lala.
today is a sweet day.
i had too much chocolates.
lol.










alright.
i admit today was a boring day.
nothing much happen.
well.
and i'm just up here talking nonsense cause i can't find the mood to study.
that's bad.
rahh.








alright.
i think i gtg to do some maths now.
lol.
tmr floorball.
so lame.









in a sanctuary where all are protected.
isn't that our hearts?

went to jog again.
only 2.6 km this time round haha.
:x





rahh.
i can't study.
for some reason.
that's pretty sad.
haha.









a temption is addictive.
once you touched it, for goodness sake.
you'd be hooked for life.
just like ecstasy, cigarettes, or more.

went jogging this morning lol.
covered 3.5km
:DD haha so good.


watched lakehouse today.
was a nice show.
how do i say. it's touching.
haha.



but.
my day was spoilt by a spoilt calculator.
walao.
my calculator went dead on me ytd when i wanna study.
shit.
RAHH.

'that falcon one!'
'now that two jaguar boys!'
'that bara and jaguar pair!'
'got camera! hurry siam!'





lol.
that's how we did our road run.
we= daryl tan and me.
haha.
that's stupid.

people who slacks and walks infront of you makes you stop.
flashing cameras motivate you to move at the speed you never thought you could!
lol. exaggeratory statement.






jiayou buddy!
you must do it tonight (:




awww.
no dinner.
RAHH!
im angry haha.

and thanks weiqi and elena for helping me with exercising today.
lol. was it today? i think so lol.



oh and takecare lots lots my dear.
angry then not shuai le!
must cheer up and SMILE :DD
like me haha.








before i end this sweaty and stuffy post.
let me write out the time when i see stjohn today,
in a literary manner. i mean very. haha.


having an advantage of an aerial view from the third storey,
i started to see, a group of young and budding teenagers forming into circles.
i bet i knew what's on their mind.
the hey banja dance.
"hey banja hey banja
hey banja billy banja......"

it won envious gazes from everybody.
all around them started to halt and take a glance at the quadrangle.
the vibrant reverberation,
it's sure a temption.
a temption for our bodies.
a temption for unity.




TAKECARE PEOPLE (:

and no.
EMILEE KANG IS OUT ):
awww.

how can.
mathilda must get singapore idol!
at least top3.
lol.
emilee..
):

BOO.
I MUST PASS MY PULL UP AT ALL COSTS.
or not.
):










gosh.
i got 4 blisters at each hand.
so, 4x2=8.
lol. this shows that i have great endureance, perserverance and determination!
but through sheer hard work will bring me success?
gosh. i have 2 weeks left.
that's short, very very short.





anyway,
i made a teenyweeny mistake in the lastpost and is lazy to edit it.
its SERENE TAN XINYI and not SERENA yadda yadda.
haha. (:





and can anybody please enlighten me,
whether a fully boiled egg will float on the surface on the water?
while i was boiling halfway, then i suddenyl realised that and called many for help.
lol. i was so stupidly amusing myself.
blah.
going to mathematics again soon!
haha.




and i missed ytd spore idol.
today's the results!
haha. i hope for nothing but for emilee to get into the next round!
:DD yeah! hoho.


tmr maybe going to eat with dear purepigs :DD
so fun. lol :x
tmr got road run. lol. so BOO.
me and daryltan going to walk throughout i guess.
but i have to slim down to pass pull up!
lol. sounds linkless.








and i've decided.
every saturday shall jog with my brother at punggolpark
and every sunday with my brother and fel too haha.
:DD I MUST KEEP FIT AND SLIM DOWN.
lol.





let me watch youtubes now.
hilarious touching powerful singapore idol.
meryl was a lost jewel :/
rahh.



alright people.
BYEBYE AND SEEYOU (:

RAHHH!
today was a stupid day.
lethargy possessed me and i felt like a walking corpse.
everything seems withered upon my vision.
this feeling, it's making me ecstatically weak.






hohoho.
even with the sleeping english monster as my tutor.
I MUST GET ATLEAST B4 FOR PRELIM ENGLISH!
hahaha.
sleeping monster with humongous nostrils.
HUMONGOUS. haha.








alright.
what a day.
another bottlecap war IIIIII.
haha sorry. i forgot to count the number of wars.
let's call it the nth war then. haha.
count ourselves lucky nothing is broken,
maybe except darylho's few strands of hair and elson's temper.
lol.
please come to my class and study with great forbearance and tolerance.
my class can't keep those who are sick of noise and violence.
:x haha. what a lively class.
rowdily lively (:






today stjohn's was exceptionally crazy.
maybe because of my newsletter essay on march camp.
or maybe it's the voting slip that was crazy.
haha.
i bet i'm the cutest senior.
but weiqi knew that i would definitely clinched that,
she eliminated that section.
3 BOO to weiqi!
haha.
:x


hope the new batch of baby AA AC NA NC turn out polished.
they are xmsjab's new gems : DD




moodswings aren't for girls only.
it's every human right to have moodswing.
lol.
SERENA TAN XINYI! get this right.
lol. she's another crazy girl. like me. except the gender diff.






TUITION WAS BORING PLEASE.
sin cos tan cot cosec sec.
what shit. lol. trigo sucks.



after tuition was conversing with laogong about our life,
one year later, ten years later, years ago..
haha.
i suddenly wanna stop studying after secondary school.
i don't wanna go JCs or something like this.
ten years later my ambition is to go into educational line?
now, it sounds now dead and boring.
lol. it lacks life for everything now, except having fun with my crazy friends in this crazy little school.
boo.
time will never stop, but i still wish to make a crazy request.
I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP.
haha.
:/






alright.
let me suffocate in this hotness and lastly.
HAPYP BIRTHDAY TO LOOWENXIN MY PRETTIEST SISTER.
(:
haha.








still, the end justifies the means.

maybe tuition is shifted to tomorrow.
gulps*
haha. my singapore idol and lvguangsengling!
ahhh.





and yes i miss kahloon alot okay.
haha.
i know he misses me too!
take care and get well soon (:







anyway.
ytd i went haircut with huang laogong.
his hair is so funny.
:x
lol.
thanks for being very thoughtful (:






and MUMMY!
getwell soon (:
lol.






actually,
i forgot what i want to say today.
but anyway.
my class is a battlefield.
somewhat a war.
if you enjoy fights like most 06 boys do and wish to challenge them,
please drop by at 406 during recesses and lunches.
lol.
but remember, the loser gets taupok-ed.
haha.
see you there, or not.
bring along few bottle caps too.
they are bottlecap national team players.
lmao.











wee!
chemistry is starting to become fun, since i know it much better.
=.- and i hope i can get an A1!
boo haha i know i can (:






alright.
a day of crapping.
a day without dzing off in class.
a day of hunger and starvation.
the ravenous bighead wants to eat NOW!
and wait.
is there food? haha.












the end justifies the means.

it's like the fish out of water.
he could not weather all of these.
suffocating in silence, he attempted to climb up.

clutching on every shard of rock he could,
he worked very hard, trying to shake off the pit.
but the shards fell on him, hard.
reverted back to the bottom, he sat.
he lost hope, every hope.

in the end he still lost.
he could not battle the devil.
the one which possessed his heart.

i had a crunch chocolate bar and a fruits and vege juice for lunch + tea!
haha.
but dinner is only to be... BIG.
gosh.
seriously.
i'm hungry for success.
i'm hungry for a pass in NAPFA!
RAHHH.
awww. one month left. pathetic big head.



well.
SMILE BUDDY (:
haha.
haiyo.
don't like that la.
i felt like crying when you cry.
hope you really are okay.
kiss dating goodbye. :/





today was elections.
seeing them making speeches.
i also wanna make one!
haha. and improve my english at the same time.
: DD




MY SL ELECTIONS RALLY SPEECH

good day everybody.
standing right in front of you, is none other than someone ordinary,
just like everyone seated here.

so, what's my point of standing in this vast stage, talking to the masses here?
because. i have extraordinary dreams.

often, i think.
what is the best definition to a leader.
how should we shape a leader as?

Mao ZeDong, one who only seek for its personal selfish gains yet gain people's respect alot?

Adolf Hitler, the barbarous creature that instilled fear in everybody and seek to murder all Jews at sight?

Joseph Stalin, who manipulated everybody and resort to treacherous methods to get rid of his enemies?

or maybe simply myself, deliver my truest and real capability to what i can be?




A leader takes in different forms.
some benevolent, some ruthless, yet some bears nothing.
The upmost and basic quality i think which is also essential,
is a true heart.
some who have a clear conscience yet delivers to the upmost he/she can.

being sincere to yourself is being sincere to others.
an innocent and pure heart is something rare in modern society.
it seems to be a lost virtue thoughout years of urbanisation.
as a leader, as a spokeperson for the student body,
i seek truth and sincerity.

through fanciful posters and cute poses do not guarantee responsibility by the Student Leader Exco in future.
a commitment does.
and i believe even if i might not have that of a high calibre,
i have that dedication to face all challenges and improve the school and our dearest student mass and at the same time, be true to myself and everybody.

only staying true, may you focus on your primal aim and work towards a golden age.

a vote counts a lot, so does each and everyone of the population counts.

with every vote you gave, i believe it would boost me and work harder for a brighter xinmin.


the decision lies solely on you, your mind and your heart.
remember, be true.

i am __________ of _______.







hahaha.
so fun.
i can improve my english.
well.
on future, i shall write more short paragraphs.
i'm hungry for success once again.
ENGLISH A1!
haha.









please god, let me pass my pull up :/












intimacy takes on a form of commitment.
do you possess that?

awww.
today was just maths.
amaths and emaths.
and it's driving me crazy.
HAHA.
tonight gonna do some chemistry and geog.
maths is getting more boring.
haha BOO.












SHE SHE SHE!











what sluttery.
rahh.

firstly i hope mel jie is okay.
(:
takecare okay.
the shirt can be washed so nvm (:
i can always lend you my sleeve.
unless i'm sleeveless! haha.
=.- not funny.








today's lessons was boring.
but luckily gabriel sat with me.
takecare chiangchin (:
: DD



haha.
went to hougang mall with laogong and serena!
hahaha.
SOO HAPPY.
i got my SHE album and it's nice.
as in the cover.
lol :x




then was tuition.
well.
always the same.
haha.


when i went home, i saw daryl tan at the voiddeck of my block.
gurps*
so late.
haha.
he come and find me?
HAHA.
so sweet.
brokeback salam*
lol. no la.
10++ pm and he's having church activity.
lol.








last thing before i go for my tv.
WE ARE CHANGING CLASSROOMS WITH 404.
wonderful yea.
RAHHH.
no fun.
although it's just above 403 *winks,
but.
not a strategic location.
amd somemore sooo. HIGH.
jiaying must be laughing like crazy.
argh.
who cares about our class only having aircon after recess.
it's still the same, spoilt moron.
i hate him to the core.
haha not that serious, but he sucks.
boo. zhengrui must be nodding his head.
: DD







rahh.
MY TV.
BYE PEOPLE! (:

if you love to work as an individual.
i think you've come to the wrong place.












complacency kills the mind.

your hand is like a universe.
the little planet of me revolves around your universe.












hahahaha.
today was tiring.
english was enarly caught scolded for sleeping :x
but luckily in the nick of time i suddenly woke up.
haha.
=P
anyway.
today's lessons was boring.
very boring.








thanks to the most accomodating, caring, understanding and thoughtful laogong in the world.
i went for nationalday training today.
whew.
im glad they improved much today.
hahah.
MUST JIAYOU.
i think i'm doing a fine job too.
hope this carries on.
rahh.



and some idiots are just jealous.
grrrr.
we are the GOH and that's final.
stupid rubbish suggestion.
even some cher also like that.
rubbish.








aww.
tmr is SHE album release date!
woots.
hahaha.


thankyou everybody especially huangguoxiong.
for trying to accomodate me sometimes.
haha.



SEEYOU PEOPLE TOMORROW.
i hate homework.
and i dread maths for some reason.
BOO HOO.

S.H.E-RingRingRIng

REKINDLE SPLINT REKINDLE!
it didn't rekindle.
and two test tubes were sacrificed.
:/
awww.






i don't really know what to say.
cause seems like alot of things flashed past today.

the worst as chemistry practical.
i can't even test for oxygen properly.
i don't see any intensifying glowing and not to say rekindling of a glowing splint.
lol.
AND. i cracked two test tubes because of the heat.
and that sodium nitrate dumbass.
shit the salts!
haha.
aww.
did only. half of the practical?
lol. no. the half i did also failed.
testing for pH also like so weird.
get different colours when i retry hundred times.
lol.






argh.
maths suck now.
for some reasons.
it's as if we are only taking maths olevels at the end of the year.
RAHHH.








and today during morning assembly.
mrs lim came to me and scolded me.
for staying til very late yesterday.
she warn me that if she ever saw me in school til so late again,
she's gonna call my parents.
:/








i have a commitment.
i need to turn those promises into reality.











i really wanna shout out loud today.

zzz.
i have that fainting sensation which i long missed.
the last time was erm, during my ITC 2004?
lol. so long ago.
it makes me. somehow drowsy and wanting to faint.
but i got lots of work to do yea!
rahh.









today lessons was nothing much la.
just emaths, emaths. and emaths.
dots.
and i need to finish that chinese narrative.
to say truely, i hardly write chinese narratives for two years.
lol. and chinese narrative. is a torture.
:x
but this is my best piece i think. HAHA.








and went to ndp training.
cause weiqi needs help.
but i think i'm not going to stay this thursday le.
promised laogong to go hougang mall.

and i think i need to study. my science and humans suck like hell.
gosh man.
WEIQI JIAYOUU!
NI KE YI DE!
[[:


someone just suck can.
what the hell.
weiqi is good enough and don't need your awful...
eh. awful comments.
nah. they don't even are comments.
RAHH.
fucking bastard.



and GOH performance today was.....
lol. oh my gosh.
vincent must have had a good laugh. T.T
haha.
who cares if he laughs or not.
maybe the GOH have something wrong today.
hope they can perform better next time (:










study big head.
still sitting infront of the computer acting like a fool.

RAHHHHHH.
i feel like shouting.

yayy.
i am going to complete angmokio amath paper soon.
just a few holes lazy to fill in or don't know.
haha.
YES.
then tonight must finish passwithdistinction emaths ex3 paper1.
hahaha.
and do some chemistry!
yayy.
not many people understand what i talking anyway.
haha.
nvm. i self-high can liao.
haha.






my chemistry sucks seriously.
dots man.
only today i realise metaloxide is a base.
when clement and laogong told me.
T.T
don't care.
CHEMISTRY MUST BE A1.










hahaha.
at this rate im playing with the computer.
my emath paper1 and chemistry won't be done.
lol.












anyway.
came up to talk about my sjab life.
so fun.
i wanna share with everybody.




seriously.
i forgot about sec1.
i only know that staff noramin who is always scolding.
he always holds a white adidas watch.
giving us that horrible look.
most of the time in sec1s.
when we are out in the parade square,
we stay im pumping position most of the time.
T.T haha.
thats sec1 life.
and the first time he took us for footdrill.
i remember him asking if we know what post he held.
lol. and i answered that question :x

so juniors. be glad you weren't in that era.
RAHHH. juniors love to complain.
for some sickening undefined reasons.
stupidity.







sec2!
haha.
i think that year was some sort of turning point in stjohn.
as in for me.
haha.
i became a FIT.
the one teaching footdrill T.T
huh huh. haha.
i teach FOOTDRILL? haha.
juniors now must be laughing.
cause i have the worst footdrill ever.
and i taught footdrill previously.
WAHAHAHHA.
yea. i took the present sec3 batch.
i think. i stick to them more than sticking to my own squad during activity.
lol.
but their footdrill was good la, notice the word WAS.
yea. haha.


i got into AC of compteam.
with kunyang jinkai chinhong and haziq initially.
and there were some changes and... haha.

ohya!
i promoted to lcp that year.
quite disappointed though. cause i thought i could get double T.T
and got into publicity. WAHAHAH.
:x








sec3.
another turning point.
got into training dept and became the AHOD.
swicthed over to FAT and become chief.
haha FIRSTAID (:
and double to sgt! haha.
that year was a fruitful year.
however. AC got into nationals.
but got sixth. thts something i learnt too.

and trained AA.
well, last year was a busy year.
i had problems with FAT, and there's some problems in trainingdept.
and there was some reshufflement inside the dept itself.
quite a number of problems ba.
but nevertheless, its fun.
haha.

AA was a funny bunch of people.
they taught me alot of things in life.
and i gave them everything i know in stjohn.
i hope it's useful.
i hope all of them would stand up after that setback.
i hope i've already stood up proud.
(:
and kahmeng too. hope he really is okay.







sec4.
well.
definitely a sad year.
a very very miserable year.
but i promise myself.
i will be a respectable and respponsible cadet leader.
i will do all i can to bring stjohn to its golden days. again.












whew.
stjohn taught me alot of things.
i hope. i will put all those to good use.













RAHHH!
study la.
haha.
i must go back to study already.
ill make sure the next time is laogong ask me chem.
not i ask him!
haha.
quite impossible though.
:x









SHE ALBUM RELEASING!!
20th july.
w00ts.

RAHH.
only completed 9/10 of emaths paper.
DOTS man.
rotting my whole day away watching tv.
later must finish up chemistry paper.
boohoo.

a glass of sour milk is still sour milk.
no matter how at what temperature you heat,
no matter how you stare at it.
no matter how you pray at it or
no matter how you try to swallow it up.

it's still a glass of harmful sour milk which can kill.

maybe it takes some complicated process to turn this bad milk back to shape.
but think again.
is that going to help?
going through all the efforts for a glass of sour milk that could hardly be saved.
the sour milk sure waste alot of people's time and effort.
in the end, it goes to nought.











sometimes.
we already found our answer in ambiguity.

some girls are so lame.
if you want to change your CCA,
just change.
you don't have to write in your blog.
haha. it's LAME.
and you will regret for leaving such a nice cca though.
(:









and there are three KAHMENGs!
kahmeng stop kissing me!
haha.

some people.
do things without considering people's feelings around them.
they never ever wonder.
how much some did for them.
they never ever think.
how fortunate they were.
they never ever care.
about those who always stand beside them believing in them.


if you can't tell the truth, don't lie too.
it hurts.
you hurt my friends.











takecare my friends,
and zhiyuan especially.
(:













wells.
today was training meeting.
and i climbed out of bed lazily.
today was not a productive day for studying.
gonna sleep all i want today and study hard tomorrow!
haha.





i love raining.
xD.





i love laogong too!
((:

LALALALA.
don't know what to say now.
cause I AM ECSTATIC!







nothing to say.
just wanna say thankyou to jeraldine and serena.
and weiqi haha. JIAYOU TOO!








i love titration LOL.
lamer.

today was a tiring day.
worn out really.
and i don't like that.
it's as if. i'm just being used or something.
again.
it's my choice.









flag bearer flag bearer!
i like i like!
hahaha.
:x









had compteam meeting jsut now.
the promising trainers are ready, i guess.
they are kinda efficient.
hope they will do fine altogether (:












seriously.
i'm so disappointed with you.
what a day you ruined early in the afternoon.

TOGETHER FOREVER.

i feel so out of place.
dislocation maybe.
without those crepitus. cause it's silent pain.
and it's 'sickening'.
with deformities angulation and the big five.
yes. dislocation it is.





luckily i have serena to share the pain :DD
sigh.
everything is like changing.
divergent plate movement.
hahaha.
:/




but if it isn't like this.
maybe i wouldn't hear what mdm aminah told the corp.
and i wouldn't have the chance to talk to training dept and FATs.
haha.
just some lame reasons to cover up everything.










i felt so f-ed up now.
daryl my dear, allow me to scold once more please.
FUCK.

happy birthday to my mummy (:
today is my mum's birthday.







viewing from a third party's view.
what's the type of feeling?

i never thought that i will view it from such a point.
haha.
sigh.









i don't know how to say.
but.

i think.
everything has an expiry date.
so it's now so fast. so fast.

before this faithful ten july finally ended.
i would like to wish my brother a happy birthday (:
i shall buy you something erm. tomorrow : DD


and.
this is our sinful day last year.
dearest AC4 made a grave mistake.
was disappointing. was ad. was upset. was everything.
everything bad.


this day, although my brother's happy occasion,
again serves as a reminder to myself.
as long as i am in SJAB.
i will make sure. the future compteams won't suffer this same fate.
even the results weren't as good, at least they must be contented as they already tried their best and worked very hard.

now again, i'm sorry. to my dearest AA.
your sgtwenbin could only do this much previously.









and i am really sorry.
for dearest koksiong to cover such a long distance by foot today.
i was sad, and i need to walk.
that's what i always do.
and thanks for accompanying (:










whatever it is.
it's simply over.
stop thinking and concentrate.
prelims is 18august.
and it's fast.







takecare people.

and.
dearest daryl tan and kahloon.
takecare of yourselves.
get well soon! (:

goodday people.
it was just another.
moodswing day.





finally understood settlements.
thanks mrslim.


and the rest were the same.
:P





went to hgmall after that with laogong and murphy.
pulling a long face all the way.
so sorry :x
wasn't feeling that wonderful.


also met mdm zuli haha.
she pointed midfinger to laogong! :O
haha.








alright.
moodswings ain't good for health.
byebye people (:

if one has the determination to overcome,
it's as if the phoenix rising from the ashes.











after today.
all stjohn matters come to an end.
it's time to put all my heart in my examinations.
after that, stjohn comes back.

reflecting through my 4 years.
i think. stjohn life was very very happening.
escalating in ups and downs.
shall talk about all these maybe these few days.
stjohn journey part 1 ends here.


all the best to my dearest training department.
all the best to my FATs and FITs.
all the best to the whole of stjohn.

lastly.
all the best to my beloved AmbulanceAdult team TWO.
teach the cadets correct stuff.
LEONGKAHMENG AND BERNIELEE. don't ever teach them to play with watermelons.
and ADAMANG. your face. don't spread!
they are half of my best memories in stjohn :DD
i love you. and i love to pump you too (:





to AmbulanceCadet FOUR and NursingCadet THREE of 2005.
goodluck for olevels [most of them] and workhard in whatever you do.
(:












often.
the most captivating music that release a soul is the one from the heart.

they made it.
they put in their 100% effort.
NA and NC were superb.
(:







NC won runnerup homenursing,
liying won best leader,
and they won overall runnerup.

that was totally cool.
another miracle after mdm zuli's NA team.




NA although won nothing,
but they fought hard.
their homenursing was steady,
maybe just a lack of speed.
they should have no regrets after all these hardwork put in.
weiqi did her best too.
right weiqi?
(:










i'm sure my AA will shine as bright if.
if we didn't ruin that chance.
i am sorry.































words can't describe all these.

i hope i was a good trainer.
i hope i impart all my firstaid knowledge to them.
i hope other than firstaid and footdrill, they learn to work as a team.
i hope they have a better mindset after all they went through.

all the best for my boys who once fought hard together.
i wish that they will always continue to shine.
(:
i love AA2.

mrt takecare.
(:










actually.
i got nothing to blog about today.
but.







i thought it so long.
so long so long.



saw adam and bernie's blog.
and i cry.
cause i am selfish.
cause i am sorry.
cause i am guilty.





by right.
they won't even blog today.
they don't have to.
if they are in nationals.
if i wasn't selfish.




i think.
it was retribution.
one year ago, ten july 2005.
AC05 went to nationals.
we took it for granted.
we got a bloody sixth.
not because that's our best.
that was really crap.
we just go for the sake of going.
we didn't understand how the rest felt.
especially dear NC.

and now.
maybe because we forfeited such a nice chance.
god wants my boys to suffer.
AA wanted so bad for that chance to nationals.
i also wanted them to go too.
they can. they really can.
it's all retribution.
why. we were selfish.
and i think. it sorta affect AA.
cause i do believe in retribution.




two days later is 10july.
i hope AC always remember this lesson.
at least kunyang and i do.




AA is watching NANC fight.
like last year. how NC watch us.
they just want our 100%effort.
whatever the outcome wasn't important.
we really. sorry NC.






NA NC. do your best.
i only want 100% effort.
whatever the outcome is not important.
for yourselves, for AA, for xmsjab.





i failed as a cadetleader.
i failed as a trainer.

most importantly.
i failed as a compteam number3.






sorry AA.
i'm really very very sorry.

mrt takecare.
(:










actually.
i got nothing to blog about today.
but.







i thought it so long.
so long so long.



saw adam and bernie's blog.
and i cry.
cause i am selfish.
cause i am sorry.
cause i am guilty.





by right.
they won't even blog today.
they don't have to.
if they are in nationals.
if i wasn't selfish.




i think.
it was retribution.
one year ago, ten july 2005.
AC05 went to nationals.
we took it for granted.
we got a bloody sixth.
not because that's our best.
that was really crap.
we just go for the sake of going.
we didn't understand how the rest felt.
especially dear NC.

and now.
maybe because we forfeited such a nice chance.
god wants my boys to suffer.
AA wanted so bad for that chance to nationals.
i also wanted them to go too.
they can. they really can.
it's all retribution.
why. we were selfish.
and i think. it sorta affect AA.
cause i do believe in retribution.




two days later is 10july.
i hope AC always remember this lesson.
at least kunyang and i do.




AA is watching NANC fight.
like last year. how NC watch us.
they just want our 100%effort.
whatever the outcome wasn't important.
we really. sorry NC.






NA NC. do your best.
i only want 100% effort.
whatever the outcome is not important.
for yourselves, for AA, for xmsjab.





i failed as a cadetleader.
i failed as a trainer.

most importantly.
i failed as a compteam number3.






sorry AA.
i'm really very very sorry.

HAHAHAHA.
today was tiring.
damn tiring.
zzz.





lessons was okay.
had the focus group meeting with Ps VPs and some teachers.
i suggested UG activity to be on saturday intead of friday.
i think this is something i should do.
for stjohn.
yea it's my resposibility.
i hope it works.
i hope the corp gets better.
it's already half ruined in my hands previously.
:/




then was history.
awww.
mr pah must be real sad.
some pregnant teacher made almots the whole 405 stand in the parade square,
facing OUR class where mr pah is teaching.
so bad.




geography was fun (:
haha.
mrs lim is so funny.



NO CHINESE.
havoc haha.
so good.



sometimes i felt that.
you are just so irritating.
stop it. please.










PODCAST.
the ASSHOLE and the BITCH are back!
hahaha.
the BITCH LOO teamed up with tianrong.
and ASSHOLE BEN teamed with cassandra and mingting.
HAHAHA.
we did FOUR and they did THREE.
yayy.
we're great (:
haha. tomorrow will be studio day for me.
it's going to be boring without asshole :/




then after podcast.
we went for tuition.
as in me and asshole.
met up with zhanyuan and murphy first.
HAHA.
and ASSHOLE WASN'T LATE!
for erm. the first time?
HAHAHA.
see. i'm nice and asshole isn't late when he's with me.
hahha.
xP








tuition was truely.
boring.
PandC. something i knew from last year.
dots.
and mdmlee criticise me and emmaline,yanling's class way of doing it.
walao.
it's easy convenient and as spot-on.
STUPID!






lol.
then went home with laogong and murphy.
what a tiring day.
and sunday going for the nats.
no time for revision and homework.
and SHE preorder starts today!
GRRR.
haha.
i want money, ADAM ANG KAHCHINN.
haha.
kahchink*
MY 20BUCKS.










gosh.
i'm tired.













things can't be forced if it's meant like that.

it's like a graph with no solutions.
you can't force out any answer from it.
and you can't possibly find the end to an ln graph or an e curve.
it's near infinity.

if it's meant to be, it will drop onto you like the apple on Newton's head.
if it's not, rebounce off like the gas molecule.
seek for space that suits you.

for all, smile.
gradients are nice on your lips (:

aww.
i feel so tired right now.
zzz.
and yesterday i dreamt i could do pullups!
what a wonderful dream.
but it did not happen.
haha. AHHHHHH!
I WANT TO PASS MY PULLUP.
I WANT TO GROW FITTER.
roars.










and jerome lau.
get well soon and take care.
he's a poor guy who fell sick in school today
and he's not coming tomorrow.
he still sms me to inform me because i will think that he pon again.
lol. good boy [:
roars.
i'm tired.

*ROARS
some people are just some lame.
they love to give attitude to others for no reason.
and they love to act cute and give stupid faces.
grrr.
luckily, i'm not the victim of these people.
i hope. haha.







HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIAYING.
hahaha.
(:
gave her a surprise celebration in her house.
not that surprising actually.
haha. but i became fatter from all that eating.
=.-







AND.
during recess you know what happen.
oh my god.
i was sitting at the lovely corner of 403,
talking to serena, jeraldine and catherine.
then, out of the blue.
the metal ledge on the 'lovely corner'.
as it was a bit bended upwards,
it penetrate through the back pocket of my pants!
that was so, 'ohgosh.'
and therefore, my outer layer of the back pocket has a small hole.
HAHAHA.
luckily my wallet is there to block any further penetrations.
sounds disgusting.
:x











alright.
i think that's all for today.
didn't go home with laogong today.
:/
that's sad.
haha.
and tomorrow and saturday are going to be busy days.
EXCEL FEST DUTY >.<
awww.
i want a break.
and i did not do any homework today.
i suddenly felt so tired and bloated to do so.
gosh.











alright.
that's all for today i guess.
i miss laogong ):
hahah.
and all my friends.
100+ days =/
awww.










awww.

100+ more days to separation.
seriously i hate that you know.
it's all so sad and ...
hmm.



i suddenly miss purepigs.
hope i can see all of them tomorrow!

i miss all my friends.
=/


at least i learnt alot of things from them.
appreciation.
patience.
the way of life.
fun.
many many.
thankyou my friends (:






was writing my blue notebook.
it's how our class communicates with our form teacher.
it's rather a very nice way.
at least your teacher can give you some humble advice.

was writing about stjohn.
aww.
:/









and last of all.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYING DAJIE!
[in advance xP (6JULY)]
stay happy ALWAYS! (:

sorry.
my tagboard is crazy.
or rather my computer is crazy.
it's going to break down one of these days.
T.T

and from now onwards i'm not going to use abbrievations in my blog.
PURE FULL spelling.
(:
great.





and i can't tag on my own board.
now that's crazy.
anyway.
what i wanted to say was:
thanks people. i'm okay. i just felt like ranting everything.
therefore i changed my blog and really gave a piece of my mind.
[:







in this bustling world of love, war and work.
what people seek is peace, space and time.
this little ball of magma keeps revolving.
it waits for nobody.
so people. grab hold of every precious second you have in your hand.
if not, they will flow off from your hands faster than you know.








by all these proper english and vocabulary,
I HOPE I GET B FOR ENGLISH IN PRELIMS!
haha.
moments of ecstasy.

byebye people.
1.5 more hours to 0000 to wish jiaying dajie a happy birthday!
(:

><
firstly.
im very very sorry to melissa lim li ting.
i promised i wont talk about him again.
:x







today.
i'm going to talk about the shallow personality of teenagers.
or rather, most teenagers.

seriously.
some people. stead for the sake of cool.
they thot it's in the trend, so they did likewise.
but do they ever know having a partner is not a game nor a toy?
having a stead is not for show.
having a stead is not for FUN either.
it's a responsibility.
it's a commitment you make to one another.

yea LOVE is blind.
LOVE has no boundaries.
LOVE is great and noble.
yea yea yea all the bullshit about LOVE.
but do we, teenagers really understand so?

teenagers see love to the extent of only skin-deep.
i mean most of course.
LOVE isn't a product. it's not something you can throw if you don't like.
like i've said. it's a responsibility and commitment.
and seriously. i don't think love would grow at first sight.

and lastly, love is NOT and never a trend.
it's not something you wear, something hot nowadays.
it's something we find it hard to understand at this age.
so please people.
stop thinking having a stead as a trend in school or whatever nonsense.
grow up. and stop being shallow.











there's stjohn activity for secones today.
hope they had a fruitful activity and hope the FITs are doing fine.
and hope that NC and NA will get top3 in their competition.
i have faith. [:









last of all.
i hope everybody to be happy always.
especially my dearest koksiong purepigs 406 ACNC AA and stjohn.

alrytes.
i changed my blog.
cause i wan peace.
cause i wan myself.
cause i wan to rant for all i care.



SOS.
n a code signal calling for help; any call for help



yea.
im calling for help.
save me from this world of nonsense.


firstly.
i hate being a CL.
seriously.
i dread this rank.
it's the ugliest rank ever.
it's the worst rank ever.
it's the most disgusting rank ever.

most people yearn for it. and never succeed.
yet. it falls to me.
it's not just being addressed as a 'sir' like nothing else matters.
it's not just shaking your legs and waiting for people to do things for you.
it's not just coming to see the corp and make sure it doesn't close down.

first thing people.
ever wonder why your rank is on the shoulder?
cause you have to BEAR the burden.
you have to bear the responisibilty.
yea people kid around wa CL big huh.
wa CL sehseh arh.
wtf-ing god.
it's a heavey responsibility for goodness sake.
firstly you are the one holding most authority in school.
you have to be responsible for stjohn in school when no other snrs are arnd.
you have to watch over stjohn and make sure it doesn't go bad to worse.
you must bear those hard times your jnrs give you and maybe some snrs too.

please.
CL is not big, its not seh, its not great.
ITS RESPONSIBLITY.



secondly.
i hate people who dnt follow wad they wan people to follow.
especially those who are supposed to lead by example.
you know who you are.
dammit.





and people are paranoid nowadays.
take an example about missA.
she got nothing to do with tht guy.
they are just goodfriends.
not as if stead =.-
and missA love to kick up a big fuss out of nothing.
she rrly thinks she's someone to be pacified.
she rrly thinks we have to kowtow to her.
she rrly thinks everything will go her way.
GROW UP CAN?
spolit brat.
don't kick up a fuss for nothing.
not everybody is as free as you. idiot.









i've said what i wanna say.
at least it's empty here.
at least not much people know about this place.
at least i got somewhere to share my burden with, other than my good friends.






all i wanna do now.
is get olevels over. with a 6pointer.
and concentrate on stjohn wholeheartedly.
seriously. i dread stjohn now.
after so much happened.
i just wish.
hai.










SOS.