Procrastinated to stop this procrastination.

Kuantan trip, that's one week ago.
never appreciated nature in such an intimate way, the hard rocks and wet stones, the sunny sun and the very high temperatures, the not-so-cyber cyberjaya, the very grand hotels, the very funny people (especially one who falls of from his chair), and ...
I realised I digressed away from the topic of nature, haha.
I hate the monkeys though, rah.
I loved the bridge games on bus! Especially when seokhan is quite slow and funny. I must learn from Moon and Yingying, GROSS PEOPLE.
Wow and I found someone who is as manly as bertha, she's just next to our class, haha!
I also found a bao on the sea! If there's intense heat underneath the seawater, maybe it'll become a charsiew bao! lol. I really think too much, but it's really cool though :)
OOOH! I LOVE M'SIA'S SEAFOOD! :D




































































































































































































I took photos with the girls, but it's all not with me, we'll wait. :)


Yesterday was Xinmin Sports Day and SJAB's ANNUAL FLAG DAY! WOO.
Did flag day with Adam at Tampines last year, so decided to go Sports Day this year. The sec1s and 2s are such poor things, they haven't been to the sports day yet. But well, there's nothing to look forward to as well, oops.
Met a very irritating casualty, and this is the first time I scolded a casualty! He isn't even a casualty, DON'T THINK I AM DUMB! Rah, I'm sure I will glare at him if I see him again.
Despite going for Sports Day, I brought a tin over, and collected donations too. Hee. :)

Went to Yingjie's in the evening. Supposed to go at 3pm but well, I'm always late. LOL. SO LONG NEVER SEE THEM! Especially CHOOJIAYING, it's been two months! Miss me right! Always having fun with them :)

























Counting Day today! Went to HQ with some of the mature jnrs and kids to count our corps' flag day collection! We did well again! But of course there'll be some black sheep, oh well. KAHLUN IS THE TOP COLLECTOR, Congrats eh! :)
And yea, these people are dead funny. And Yongqing and Nabilah were very very funny too! LOL. Sigh, they're stepping down in a few weeks' time. :(

I needa do work and study, H3 test on wednesday and I'm sure I am going to die. Well, I hate to believe whatever I speculate, SO I'M SO GOING TO DO WELL! :) YES! We'll see, whatever.

A lot of good incidents happened in the class too, will blog again soon! :)

If we could go back.

Randomly, I thought of AC and NC '05.
It's April 2nd soon. Three years back, we were sitting in the waiting room of HQ, competing against other corps of the zone.

Footdrill was our first item. Average.
Long Case. Omg, I was so so so nervous. It's 200 points. If we die in this, we die forever. When we accessed the case, all went well. Kunyang (my dearest no.1) and Jinkai got the CPR casualty, I got the other with Chinhong. Everything went so smoothly. The casualty suffered from haemothorax because of some stab wound. Omg, you know that was the injury I loved during comp days? Of course I know how to diagnose and treat! Chief Judge was satisfied, we were too, but after that we realised no.4 forgot to clear the knife, argh! Haha.
TOC, first time we dealt with cervical collar. Got a shock, wore the cervical collar wrongly, ambulance loading didn't go well, everything was a cock-up in this section. Demoralised.
Short Case. I was damn shocked. There was three casualties in short case?! All weird abrasions, and one got hypertension, if I wasn't wrong. But well, the whole team thought that we sucked.

Got back to the waiting room, very demoralised. TOC and SC were failures. No.1 wasn't happy. We weren't, too.
Results. "Coming in first for Ambulance Cadet Category is... ... Xinmin Corps!"
Omfg. I was, flabbergasted. Or whatever. Tears just came down naturally. We beat HCI, we beat HCI! OMG. Got up the stage, I still thought I was dreaming. Until no.1 laughed at me and called me to stop crying.

Went on to nationals. Didn't perform, at all. 6th position. Was a great insult, and disappointment. We didn't try. That's why.

As for NC... sigh.

If we could go back,
Would we work hard for nationals?
Would NC find out what's wrong and work it out?
Would we have made the corps prouder?
Would we have made our sweat and tears more worthwhile?

I'm sure AC went through alot, even after competition. Tears was abundant, there was once we cried like we got free tears, haha. Yea, we always quarrel. We always stick together in sjab. And now although some of us went apart, I'm sure we still remember one another, and the wonderful days. Of course our trainers, and our dearest NC. We motivated each other, and without them, I'm sure we would not be where we landed at.
Without AC and NC, I wouldn't have known Wenlin so well, nor find Eeliang such a cute idiot, nor had so much fun and memories in my secondary school days. They made up all of my cadet life. Aww.

Oh, I miss them. Let's go through it again. Haha. Those mentally torturous moments and pains. They made us grow up.
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And you,
If we could go back, perhaps we shouldn't be friends. Maybe, I don't even know you, after these 3-odd years.

If I could go back, perhaps I wouldn't get myself so much responsiblities in college, and spend more time on what I really want, and what I really beed to.

If I could go back, I want to undo so many so many mistakes that I've done in my entire life, and not hurt those whom I did.

If I could go back, perhaps I shouldn't waste those tears on stupid things and issues that aren't worthy of it. I should've learn how to be stronger much much earlier, and manage my emotions.

Face the reality, we cannot go back, what's done cannot be undone, they never can. Move on, change yourself, than change the environment. It's painful to adapt but I must do it. I wasted enough time. Really. I should work hard for my goals. Prepare NC for zone FAC, settle my ITclub problems, finish my Mazarin project, get an A for my H3 maths, finish the GIS competition, and lastly get 4As for my content subjects. It's quite embarassing to say this since I'm quite lousy, but I really want to be the Top Arts Student next year when I come back to get my results! I have dreams, I have goals, I have ambitions. Yup, I want to turn these to reality. Oh well.

Lastly NC, I hope you got what I told you, have some discipline and commitment. Just endure these 3 weeks of intensive training and after that everything's over. Work hard, tell yourself you can do it!
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I lost so much in the first term of 2008. In turn I've become stronger. Fair trade? We'll see.

MARCH CAMP! (i'm late.)

sixth corps training camp for me. new experience, new people, new incidents, with a lot of memorable playbacks in my head.

back at Fernvale site, bunk at the 4th level. firedrill in the weehours of the morning, leovine sir and his ridiculous changing parades. lost beret and torch, while the PC of the other platoon got it for me and returned me, promotion parade, and campfire. strict messtin cleaning, worse standardisation parades, 100 water parades everyday, 90-degree arm posture, everything. that was my sec 1 and 2 years, as a trainee. i think i was in alpha for both years.

sec 3, camp in sentosa. worst camp ever. not fun, sian, boring, sucks. S4 supply NCO, did nothing but make milo, and basically i was just seeing cadets enjoying life in training camp. they're sleeping in chalets. oh well, no comments for that year. was a bad year in terms of camp.

sec 4, back to hougang site. S3 head, a stressful camp. broke down on the first day of camp during dinner, in front of miss ng, when everything went haywire. timings got wrong, everything was delayed, even meal time was extended. had to cancel some programmes along the way to fit in those irritating stuff. day 2 didn't get better. officers came and knock me until i die, was so irritated and pissed on day 2 that my DY cried with me. scolded my members like i never did so in stjohn, especially to adam tianrong and kahmeng. the camp where i learnt alot. all the trainees' time and life in camp was in my dept's hands. i never forget that camp.

2007, S3 advisor. shirleen was head and she got gekhan and yongqing as DYs. they did well, i did too much. lol. camp went on smoothly. dept was creative too. lucky for them, and lucky for me. was the first time i see adam so fierce too. left on day3, for OTC. was very tired and dozed off. the minute i did so some weird officer over there scolded me, fine. i still survive!

this year, still in hougang, 3rd camp here already. this year is way different. got a different post, saw things from a different perspective, and glad, and touched in many ways. i'm thankful for being part of this big family.






















HQ shows you what's speed.

























marcus quek was very enthusiastic!







he's still very!







whatever.







S3 DY!








like this photo.















lol joel looked very high.

candid isaac 1.

yongqing stop staring.

FIRE.

XO!

oh i like, ultra random.

service to mankind, :)

look, our future officer.

candid isaac 2. whatever!

isaac stop this.

old ppl!

joel don't you feel hot with two layers and the campfire beside you?

lol PPG.

with CO and XO!

ismail who came back to find us :)

sec4 squad, they're leaving us so fast, :(

the important ppl behind our promising cadets.






nothing much to say, cos' it's an expression you'll understand only if you've been through such camping days. you suffer tgt eat tgt run tgt bathe tgt and scold the RSM and officers tgt. yes, it's something you won't understand unless you're part of it.

throughout the whole camp, i really like how HQ works. it seems to be they're the smoothest bunch of trainers i've seen so far. i like the enthusiasm on their face, their sense of duty and responsibility. haven't seen that in a while.
congratulations to marcusquek and cherie, you guys did well. i'm also glad to see many mature and grow up in the camp, felt touched. thanks maamsock and sir adrian for those advices and help, i need them. thanks meiqi brenda and teresa for readily and voluntarily taking up the roles as PCs even though you guys don't need to. was a tough job i believe, but you guys did great! and thanks shirleen, even though you won't be coming back but i'm glad you finished your last project on hand before stepping down.

yea, that's all for camp, i guess. hope i will be able to join camp next year again. we'll see.



back to life, back to college.
back to IT Club. i don't want to face such a situation. my exco tried hard, i really really tried, and this isn't the results i want. but again, perhaps it's really my responsibility. i don't know. maybe we didn't try that hard yet. i just feel sad for some reason, this shouldn't be the way. i feel angry about myself. let's just pray, alright.


going Kuantan for 4 days.
NC please work hard, read your first aid and home nursing! if you see this tell your teammates. work together. you guys can do it.

ok, i really got no mood now. what the hell is wrong with everything.