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no longer like this space actually. :)
so, yes. moving back to my old house.


AND, NA ALL THE BEST FOR NATIONALS!
feeling jittery every now and then, scary. haha.

Hi Bro.

After finishing H3 exam, I lost my goal in this 12th year of education.
I don't know how to start studying again! (So weird but kinda true.)

Met Jerome on Monday, and something he said struck me (he always do that).
"Wenbin, what happened, you've become so lazy!"
And he gave me a rub on the shoulders.
Hmmm.

I thought about it... ... ... ...
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I've been very lazy this year. What's wrong?
Oh man.

I'm glad he woke me up, at least for that instance.
I will work hard for my goal! Yes! :)
Thanks Brother, you did it again.

November 2007.

16 November 2007.

Set off with my three best friends.

Looking forward to almost everything, except the lessons.

Anticipating snow, shopping and everything good.

15days changed our lives drastically.

It gave us good memories. It made our bond stronger.

It's not the great Chinese architecture but the stairs we climbed together.

It's not the weather but the coats we switched, and laughed about how stupid we look.

It's not the hotel facilities but the roommates we had.

It's not the food we had but the jokes we cracked during dinner.

It's not the tasty noodles but the funny waiters and encounter.

It's not the tour group, but the four of us.

It's a warm winter.

And I'm recollecting it, all over again. How?

PZY said she missed last winter too. MJY too. How about you NKS?
:)

And although sometimes I hate to admit this, but I miss you a lot, I hope you're doing fine and keeping up with studies! I'm sure you are. I'm sure you miss us too.

I'm sure you miss the wonderful meals, those rice buckets you've cleared, that funny girl, the times we talked when we see nothing but each others' minds, the times we aren't together when we are together. I can't believe we went through so much again, in this 15 days.

Oh, stop it. Hmmm, I wonder when we will ever quarrel again. It beats keeping silent all these while.

MJY I'm sure you missed your cockroach! And your PZY who's the only one willing to go green with you, haha. And those very ugly shots taken of you, us, and the * photo taken at Wang Fu Jing. Haha, :) And those plane rides! I sat with you, and the feeling's different when we went there and when we came back, cos' the topics were different. Of course the conversation we had when we were returning was more fun, :D HAHA, don't beat me. I'm sure you missed those too. AND, your lettuce burger at Mac! LOL.

PZY! Oh my god our second Beijing trip together! Maybe there's going to be a third one! Haha. You and your jokes, and your Kang Shifu! Haha, oh man. Second time up the Great Wall together, feels great eh? And your sausages, you had a lot of them in Beijing lor! I just realised everything about you is food! Haha, can't stop eating eh? Bridge with xx and jelyn, bla bla. Your jokes keep my laughing cells alive 24/7! And your stomachaches! And that day where you felt sick and moody. Oh man. You wasted a day not having fun! :(

Oh man, I miss us, together.

Getting caught in our room, with one in the toilet, and one beside the bed, but slippers all around. Exchanging coats like nothing, and isolating mine. Eating zhajiangmian at that restaurant, getting laughed at cos' we know nothing and we ourselves had a good laugh. The long boring lectures, where we tried to kill time entertaining each other, or doing other productive stuff. The literature museum, instead of learning we fooled around with the statues? Or maybe the shopping trips to the Olympics merchandise stores, where we bought alot of those dolls and stuff? Haha. I really miss us.

The last time we got together was NKS's birthday, eh? That's 5 months ago already.

When are we going for ice cream again? Or another meal at the canteen, sitting on those a-bit-too-small chairs and eat those hard-like-rocks buns. Or maybe another visit to the museum, even a boring visit was made fun, and memorable. Or maybe even Mac, I want to make a special order for MJY. I want hot fudge sundae again. Or more dumplings? Maybe another trip to the supermarket. Ahh, reminiscing.

30 November 2007, came back. The trip ended, memories didn't.

The camera just couldn't catch enough of the best moments.

I had a great winter.

I mean, I had one of the best winters in my life, and in the decades to come.

With 3 of the best friends made at three different stages of my life, this is timeless.

I wish winter don't come anymore, cos' nothing would be better than the last one.

When we get together, :)

YAY!

I LOVE ALL! :)

but where's huimin and justin? i love them still :D

and haven't seen richard in 17863238654 days!

finally saw him and caught up, oh i still miss him!

jiayou for your practices! :)

Shopped a little today, everything I bought was red! :D

OKAY,

studies-wise, I AM VERY SLOW.

haven't start geography at all.

And I aim to finish Econs by tomorrow.

Haha, guess I will skip a lot of chapters. :(

Honestly, I am not prepared for JCTs this time, and stubborn me refused to do anything about that.

I still love them, at least that's all that matters now, not the exams. :D

THANKS MEL.

I never do this kind of lame shit thing before (I think.).
But for MEL, alright, shall try once and see how, lol.

1. At what age do you wish to get married?
Hmm, honestly, 28. HAHA.

2. Study hard or Play hard?
Die hard, studying and playing are tough.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
I don't know, actually.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Yes, and no. Stupid question.

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
I have a lot of dreams, hmm. Maybe I want 48 hours each day!

6. What is your idea of a friend?
Presence, trust, care and love.

7. What is your goal this year?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Guess so.

9. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
Eat, eat and eat. Then go slim down, then eat, then slim down and eat... Buy clothes, more of them, I want red blue green yellow pink all shit colours! Donate to Szechuan and Burma. Renovate the house, blabla. If you have all the time and money in the world, you'll do everything!

10. If time were to unwind, what would you want to change?
Hmm, don't think I would want to change. Life don't need a rewind.

11. What is the weirdest thing you have ever done?
LOL. I don't know what's weird.

12. What feelings you hate the most?
Disappointment.

13. What is your childhood ambition?
To be a teacher, hmmm.

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe I guess.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
To be able to eat. LOL.

16. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
Me, myself, I.

17. One person who you think will be able to guide you through everything?
I don't know actually.

18. Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
Talks like a machine gun!

19. Do you deserve to be loved?
Of course, hee.

20. Do you believe in vampires and werewolves?
Yes actually, woah.

THIS IS BORING, LOL.

When we can't go back.

We recollect the past.

CARAMEL.

I love CR and MEL!

I LOVE CARAMEL! LOL.

Text me if you need me alright, I love you big neh boy and witch.

(and I'm not used to having a tanned complexion, weird.)

I met Lisa today too, I love you too!

Stop fantasising about things that never ever happen and start studying and build your beautiful future! HAHA. :)

And I'm not starting to study like how I should!

Oh man.

Oh and I met Yvonne Maam from Nanhua Corps today.

She didn't change, still as fierce and violent as ever, :)

And I guess she's the most respected officer to me and my squad outside Xinmin, especially Kunyang and Weiqi. Sometimes I wish she was still here. I always learn from her, and Sock Maam and Weiye Sir, haha.

YES I WILL STUDY HARD FOR ALEVELS!

Now, some target setting for JCTs. Even if it sounds stupid, I'm still aiming for it anyway.

H2 Chinese Lit : 70/100 (A)

H2 Economics : 55/100 (C)

H2 Geography : 65/100 (B)

H2 Mathematics : 85/100 (A)

H1 General Paper : 50/100 (D)

Haha, Econs seems hard but yea, ALL THE WAY LOOWB!

(Actually, everything seems hard, lol.)

Lastly, I really hope you'd stay. But if circumstances and the heart doesn't allow, we have no choice too.
All the best.

:)

Truckloads of bullshit.

CDI was cool.
Bravo was the coolest. We won the competition!
And Adam Sir (lol.) and Peirong Maam were cooler than coolest. They aren't in the sun! Grr.
I learnt a lot again from this 3D2N course. One of the better zone event organised.
At least there's meaning for both the trainees and trainers.
But for the Instructor Team from the corps, I expected more. Oh well.
Then again, I saw another side of them, more to the positive one.







































































































CDI camp was good.
I enjoyed the company of the trainers, my cadets and the people from Bravo alot.
And of course not forgetting Yongqing Sir (lol sounds cute), Staff Nab and Staff Mich!
Thanks for coming man, laughing with me hysterically during the Happy Hour (lol again.) and clearing up the breakfast. Oh talking about food, the food was good! And Tanglin is a funny place, somehow.
I'm loving the smell of the snake powder, whatever you call it. And seriously Nerissa looks like Shumin, lol.


IT CLUB CAMP.
Don't want to elaborate.
The worst camp I've had.
I've never got been scolded so much within such a short period of time, not even in some 3D2N or 4D3N SJAB camp. I've never seen people pushing blames around like anything, when I thought we should work as one committee.
Exco is truly disappointing, but so am I. Oh well, enough is enough, and you *, shut your trap and do something beneficial rather than nagging and talking nonsense. Second home eh, haha. Whatever. And you, better don't come to me, and apologise because as an Exco member you skipped the whole camp. B__h.
I regret myself for not being firmer, and being in control of the situation, okay fine.
It's over. I'm glad it's over.
This lesson's painful, so I'll remember it.
I hope I'm out of school this minute. It's such a wrong place for me. I can't find passion and purpose there.

Stop thinking, and start studying. I miss SJAB.

Blog blog blog mindblock.

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL WEDNESDAY EVENING WHEN I JUST REACHED HOME FROM SCHOOL.
YES, it's SCHOOL during the beautiful holidays. Thanks arh, tsk.
Okay fine, I haven't blog for a while. ALRIGHT FINE, more than a while.
Mardi Gras, was okay. didn't dress up, no time to, don't want to, and lots of reasons for not dressing up. Haha, but it was fun, somehow.




omg, again.

























JASONLOW! omg i'll miss his stupid (ironically he's a genius) face since there's no more H3.






Last Saturday was cycling for the kids! Quite fun eh, I enjoyed it. I'm sure Miss Ng Mr Chow and Adam enjoyed it too. I wonder if the juniors did so too.






























FIELDWORK! On monday eh? Yup monday. Haha, was kind of, fun! LOL.
Photos kindly edited by Maziah! :)











































(RANDOM: I MET JIAYING SOMETIME LAST WEEK TOO! :) I LOVE YOU!)

Okay, back to life.

Yesterday was an eventful day.
Saw that with my own bloody eyes, and I really woke up and thought about everything. Was quite stupid to trap myself inside this maze, and actually all I have to do is to get out of it. Maybe Someone up there decided to give me a lil' push and reminded me of the life I have ahead. Should move on and stop dwelling on the past. Yes that's true.
So I hope, I will not hear from you again, so I won't get swayed by my own thoughts and emotions again. Thanks friend, do me this last favour. I guess I'm determined to move on this time, right wb?

There's alot of things in my head that I want to tell someone, that I want to forget, that I never want it to happen. But sometimes again, what's the use of telling others? Matters are still like that, not as if wasting more saliva means solving the problem. So today, I rather keep matters to myself. Maybe I can do it better alone.
Yet, I'm scared of this kind of thought I'm having. Tell me it's just part of growing up. Hmmm.

And I realise I'm getting more and more naggy, haha. I hope that's something good. I should nag myself into studying. I should also nag myself into thinking lesser and acting more.
Omg lots of thinking really can kill. I'm scared of myself, somehow.
I'm scared of you too, I don't want to turn into you.

Tell all of you another secret,
I'm actually looking forward to CDI, hee. Hope it's fun. I hope I can slim down, lol!
HI ADAM, I will see you again.

"It doesn't matter as long as the right ones stay :)," a right one said so.
Hee, thanks a lot Director (LOL).

Wait! I got a new hair, ok not exactly new, but newer. I got a feeling Moon and Seok will see NO difference (again) but bear will notice.
And MOON call me okay! Got something to tell you about CLL tmr! I hope you bought a better phone!

To end off, a very childish photo Serena took yesterday, of me sucking my ice ermm. What do you call this in English? Lol mindblock.










Tell you another secret, ok two.
I really really miss secondary school life.
And, I feel like switching to a LJ, hmm.

Hi Friends.

OMG ONE MORE THING TO ADD.

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All the best for your common test richard, I miss you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA TAN, I'll see you soon!
We should go watch a movie soon Rachel! Kungfu Panda? :D
JEROME LAU, study? :)
Mel mel mel MEOW, lol. Next week!
App App App Apple Dave CCR! Erm, next week too? :D
Chua wenlin! I very long never go Seoul Garden already, lol random.
Laowu! Movie with Rachel? Maybe zhiyuan and jon?

Yup. :)

Love, WB.

To learn and never be filled, is wisdom; to teach and never be weary, is love.

Six years of my life here, in this little big family, from young to old, from being naive to the mature self, I have to thank a lot of people along the way.
One of those, one of the most important, will be our Corps Superintendent.

If not for you, I will not be back. You gave me and my mates so many opportunities, for me to stand in front of the young ones with such confidence and presence, and experienced so so many, that when I didn't join the brigade when I was in Xinmin, I would've regretted it so much, that I'd lead a stupid life.

But I am sorry, really sorry. If Yongqing's squad gave you lots of troubles and disappointments, I am sure my squad did as well, or even more. Attendance, disciplinary problems, re-shuffling and re-deployments, ... , I wonder we were the worst batch in your years of being the TIC, especially when we were between CL Zuli's very strong squad, and Liying's.

Now that you are leaving us, after ten years of leading the corps, I wonder how are you feeling. I wonder, when you are in the other school, finding no black and white uniform group, no corps leaders calling you from outside the staff room almost daily, no rejecting of proposals and scolding of cadets, no parade square to stand on with hundreds of cadets looking up to you, or dreading your presence, Maam, I wonder, would you miss us?

I am sure you will, cos' we'll miss you too. We'll still bag those CAA Gold, those FAC trophies, those weird bowling competition awards, and many more back to our corps even when you're not with us physically. We'll still apply hell lots of badges until HQ don't have the stocks, we'll continue to produce quality and strong leaders for the corps and brigade, and maintain our undefeatable position as the strongest uniform group in Xinmin. I know when all these happen, you'll be as happy as when you're still our Corps Supt. I know you won't leave us.

And personally, thank you. For giving me a lot a lot of chances, even when you faced oppositions, even when your stand was not agreed by many others. For your persistance, I swear to serve as long as I can.

Thank you, teacher.
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Corps Presentation Night 2008.
Wasn't involved in all the fun cos' half the time I wasn't around, if not preparing for the farewell segment. But indeed it was the most memorable one I had, apart from CPN 2006. Good work Publicity, for producing something in only one or two weeks' time, since the preparation was so short. For that you all deserved a pat, especially Michelle Kenneth Esther and Tsern Ting, great work!

Saw lots of supersuper (old) seniors too! Maam Aminah, Sir Samuel, (even) Sir Charles, Sir Willy, Maam Sufang, Sir Eugene, CL Kokwei, Maam Ayu, and of course AC's dearest Maam Hawa. Remembered alot of them, cos' I learnt alot from them. Like Sir Charles, I think he only appeared once in my SJ life, and that's sec one where he taught us something, haha. CL Kokwei, who spent some time talking to me when I got CL rank at sec 4, and that inspired me. Maam Ayu, who guided me alot from ITC period till I became an instructor. And of course Maam Hawa, who scolded us and woke us up, all the way till we got our Zone Champions.
:)

I love SJAB. I love Mrs Tan!

(and CL Vivian, yet another successful project accomplished by the best parters of SJ! :D)