change yourself to see the world beautifully.

YOU WANNA HEAR A PIECE OF GOOD NEWS?
NO i didn't get 4 As.
NO i didn't win money.
NO i didn't find a new girlfriend.
YES I WENT BACK TO XINMIN FOR STJOHN! :)

27-28july [friday and saturday]
the night2day run was freaking fun la.
met alot of oldies too, like sockmaam and cl jasmine and kunyang!
i didn't see these people for a longgg time.
i also haven't seen meizhu maam and adrian sir for a long time. WHERE'VE YOU GUYS BEEN!
:(

AND LASTLY I GET TO SEE MY JNRS! :)
cute naughty tall short fat skinny joker and all kinds! but did i not see ismail? hmmm.
siewbeng looks funny with specs too :x

and the concert was the best part. sec 4s left alr, left tracer brenda tr and weiqi. lol.
too bad for the rest. :P it's not a xinmin concert. it's a STJOHN CONCERT. woots.
and ryan from tj came to perform beatboxing.
i thought i could hide from tj for the weekends but i failed to do so. saddd.
ok the photos! :D
[i refused to post photos with my double chin. i took alot that night.]




stretching before the run. the PTIs don't wanna look at me.








annabelle got spastic face. adam got pimple face. :X

CONCERT!

CL zuli and my big head. HAPPY BDAY! :)

CL VIVIAN! [look at clzul's horrid face]

maamsock! :D

LEONG KL ARH! :D

KELVIN LIM WEILIANG!

kunyang weiqi cljasmine and i decided to act innocent. FAILED.

NOW WE HAVE BIG MOUTHS. ky looks spastic! LOL.

after watching JU-ON i became the ghost.

seowkoon and brenda. haiyo. you guys arh.






after the concert was ju-on and officer you gui.
so scary la and nab says NOT SCARY! STUPID NAB!
yongqing was also another timid soul like me.
i slept after ju-on. no more frights. :P

stjohn was damn fun la.
felt that stjohn spirit on friday's night again. so cool.
and only sjab was active during the concert. the rest DIED.
wooots, keep it up sjab. see all during september, champions' night!
that's, 1.5 months later :(
i'm cursed to see stjohn only every 1.5 months.
one 1.5 was over, now the next 1.5 months is champs night, next 1.5 months is NOVEMBER!
i will be real back then! :D

then to cut my hair in the afternoon with my dearest ks.
at night went vivo with jiaying! i realised i haven't go there for 6 months! :S
again, transformers hate jiaying and we can't catch it. heh.

ok i'll post the photos with jiaying soon. card reader got problem la... :(

tagggs.
wenlin- CHUAWENLIN! omg. you tagged leh. i miss u millions :) see youu soon!
KL- haha reahh you dumb, whatever! lets go dota sooon :) and kfccccc!
mel- lol mine went for 2nd operation. THIS WEEKEND HOR! DON'T PANGSEH!
yuan- lol you always look horrid with me. omg i can't believe i said that. :S
weiqi- NICE RIGHT! mr loo got taste. hahaha. :P

salmon nigiri & chawanmushi!

i find this picture very funny. for once my head is SMALL :)














today during CLL 3-hours lecture with other JCs.
then boring. haha. took photos with yuannnns. heh. :P

my friend pls cheerup! :)
and lard hope you're okkk!

i am VERY tired this week.
shan't blog much. soon k? :)
i need creativity. i guess i'll talk about my uncanny love for sakae sushi these few weeks... lol.

PROMOS IS COMING AND I REGRET BEING SO LAZY.
after all, maybe i still haven't feel the remorse. lol.

tags.
seok and yy- WAIT LONG LONG HUH! :P
sockmaam- HAHA ITS LOVE FROM ACNC :)
joanne-GO EAT YOURSELF NOW! haha.
ahbeng- haha we'll go soon! but i'll be kinda busy. YES MY PHONE SPOIL AGAIN! :(
KL- hehh! we very long never eat kfc le! wa random...
adam n nab- YES SK and BRENDA! :S heh. got updated news?
ang- YES! :) thanks yea! you must jiayou in jcccccc tooo! :)

my god.

oh my tian.
thanks weiqi and ACNC.
lost for words.

i miss them alottt.

:)

:)

not really that sad already.
met many ppl today!
first was gekhui and ser,
then karen,
then xiongwei [:)] and lisa,
then serena[again] yingjie jiaying and justin! haha.
cool and tiring day.
and everything's solved, i'm glad..

AND I AM TALKING TO LIONHEART.
omg i cannot believe it. he's a superstar!

yea, don't feel like blogging.
i'll blog when i feel like, haha.
and kudos to my juniors who did it! :)
i'm real proud of that.
and the rest, sigh. you should've at least tried.

see all soon.
my K800's bluetooth spoil! sian...
i swear not to use infrared de leh.

K!

long time ago, like last saturday? haha.
few days ago, yep. went to watch HP5 with adam and AC.
seriously i don't think it's good la. once you've watched transformers HP5 is NOTHING! lol.
then i joined the pigs for K! :D

i just realise i like to ALAF.
oh god. and i changed blog song!
michelle&vickie's (mixueweiqi) song. nice right?
omg, love them.

and i realise i blog alot this month. hee.

i miss xinmin.

you know it's unforgettable.
it's more than any experience i've ever had.

at this moment, i just feel like going up to miss tee and give her a hug, telling her how much i miss her lessons and apologise for every second i spent on sleeping when she's talking.
i just wanna go back to my squad, get pumped and scolded by officers and seniors, and hear them telling us how bad our squad is.
i wanna go SCGS and find mrs low, telling her how much she've brought to xms, that made me love the school so much, so much that i find it real painful to adapt to somewhere new again.

but it's really okay with me now.
i have moon i have seokhan. the new environment gives me such people, where i find comfort and strength in.
i might have lost everything i have from xinmin, but there's one thing certainly, that has always followed me - my idiotic friends in xms! :)
i really love you guys you know. this kind of hardships and tortures we suffered in the same place or elsewhere makes us stronger somehow, makes us love each other more.
and huang guoxiong especially, he must be god's gift. this is like a... miracle. he coming to temasek is like me taking pure science. ok abit no link but i'm sure you know what i'm talking about.

everytime i go past xinmin, i always take a look at the school, at the students, at the teachers, and at their attires.
it pains me to see bimbos wearing skirts shorter than JC girls would and it pains me to see guys and girls just tucking out the school uniform like nothing.
they don't even know what's shame.
but still, my impression of xms stops at my sec4 year, it was the best campus year i ever had.
everytime i thought of xinmin, i always have that extra force to work harder.
everytime i feel like quitting from something, i always rmb how i tell my jnrs not to give up, so i didn't, cos' if i give up, i'm a rascal jackass who says but don't follow what he says.

and REALLY, i'm NOT emo. i'm just very touched that xinmin is still very important in my heart. not sad, yes. cos' i don't wanna spend so much time being sad. it's useless and it only makes the people around me bad.

right now, i just wanna go back to xinmin, and go back to xmstjohn.
xmstjohn, adius for normal activity til end of years. by then, i would be grade 6 and will proudly serve the best corps again.

watch me.

OK A HAPPY POST LEH! :)

OK. today was the lamest day in the history of july 2007 [there's only 13 days now hello ahpek] and IT'S BLACK FRIDAY! i just realised when i read yeeling's blog. hey i'm your loyal fans :D

why lamest?
firstly, MOON IS VERY LAME. she lost her joking skills today. shit.
secondly, i nearly faint and throw out after PE today. it was far too tough for the weak me to take.
thirdly, BEAR IS SUPER OVER REACTING. just a pokeball with munchlax as her super-belated birthday present and SHE LAUGH LIKE CRAZY. she throws her pokeball in a weird style la. she must practise a million times before she can throw it at the geog teacher when she scold bear. haha.
fourthly, huang guoxiong actually can spare some time to waste you know! he walked around almost the whole singapore with me la. national library, esplanade, citylink, raffles city, plazasing, then kovan. haha. damn lame.

tdy during break [we have lots of breaks on friday esp when econs tut was cancelled YAYYY! -shouts like a beast cos' im too happy-] we sat at the canteen and started playing with bear's cam. this is real funny. cos' i actually saw one of moon's candid shots by bear and i started laughing til i got those wanna-vomit sensation and I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING! lol. when bear send me the photos, I POST ONLINE. this is a hot must-upload-photo.

PE WAS CRAZY. they call us to run the girls road run track and claimed it's less than 2 km. PI! my ass man, it's more than 2.5km la! somemore climb lucky heights TWICE. can die you know? slope leh. and as soon as we came back the chengcheng teacher called us to pump 40. he not happy pump another 10. then sit ups 40, not happy another 10. then ended off the day with diamond pumpings 10.
the worst of all was the teacher keeps talking in between when we are in pumping positions. lol. bad. i felt nauseous and nearly fainted after that. was bad!

and and and [suddenly everything of tdy came to my mind]. tj is finally kind to the ex-UG members of sec schools and had something for us during national day. they gng to select 30 ppl to be in a contingent for nat day celebs. this is great cos' i can finally do sth related to stjohn in TJ. rahhh. me sarah suyee kahmeng guanwei and jianhui joining! stjohn power ta! :S not alot la actually...
i really miss xmstjohn. but i don't think i can go back until november... maybe i going back for the n2d run. sad. :(

after 1230, me moon and seok went tampines mall toys'r'us to play la! damn childish but i like it. that's also when we chose bear's present. hehe.


PIKACHU IS SO CUTE LA. especially the ears. omgomg...













I DIDN'T DO THIS. it was already like this. explicit content for children. SIGH.
















koksiong accompanied me to national library, then esplanade library to borrow books for my PW EoM. thanks alot my dear. he's always this resourceful la. if he isn't here in tj i could've died from all the bullies from moon or the heavy workload which i never seem to finish or from the kind of problems i always had. :) thanks i love uuuu!



random, was some grand hotel. forgot which one. haha. :P









weets.
although i still feeel sad for my stjohn thing, but there's nothing i can do. cadets, miss me! lol. :(
but well kinda happy and relaxed today, kinda fun chilling out with good friends and stuff. seok bear and moon really make me laugh until i can train my abs. lol.
and of course, i never forget my huangguoxiong who's the bestttttt la! :)

AND my final results.
A for maths, B for CLL, C for geog and UUUUU for econs. bad.
90th position in school [NOT BAD LE] and at 86% percentile. :D
gd sia. but obviously not happy with the ugly U.
it's over, so... haha. yay watching HP5 tmr and KBOX!
:D

and i deleted a dozen posts in July cos' i find them quite useless and wasting space on my blog.
thinking of changing blogskin, so loook out!

seok- THANKS JIEJIE! :D
siewbeng and CL zuli- haha i deleted the post!
bear- NO! he's not a robot, he's OPTIMUS PRIME! like your munchlax? :D
kahlun- HEY KL! :)
mel-HAHA! JIAYOU MEL! we'll all leading tough lives!
joanne-HAHA, obviously it's not good when there's a U. :P
adam- lol, I WAITING TOOO! come tj horrrr. STUDYHARD.

no sacrifices, no victory.

watched transformers today with rach karen xy and jz,
was damn damn damn damn damn cool.
why no photo of bumblebee [that chio chevrolet]?
COS' I LOVE OPTIMUS PRIME, THE BLUE BIG GUY!
he's damn hot and handsome. i'm turning gay for a ROBOT.


and i am very very sad.
no, beyond sad.
cos', i got a feeling, i won't be able to go stjohn for the next few months.
this is real bad. no stjohn = no life.
haiiii. i feel like crying.

no moooddd.



tags
siewbeng- erm, siewmai can? i feel hungry lol.
serena- NO LA! lousy le...
adriansir- SOOON! must wait. :)
valarie- wa AHSENG, why you come here? and we broke record! wweeets.
liying- OHYA, why i never think before? but grades haven't finalised, i don't want D and B, so ugly...
KL- haha thanks arh boy :) u jiayou tooo!

if everything was meant to be.

celebrated jerome's birthday on friday! woots. :) haha.
i'm sure he love my cardddd. weeets.











yesterday was national comp prep day. i think all of us OCTs + officers can be safely termed as 'saigang warriors'. and yongsiang drank 830ml of CHOCOLATE milk. omg. so much CHOCOLATE milk makes me sick.
that's not the point. the point is, saigang is not just clearing rubbish, and moving tables and chairs.
the new additions to the saigang hall of fame is to
1) PITCH TENTS without instruction manual,
2) suddenly get caught to do saluting
3) try ways to repair stopwatches and
4) draw layouts of classrooms. haha.
ok la, it's kinda fun, cos' you do this with your OTC mates, which all of them are siao dingdong like you are.

after prep day i went to find KL ahbeng and adam. to give sth to NA, sort of.




spasticc....












we waited for 10 secs before camera takes photo. that explains the fake smile.









TODAY WAS NATIONAL COMP.
NA you all did your best, so it's ok!
great job to me, as long as there's effort. :)

and i realised something today randomly : you might not be able to win, but you can never deprive others a chance to win.


took a picture with my lard again :)
sounds like my fats or something.





was the waiting room controller with lard and gina maam and yenchieh sir and yeanlih sir and grace and part-time ben sir. was damn fun! lol. whoops. and the AC all small size la, except for a team with two CLs. CL still join AC, which make me puzzled. THEY CRY SOMEMORE, after their long case. lol. that's very funny and cute.
overall was a good experience, national comp was ended very very very early today!
we were early by 1.5 hrs in schedule! WOOTS. OTC2007 broke the shortest competition time record! THREE CHEERS FOR US! :)

i feel very very tired la.
PW, then ITC...
these kind of thing really make me puke, and cry, and emo, and sad.
it's rubbish and rubbish and more rubbish.

stjohn was tiring these two days but i really enjoyed it.
it's different, so much different.

when i was saluting for the GOH today at prize ceremony, a few old fking idiots from ACSI corps was like condemning and scolding and laughing and teasing the OCTs. AND I WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. fuckers.
"those who stay in stjohn are those who got nothing better to do on sunday; those who go for OTC are certified saigang warriors who know NOTHING but do saigang; aiya, i never wear my CSO(5) before la, who cares about stjohn and my rank...."
fucking idiots. kangwee was damn pissed also. he faced ma and i faced him and he stared at me with vegeance in his eyes. lol. [sounds compo]. idiots. somemore got TEACHEROFFICERS. pls la, say we waste time then you still go for OTC before? ironic contradictory dickheads.
GO AND EAT SHIT.

i'm not very ready to receive my geog and chinese lit results tomorrow.
and i'm definitely not ready for PW and ITC.
god pls save me by giving me stjohn everyday...
sian, i don't feel like blogging, cos' anyway, i'm just feeling sad and you all shouldn't care. :)
a waste of time.

close my eyes.

it's been long since i emo.
ok not really.
mazmo also say i emo. that's omg, that means i'm really emo.
:P


very sian.
after doing two hours of admin work, i give up.
ITC is really, tiring. and stressed all of a sudden.
i can't control myself. but yea, this is what i'm feeling.


i'm really lucky my good friends are always around me.
and PW is really untouched.
sian.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOO JIAYING.
I MISS YOU A LOT! stay happy and seeyou next week :)
i love you!

NA sunday jiayou for national comp.
OCT should be around there watching you guys.
you can do it.
nothing beats the strength of a determined team.

i wish for a pass in econs.

i am very tired, don't know why.
AND I JUST PASSED MY PHYSICAL GEOGRAPHY :)
yes by a small margin, 20/37. but it's still a pass what!
i think my human geog was done better, so i think i should pass geography overall. lol.
tomorrow is econs and cll. so dead.
I WANT MATHS.

went out with kahmeng today.
so freaking tired, don't know why.
just finished settling ITC stuff, more sian...
sigh. this is going to drag for one year.


and very very sorry to NA today! was kinda far from hg area. i promise tml.
after i collect my K800I at simei i'll cab down. :)
meanwhile jiayou!

jiejie don't sound like we're graduating today! [although i really hope to leave the school]
we still have 1.4 years tgt c'mon! WE'LL MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT.
JUST MAKE SURE YOU ALL CALL ME ALONG WHEN YOU ALL MEET YEELING.
BE IT ALJUNIED OR WHEREVER. I WILL TRY TO GO. :D


and and and and and. IT'S JULY! omg i'm slow.
I'M QUITE HAPPY IT'S JULY YOU KNOW.
COS', IT MEANS, 5MORE MONTHS TO 2008! HAHA.
waiting for this bad bad bad year to go away.
and after 16 years of free oxygen, this is the first time i looked forward to my birthday.
cos' it simply marks the end of 2007 when my bday comes.
so it means even if nobody wanna share my end-of-07 joy with me, i'll buy a tiramisu cake and celebrate myself. :P

wishessss of 2007,
a. i wanna be selina's boyfriend! [guess that would be the wish even after i get married.]
b. i want xmstjohn to get CAA GOLD(2007) NEXT YEAR AGAIN! :D
c. xmstjohn own z7 FAC next year and enter nats!
d. my alevels to be AABC!
e. my friends' alevels to be AAAA!
f. everyone to be happppy! :D
g. SLIM DOWN LA. THAT'S BEAR'S CHILDHOOD DREAM :P and MOON'S.
h. do pullups sooooon, like reall soon? :S
i. be in stjohn for another ten years! HAHAHAHAHA.
j. my family, friends to be very healthy. i mean very :)

ok let's not be greedy.
and i want starbucks greentea frap everyday! this is a photo taken like, last year?! lol. vivo outing with CL zuli, originally an old AC outing, but only i went. AHHA. LETS GO AGAIN, i haven't go vivo in ten years!

he's my brother.

i very tired! but i very happy.
and i got a feeling i'm gonna blog alot in July.
and i ought to pack up my table, JCTs' over.

cos' i had a great weekend. seeing kids [not too small, sec2s will do] like AC makes me feel young, but old at the same time cos' i got NOT ENOUGH energy to high with them. THEY TOO HIGH LE. especially kl and ismail. NEVER stop. whew.
siewbeng i hope your phone is ok already, lol.

but yet i'm sad.
i had sore throat and a BAD flu since geog paper that day.
it gets worse and worse and worse.
i had to buy vicks on geog paper day and finished it.
so sad. and vicks is real good for clearing nose.
just 30seconds in your mouth and the traffic jam in the nose gone. whoops.
ok, yea that's all.

and i miss ng ks! haven't seen him for almost a week! [isit? i think so.]
oh my tian. hehe, randomism.
[randomness too common. random with 'ism' sounds like a theory, mine!]

& most like tmr's a halfday! not really half, it's QUARTER! woots. lessons til 9.10 and i should be dismissed.
this is very lame.
whatever, tjc is ALWAYS reason-less.
they do funny funny things without much reason.
ok this paragraph is a bit biased. just A BIT.

and my mum is very cute!
haha yesterday at compass pt she played DDR with sister. this is funny.









and nat comp is in less than a week!
my dear junior junior NA! YOU ALL CAN DO IT.
just go out there, try your best, cannot also MUST act zai!
[the keyword is MUST ACT ZAI]
and the clouds will smile at you say, "wow nab is serious!"
chompu and fiona must OPEN EYES BIG BIG [seldom see your eyes.]
michelle MUST HAVE FIERCE FACE FOR ONCE and YUNJIA DON'T BE BLUR!
haha.
jiayou jiayou. i'll be there, casualty timekeeper usher whatever. :)
and VERY VERY LONG never see OTC people.
the nat comp will be OTC event for me too :D
i wanna take photos! [by then my K800I is back :D]

ok. that's all.

lastly........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEROME LAU FW!
:D
[3rd July 2007]
my dearest dearest dearest brother.
never fail to make me learn, and know what i'm thinking without me needing to say and keeps on saying "of course, i know you so well."
haha.
the one whom i regretted cos' he's not here in temasek, which was his target since sec4 and here i am, having a reasonable deal of tortures. :x
seems like i have to carry on his unfinished and abandoned dream! :)
THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE, WHEN I NEED YOU.
MY GREAT BROTHER, NOW AND FOREVER!

MY HAPPY BREAK!

ok this is crazy.
just the first two days of my 4-day break, I'M HAVING REAL FUN.
it's 1.21am now so it's considered the third day, haha.
this is a sign to a bad results for JCTs! haha.
NO LA =P i refused to believe so.
i'm gonna do well, :D -boosting self-confidence-

YES, GEOG WAS A MAJOR DISASTER. but i don't care!
after geog immediately went parkway KBOX! woots.
but i sang like sai, and refused to talk about it!
wanna see or know more go http://blogmoon.blogspot.com


from my VGA phone. :( i miss K800i.





then hurried to xinmin to go to ubin with sec4s. totally waiting for Corps Presentation Nite [CPN :)] since before the start of JCTs la! what the shit.



on the way there. MY HEAD SO BIG!








they played scavenger hunt and stuff while i rested in the room. still felt quite tired from all the laughters during kbox and trying to recover for a fantabulous night! wooots.


it's raining VERY heavily, i look shabby. haha, with the dumb kahlun. this is candid actually. :S











WENLIN WENT FOR CPN :D SO HAPPY!







ok much photos of the night not with me, will upload if i got them. :)
the second day! took lots of crazy shots.



i really like this photo. it is so. touching. i mean it!











CL STELLA! my head big again...









lol...










lol lol lol......








lena bighead and qi. :D








this is absolutely random.










JUNIOR AC! I WANT DOTA!






then went to rachel's house for steamboat today! weeets.
after that went to hk cafe kovan with richard to meet up with the rest of the pigs! i miss him la. never see him for 200years. :D



and i was very very tired by then. didn't really sleep well and was out the whole day. no eyes when i smile. haha :D







talked to xuyuan about college today.
kinda true that haven't been genuinely into it and enjoying it.
i can't, and i don't want to.
other than some of the people in class, i really have no heart in making extra friends or something like that.
they are just 'hello' and a 'byebye'.
doesn't make a difference if i forsake these kind of people in my life.

haha yea, but this 2days of break and fun and laughter make me realise something:
doing the things you should do is not as important as doing the things you love to do.
happiness is not a goal, but a by-product.

-HITS WENBIN- I'M ENLIGHTENED!

just two days of CPN, without much special activity, i really enjoyed myself.
seeing most of the jnrs having fun, seeing the classic oldies letting their hair loose despite the vigorous life each of us have been leading for at least 6months,
i felt very touched and happy. never had i interact with jnrs this much before. it's the first time i see kahmeng talking so much in stjohn after comp.
seeing publicity people working in 4generations together [weiqi all the way to joel,esther's] was great. it's one of the best CPN i've ever been to and seeing michelle trying to work out things well, it just seems to me all the aspirations and worries the people had for the corps was all worth it. much much more worthy.
forgotten ever since when, i see the whole corps in such a united, lively and loud manner. everybody thought so. it was spectacular, at least to me and cl vian and stella.
i love stjohn without reason, as much as there's no reason to question this passion, for now, and probably for the time to come by. seeing your cadets like the graduating sec4s cheer like the strength of the whole universe combined, this is the most rewarding scene you ever get for putting in your time and effort.
really, you'll understand when you do, you don't cos' you're not part of it.

just a short gathering with rachel they all and purepigs.
this feeling's definitely different from gatherings with IT Club or stuff.
the conversation i had with the former is much longer than i had ever with any JC working partners.
with purepigs and people, words just come naturally. i don't have to be afraid of offending anybody, this is what i call good friends-they forgive and accept you as who you are.
i just feel super comfortable with my dearest friends. just a short conversation with richard on the MRT also help me feel, yadda. [i'm lacking in expressions. too yadda for words.]
a short msg, a jiayou from them makes your day.
time is short, if i could turn back my time to secondary school days, i definitely would spend more time with every single one of them, lock myself up in stjohn room everyday and appreciate everything i should appreciate-the air, light and warmth.

now, i should learn to look forward to everyday, make the best out of everything even when the world seems to be against you, and really, appreciate.
appreciate college life, appreciate your chinese lit teacher who gives you nothing but projects, appreciate the fact he didn't chase you for the project even when it's two weeks late, appreciate the discipline master, appreciate your cca for you are the president their leader, appreciate.

and i hate life without K800I.