA? tell her 'ur sucha'!
kahlun: OK! :) but i suck seriously.
kahmeng: YES SIR!
moonjy: RAHH @ U! whatever, anything. haha. thanks man :)
adriansir: haha he's my friend, but also from stjohn. maris stella, my OTC friend, same sch also! haha. :D