55PAGES OF CPBS, what is this. otcphobia la!

it's 1st april tomorrow.
rememeber 1st april 2006?
my AA did me proud. they were great.
like never before.
they found their RAINBOW.

they were the 1st batch of AA. they set a good eg for the future batches to follow.
they never fail to deliver what is expected,
and most of the time they deliver what's more than expected.
i see how S1 head led his dept well this year.
i see how my no3 enthusiastically joined the trainer's rank to help the kids get champs.
i see how training head tried to get everything pieced up together.

they are really wonderful.
that's why i should carry on OTC.
they'll scold and kill me if i quit.
and the 55pages of CPBS for 1-hr lecture only. i'm really very sian diao.

i will carry on OTC! i must.
once their trainer, forever their's (:
i just can't help worrying about them sometimes,
but i know i should set a great example by enduring through this sunday shits, even if when i'm alone.

i really hate going to the animal course.
i really wanna go for promotion parade and see my proud babies (:
i'm so proud of myself.
other than losing comp, i am a good trainer, ain't i? ;P

SHE are like nerds!

omg, SHE releasing their albums only in mid-May, sad.
and they look like nerds doing gongfu, especialyl when selina's hair sucks, and ella and hebe wearing weird caps. haha.
but i'm so looking forward to their new album!

and i think i did great for today's LEP interview.
i hope i really get that scholarship. out of 40+ TJCians, only 7,8 can get. sad.
Tang LaoShi's ancient text really helped me alot la!
i'm so lucky to have memorised it straight after lessons.
WOOTS. i hope i get the 1000bucks per annum, it's really useful.

and today swimming was hot la!
it's damn funny too.
found out that my goggles and kok's are same! except for the colour.
you GAY, must be buy one get one free. hahaha. :p
our swim trunks also same brand! lol. we got amazed and took photos.
T.T








this is ytd in GP. lousy student.











HAHA CLOSEUP BEARRRR.







moon and all her lamest tricks.















bear looks happy under moon's compression.








ARH! lol, gayness 101%.















RAHHH!













i really feel tall!








and nabilah fiona and kahlun should really learn to go home earlier.
(: YOU ALL BETTER DO! haha.

i'm so random :) and i sell BRAs!

lol, seokie jiejie's evil pen.
i took this randomly on monday, cause i'm bored. accidentally took jiejie's itchy hand and her pen, and accidentally it pointed at the right spot. haha!




once upon a time, i like to tease jerome about him being IT head in xinmin.
now me myself, i'm joining IT club in tjc.lol, sounds funny la! KARMA.
kok says it's a drastic change from sjab training head to IT member.
well, who cares, as long as it's one-day cca weekly, as long as i can pursue stjohn :)

ARH! so random again, zhiyuan suddenly took a photo of us today.
i'm so short, and yeeling don't laugh la!
RAHHH ><
really really really to the power of infinity. why not infinity + 1?
mr lim said there's no difference.
i love huangguoxiong! i'm so glad he came to tjc.
we first agreeed to go ajc together, den nyjc, den ajc.
then i suddenly came to tjc under yuan's psycho,
and he came later!
oh my god, i've been so fortunate in my life.
thanks for everything, omg i just realise how important he was in the evening and randomly dropped him a sms! LOL.

so random today.
suddenly i wanna see yeeling and dingjie fast!
suddenly i wanna eat and eat. lol.
RANDOM!

and today during entrepreneurs' club [i went to try out],
me seokie yinyue yuzong and two other girls got to one group.
and we were given a task, to sell BRAs!
haha, we are from a lingerie company and has to fight with Triumph, Wacoal....
LOLOL. damn funny la.

supposed to think of marketing strategies.
we thought of Horoscope Series Bras, 3veryday Bras, Self-customised ones, etc.
and we still got addvertisements! it's damn funny and lame la!
our slogan is "WE SUPPORT YOU!" hahahaha.
and our company is Supporters™! lol.
ok, we were so funny la.
and we won the game today! could've get free subway cookies next year.
too bad i'm going to join ITclub.
haha.
at least i sold BRAs before, did you? :x

for everyone.

i heard so much,
i seen so much,
i've tolerated so much.

i believe.
no matter what you do, it just takes a heart.
if you have the heart, you will do it somehow.
if you can't, you are just wasting your time, unless you change yourself.
that's all i can say.

OTC theoryday 3 OVER! i'm tired.

OTC was tiring today.
i only enjoyed footdrill!
they make us hentak kaki like mad.
the timing damn damn fast!
and the marching timing is as fast as the hentak! RAHH.
keep doing turning turning and turning, and saluting.
under the hot sun.
everybody was wet in their uniform after the 30-minute footdrill session.
at least i learnt warm-up skills on footdirll :) so crazy n fun!
it's mad but i like the training.

presentation skills lecture like very boring to me huh.
lol, even my instructor [sam sir] said i'm quiet today. hmmm.
AND MOI! omg, my first aid MOI topic is top to toe survey.
it's PRACTICAL! i'm going to die.

ok, time for lame pictures.



























mrs miller and the shining fairy! lol.













moon and bev caught in action ar!



in teacherless PW...


































pretty CRYstal.


















how random can koksiong get! haha.
taken at the swimming pool after tiring 40laps.
omg, luckily i have him in tj! arhhh. love you man!


















yesterday [sat] at NHQ.zone7 sec1 inauguration!
omg sec1s really got life.
northvista came in first! shit.
xinmin was second :D yay to xmsjab sec1s. hyper like siao.
this is when i still got my hair.
now, i cut half of my fringe, slope and everything terrible. ):
and i changed my url to http://yel-low.blogspot.com
the hyphen thing is getting on my nerves!

left 4theory days of OTC.
jiayou wenbin...
end of april coming.
FAC over soon, flagday over soon!
okay shall do my geog!

tired! stjohn......

i'm really tired.
i really don't have the feel for zone and NHQ stuff.
yet i have to do it, since i'm an OCT. sad.
nevermind, after this few months it's over! :D

and i'm really really very tired.
sigh, OTC fast fast go away!
maybe because of swimming today ba.
blah, i don't know!
i only know.
next friday 30 march got LEp scholarship interview in the evening.
at MOE, that's BUONA VISTA.
i can die of anything there! so far la.
then 31 mar is flag day at 6.30am. i'll die instantly...

anyway, i really hope.
i can make it for promotion parade.
i really wanna see my juniors promote,
especially my training dept and AA! [provided if they do promote]
and maybe that's the last time i'll be seeing them.
they're stepping down already! and i won't be coming back that often as well.
sad, but well, life's likedat.
you make choices, and you have to give up some important stuff in your life.
maybe after flag day onwards, only going back for 1 hour on friday,
lol, somemore without adam burr and tr, feels so weird.

i also hope, i can make it for CPN@ pulau ubin.
it's on 29,30 june!
the friday and saturday after school reopens.
oh man, i think i got common test around that period.
but i guess i will go, bringing my notes over that?
haha.

shit, i should control myself from going back too often.
studies comes first! but.
sigh, i really will miss adam burr n tr la.
sadd.

OTC! fast fast go away!

bloody computer. you suck!

okay.
my computer is crazy.
with IE or mozilla, it's the same!
i can't visit burr's adam's weiqi's and even my own blog!
cause, blogs with '-' infront or at the back are no acknowledged in my sickening computer.
you freak ass comp.
i shall only care about you when you care about me.
so, not gng to blog! haha.


i felt much better, although i'm still not good. :D
i miss AA again, bad habit.
my compteam trainers hang in there, you all can do it de!

wenbin hang in there, JC life's gonna be tough,
so you gonna be tougher!

i'm trying to be tougher, i'm so weak.

life's tough.

what a crybaby.
haha, i love to cry, seriously i'm mad.
i think i've got a faulty faucet.

i am mentally weak la.
so weak that i can't stand anything.
fatigue's taking its toll on me, or not?
maybe it's just me and myself.
but i'm tired, real tired.
i wish to take a break from everything and anything.
i wish to quit school, stop studying and do what i want everyday.
forget it, that's impossible.

otc, new jc life, travelling distance.
everything and anything, i just could take it no longer.
i'm so weird.
i don't really wanna tell my jc peers. i shouldn't be selfish and affect them yea.
luckily, i still got koksiong zhiyuan and changrong.
and i really miss yeeling and dingjie.

everyday i get out of the house, everybody's still asleep.
den everytime i got back home, my parents' still working.
den when its time to sleep, they sometimes are not even back.
i know its not what they want, they can't help it too. but.
i dntknow la.
just feeling supportless.

all i remembered the last thing dad said to me was "i'm proud you got 6points!".
and it's last month.

ahh. i'm just crazy.
nostalgia overwhelms.

OTC theory course day 2 OVER, jiayou wenbin!

the missing photos for "life's a bitch' post.


































today's OTC is tough.
PT was like, never before.
the toughest one of my life.
everyone was sweating like mad dogs,
especially me.
i think i'm some dark cloud with limbs doing exercises.
my god.
the officer still say we can split our legs if we do more of the exercises.
true, though. my goddd.

"when you find something difficult and you don't like it. the only solution is to keep doing it. you will overcome it eventually."
this is the only thing i learnt, i guess.

AND, i got a preliminary warning from my SI [senior instructor].
for my HAIR, adelard too. like so. wth. haha.
must cut, if not warning letter to me, and CC to zone commissioner!
walao, like so serious likedat. :x
who's the zone com anyway? haha!

i'm thinking, if i can't go for OTC camp,
then i would needa wait for camp next year.
then i would be commissioned only together with adam they all.
although that's not what i want obviously, wait 2 years for CSO(6)? haha.
like so crazy, hmmm :/

luckily went home tgt with chelsa, if not i would cry out loud.
next saturday is sec1 inauguration, boring!

sundays are dreaddays.

arhh. OTC tmr. i'm really really scared somehow.
i'm tired and don't wanna go.

but people, don't tell me to give up, or ask me why whatever.
just push me, motivate me!
either i make it, or i fail the course. no OOC for me.
i'm not gonna quit halfway.
many will be disappointed.

i like to think alot, but that's how i behave.
perssimistic, stupid, dumb, crybaby, whatever.

n u irresponsible person.
i hope you fail your course first.

cry out loud.
thanks burrneh.
ARHHHHHH!

life's a bitch, accept it.

you are an OCT, an alumni member of XMSJAB.
imagine, someone calls you out of the SJAB room.

this someone's some auntie senior from some other cca.
she's NOT from xmsjab, never ever will we have such an impudent auntie.
she told you 'your cadets comment about my **, and i'm not happy with it."

lol, i'm like, "sigh, typical cases from you people again."
before i could even speak, she said,
"either you run 5 rounds for me, or you apologise infront of my *whoever*, or i'll complain to mrs irene ang."

HOLY SHIT. you incurred my wrath.
what a bitch!

FIRSTLY, SHE'S NOT FROM SJAB! she calls me [it's ME!] to run FIVE rounds!
omg, the punishment she gave to her members, she give it to ME?!
and she PUNISH ME?! what the fuck.
SECONDLY, you bitch, you told mdmsock about mutual respect. what shit do you know about that?
mutual respect is to punish some senior of ANOTHER uniform group? idiot.
never am i your trainee, and never will i be, even if i castrate myself! ass.
THIRDLY, there's no mrs irene ANG! stop assuming everyone got the surname ANG. rahhh. bitch.

trying to gain fame in my blog right, I KNOW.
okay, you are the bitch of 2007, auntie of 2007, and asshole of 2007.
ENOUGH?
i may be much younger, but i know what's my limitations and what i can do and i cannot do!
what impudence, you really got me peeved.
forget it, i'm gonna be so civilised i shall not say where you're from.
not your cadets' fault, it's yours, ONLY.
wearing sandals and you teach footdrill, HAH. what joke.
talking about seniors setting good examples.
go home and feed your dog.

haha.
okay TOC!
i keep pronouncing it as OTC. lolol.


siewbeng, as promised, a part of your face on my blog. haha.

then, went PS with huang guoxiong! :D


talked alot alot.
and see! it's the first time he can't finish his 2-piece meal.
miraculous.
and talked about college life.
it's tough and yea. 1.5 years will pass very very fast!
i must grab hold of every second and minute.
yes i can do it! :D

seokie jiejie! specially for you! i took a photo of a HELLOKITTY car! :D

finally, we took a photo again! :D


okay, camp debrief tmr.
OTC's coming!
all-time dreaded.

LISTEN. emo!

went sakae yesterday! [tues] with my tjc dears!
before that went klunch with purepigs.
bad experience, don't remind me.
i was doing free shows and serena took it all in video!
RAH!

haha, i also did photoshop yeeling!





















went out with arvina and jerome to watch dreamgirls today.
hahaha. i miss jeromeeeee alot!

















nah, don't feel like blogging.
bye.

i admire S3, the trainers and myself!

lol. what an alaf picture.

taken a month ago i think, ADAM ANG.

camp was kinda fun, but very very tiring. especially for the trainers. the PCs worked real hard, of course the SCs also! kinda amazed by kenneth nabilah and shumin's performance. they really were not bad. the S-level trainers were superb too! although there's some minor cockups and problems, but they really were efficient. S3 im so sry! didn't get best dept cause of me :x haha -pats my head- wooo, yay. fun camp.

sad to book out on the last day of camp and go to OTC. damn they thought i'm really an elephant. treated me like some animal. yes it's OTC, officer trng course, NOT ATC. damn. "we'll treat you like adults, blahblah." YES WE ARE YOUNG ADULTS, but we were treated like YOUNG ANIMALS. it all started with 'A', so it's the same yea? haha. BULLSHIT.

and i never forget that officer for scolding me cos' i closed my eyes for a minute. damn. and Tango was short-strengthed. haha. 10 out of 16 only. the other 6 must have known OTC would sucks.

damn, still have PT during theory courses! it's like wth? and they want ME TO CHANGE MY FULL U. think la, if i really become officer, den i don't need my full u already. even if i don't become one, i still no need, my corps don't require me to change. okay let's not use 'require', let's use FORCE. thanks kunyang, he's gonna lend me his full u. :D

okay, i don't wanna describe further. but people please motivate me! i still got 6 theory days, camp, and a gazillion of projects! omg, and the theory test doesn't test you on the lectures, it test you on ANYTHING! even dining etiquette. oh my tian, as crap as shit.

should i like give up, or continue?

if i give up, it's for myself.

if i continue, it's for XMSJAB, never for z7 or hq.

but if i give up, i think many people gonna get disappointed...

sigh.

MOTIVATE ME, someone.

Off To Camp.

i don't wanna take another glance on my tagboard.

9Mar[friday] to 11Mar[sunday] i'm off to camp.
please do not call me or anything.
if you wanna reach me, sms me. i'll try to reply you asap.


i hope S3 gets the best dept.
i hope whoever-i-thought-of don't disappoint and get the trainee award.
i hope i can meet serena in xms at 3AM when all activities of sjab and guzheng cease.
haha.

omg, i miss 1-0 and dj alot alot.
arhhhhhh.
dj if you see this, i support you to appeal to nyjc.
it might be alil bit cheena, but atleast it's better than where you are now.
(:
1-0! SAKAEEEEEEE.

ok, learning to pull up my socks and wearing white canvas shoes.
how long did i not wear long socks? haha.
well, everyone in camp looks ugly, from CO all the way to any trainee.
haha, i'm so not ready for OTC on day3.

bye people, i'll miss everyone.
Your attitude, not your aptitude, determines your altitude.
haha. caibao's [the DM] quote. the most meaningful thing he said.
S1 used it for camp this year, should thank S3 :)

whatever.

sigh.
i'm just sad.
yeeling... ):
dingjie... ):
ziwei... ):
vanessa... ):
and sherly my mortal. ):

sigh la.
sighhhh!
and mummy made me realise i touched people's hearts.
thanks mummy, you must move on!
i'll motivate you de, don't cry le!!!!

ok, don't feel like blogging.
1-0, thanks for your rittersport! :D

my dearest dingjie and yeeling especially, arhhh.
i can't help but think about it again.

the extent of headache is proportional to the size of the head.

BIG heads have BIG headaches.
dingjie is real crappy.
but maybe that's true.
ohman. feel so feverish.
but much better than this morning.

found myself so heavy.
i thought i weighed a thousand tonnes.
i can't lift myself up la.
and i felt hot, burning hot.

but i still went to school.
last day before postings out.
must go and look at my friends!
like stupid bird lisa.
BEN NIAO XIAN FEI ARH!


haha ok, yesterday's recce was fun. ;D





































alafed with yvonnelim today. hahahah.
must be the influence of LISA.
















































ok la lisa, go to your NJC lor.*bu xue*
koksiong coming TJC! yayyyyyyy. hahahahaha.
you're going to carry me to school on wed, i'm still sick!

okay, headache really is unbearable.
sorry mummy, i'll sleep early from now onwards.
should be because i slept late.
slept at 2am and woke up at 5am.
dots. so busy.
hope camp comes soon.

there's recce tmr, weee.
ok bye, don't feel like talking today.

WHEE I'M TIRED.

CPL TO SGT PROMOS ARE OVER :D
haha, they did great.
especially AA, sigh. look who their trainer is. :P

okay, so on friday, went stjohn mtg at night.
didn't go for nyjc chinese drama.
kinda sad, but i needa know how to priortise.
let me wait for another year ba (:

yesterday! it's a long day.
went for breakfast with adam and tianrong before firstaid promos.
bernie decided to be hardworking and went for extra remedial by weiqi.





























haha i can't help but take photos :x


ok rushed to HQ after everything, with mdmsock and sir adrian.
the meeting was.. draggy and kinda boring.
they spent their 2 -3 hours talking about the POSTS OF FAC.
that's like, so duh. haha forget it. i'm homenursing runner!
lol, teach me homenursing weiqi.
then had OCTs meeting with the other OCTs, on sec1 inauguration.
wee i'm in administration! so cool, never done that before. waakaka.
but i predict that OTC will be tiring and tough.
OTC just sent me a letter, i'm in Tango. boo, not Juliet. sad.


YAY, i finally got a chance to wear this out. hahahah. i'm so freaking happy.
it's guofa gorgor's big day!



















fierce? yeeling must be scared! -mumbles and grumbles-

imagine someone changed your diapers when he himself was just a young boy.
he endured your cries from dawn to dusk and from dusk to dawn everyday.
he sees you everyday being so naughty!
haha, i'm so happy for him today.

alright, off to the army market!

TO THE JUNIORS :D

HEY PEOPLE.
i have to do the GP powerpoint.
got nothing to blog anyway. hahha.

ohmy dearest sec4 squad.
haha, the only squad i taught when i was an instructor, i guess.
jiayou for the upcoming promotion tests!
i give you moral support!

and the resttttttt. like sec3s! haha.
you all can do it, provided if you all want to.
tell yourselves you want to.
YOU CAN DE LA! :D

i thnk i'm coupled with staff stella for lcp to cpl.
yay, gonna be fun tmr.

OH, miss georgie, all the best for your alevel results tmr! :D